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Originally Processed With FOIA(s): FOIA Number: S S FOIA MARKER This is not a textual record. This is used as an administrative marker by the George Bush Presidential Library Staff. Record Group/Collection: George H.W. Bush Presidential Records Collection/Office of Origin: Speechwriting, White House Office of Series: Speech File Backup Files Subseries: Chron File, 1989-1993 OA/ID Number: 13776 Folder ID Number: 13776-001 Folder Title: National Law Enforcement Officer Memorial 10/15/91 [OA 8330][ [1] Stack: Row: Section: Shelf: Position: G 26 21 7 1 LAW ENFORCEMENT MEMORIAL DEDICATION \ JUDICIARY SQUARE TUESDAY, OCTOBER 15, 1991 \ 2:45 P.M. THANK YOU, SEN. D'AMATO AND CRAIG FLOYD. I WANT TO RECOGNIZE SEN. PELL AND SEN. THURMOND AND THE OTHER MEMBERS OF CONGRESS HERE TODAY. I ALSO WANT TO SALUTE ACTING ATTORNEY GENERAL BILL BARR AND FORMER ATTORNEY GENERAL ED MEESE. LADIES AND GENTLEMEN. 11 THIS NATION HAS ERECTED MANY MONUMENTS TO GENERALS AND ADMIRALS, TO PRIVATES AND SEAMEN, WHO DEFENDED OUR NATION'S FREEDOM AGAINST TYRANNY AND OPPRESSION. - 2 - WE GATHER HERE TODAY TO DEDICATE THIS MEMORIAL TO UNIFORMED HEROES OF ANOTHER SORT: THOSE WHO ENFORCE THE LAW AND KEEP US SECURE HERE AT HOME. FOR TOO LONG, AMERICA'S LAWMEN AND WOMEN HAVE BEEN THE FORGOTTEN HEROES -- FORGOTTEN UNTIL THERE'S TROUBLE, UNTIL WE'RE STRANDED ON THE ROAD, OR FRANTICALLY DIALING NINE-ONE-ONE AT HOME. - 3 - TODAY WE REMEMBER THESE HEROES AND HEROINES. "Now THE REAL HEALING CAN START," SAYS VIVIAN ENEY [EE-NEE], WHO so MANY OF YOU KNOW. "WHEN THE GRAVE DOESN'T LOOK NEW ANYMORE, WHEN THE GRASS HAS GROWN OVER IT," SHE SAYS, "THIS WILL BE THE PLACE TO COME, TO SEE THE NAMES -- TO TOUCH THE NAMES." VISITORS WILL COME HERE. SOME WILL BE CHILDREN, PERHAPS LOOKING FOR A FATHER OR MOTHER THEY NEVER REALLY KNEW. - 4 - WHO WERE THESE PEOPLE? THEY WILL ASK. \ THEY WERE POLICEMEN AND POLICEWOMEN, MARSHALS AND SHERIFFS, STATE TROOPERS AND SPECIAL AGENTS. THEY GAVE THEIR LIVES IN THE LINE OF DUTY. THEY WERE YOUNG AND OLD, RANGING FROM 19 TO 81. THEY HAD NAMES AS DIVERSE AS AMERICA ITSELF: DONALD KOWALSKI, PATRICK O'MALLEY, FREDDIE LEE JACKSON, TOMMY DELAROSA, JOSÉ GONZALES, DONNA MILLER. THEY HAD WIVES AND HUSBANDS, MOTHERS AND FATHERS, AND so MANY YOUNG CHILDREN. - 5 - MOST OF ALL THEY HAD LOVE -- LOVE FOR THEIR PROFESSION; LOVE FOR THEIR COMMUNITIES; LOVE FOR THEIR FAMILIES; LOVE THAT CAN STILL BE FELT 11 IN THIS SPECIAL PLACE 11 RIGHT HERE TODAY. 11 THEY DEVOTED THEMSELVES TO THE TIMELESS VALUES THAT SOCIETY SHARES. THEY VALUED THE LAW. THEY VALUED PEACE -- THE PEACE OF A CIVILIZED COMMUNITY THAT PROTECTS CHILDREN AT PLAY, FAMILIES AT HOME, AND STOREKEEPERS AT WORK. DE - 6 - THEY VALUED HUMAN LIFE -- so MUCH THAT THEY WERE PREPARED TO GIVE THEIR LIVES TO PROTECT IT. THEY GAVE MUCH, AND ASKED LITTLE. THEY DESERVE OUR REMEMBRANCE. HERE IN AMERICA'S CAPITAL, FOR AS LONG AS THESE WALLS STAND, THEY WILL BE REMEMBERED. NOT FOR THE WAY THEY DIED, BUT FOR HOW THEY LIVED. THEY DIDN'T ASK FOR HONORS, THOUGH HONOR THEM WE WILL. WE HONOR THEM WITH THESE WALLS -- WITH THESE TREES AND GRASS AND QUIET POOL OF WATER. - 7 - BUT WE CAN HONOR THEM IN A MORE PROFOUND WAY -- A MORE LASTING WAY -- BY STRENGTHENING THE LAWS THEY SWORE TO UPHOLD. SINCE 1989, ON A RAINY SPRING DAY I KNOW MANY OF YOU REMEMBER, I HAVE TRIED TO PERSUADE CONGRESS THAT OUR POLICE NEED HELP. Too MANY TIMES, IN TOO MANY CASES, TOO MANY CRIMINALS GO FREE BECAUSE THE SCALES OF JUSTICE ARE UNFAIRLY TIPPED AGAINST DEDICATED LAWMEN AND WOMEN LIKE YOU. WITH YOUR HELP, THAT WILL CHANGE. - 8 - WE NEED A CRIME BILL THAT WILL STOP THE ENDLESS, FRIVOLOUS HABEUS CORPUS APPEALS THAT WASTE TIME PROSECUTORS COULD BE SPENDING ON NEW CASES. WE NEED A CRIME BILL THAT SAYS TO POLICE, IF YOU ACT IN GOOD FAITH, EVIDENCE WILL NOT BE SUPPRESSED IN COURT BASED ON NEEDLESS TECHNICALITIES. WE NEED A CRIME BILL WITH TOUGH PENALTIES -- SUCH AS A 10-YEAR MINIMUM SENTENCE To ANYONE USING A SEMI-AUTOMATIC WEAPON IN A VIOLENT OR DRUG-RELATED CRIME -- WITH NO PLEA BARGAINS AND NO PAROLE. - 9 - AND WE NEED A CRIME BILL THAT WARNS WOULD-BE KILLERS OUT THERE: BE PREPARED TO PAY WITH YOUR OWN LIFE. I ASKED CONGRESS TO PASS THESE PROPOSALS MORE THAN TWO YEARS AGO. I'VE GOTTEN ONLY A PIECEMEAL RESPONSE. THIS WEEK, THE HOUSE OF REPRESENTATIVES IS VOTING ON A CRIME BILL. BUT FOR THAT BILL TO BE WORTH ANYTHING, IT MUST CONTAIN THE CRUCIAL ELEMENTS I'VE CITED -- ELEMENTS THE HOUSE JUDICIARY COMMITTEE REFUSED TO INCLUDE IN THE BILL. - 10 - CONGRESS IS ONLY A FEW BLOCKS AWAY. THEY'VE HEARD FROM ME; THEY NEED TO HEAR FROM YOU. THERE'S A WAR GOING ON OUT THERE -- A WAR BETWEEN CRIMINALS AND A GOOD SOCIETY. WE KNOW THAT WAR WILL NOT END, AS LONG AS EVIL DWELLS IN MEN'S SOULS. BUT WE CAN WORK TO LOCK UP THOSE WHO ARE TOO VIOLENT TO LIVE IN CIVILIZED SOCIETY. WE CAN SUPPORT THE LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS WHO ARE ON THE FRONT LINES DAY AFTER DAY. - 11 - AND WE CAN PUT NEW LAWS ON THE BOOKS TO KEEP NEW NAMES OFF THESE WALLS. PRESIDENT COOLIDGE TOLD US, "THE NATION WHICH FORGETS ITS DEFENDERS WILL ITSELF BE FORGOTTEN." \ WE WILL NOT FORGET. AMERICA \ WILL NOT FORGET. WE WILL NOT FORGET THOSE WHO HAVE DIED. AND WE WILL NOT FORGET THOSE WHO PROTECT AND SERVE EVERY DAY OF THE YEAR. III IN THE OVAL OFFICE, MANY IMPORTANT PAPERS AND DOCUMENTS CROSS MY DESK EACH DAY. - 12 - MOST OF THEM STAY THERE BUT A DAY OR TWO. BUT INSIDE THE DRAWER, ONE THING STAYS: A NEW YORK CITY PATROLMAN'S BADGE -- NUMBER 14072. IT BELONGED TO EDDIE BYRNE, A ROOKIE COP WHO WAS GUARDING A WITNESS WHEN HE WAS GUNNED DOWN ON THE ORDERS OF A DRUG DEALER IN JAIL. EDDIE'S FATHER ASKED ME TO KEEP THAT BADGE AS A "REMINDER OF ALL THE BRAVE POLICE OFFICERS WHO PUT THEIR LIVES ON THE LINE FOR US EVERY SINGLE DAY." 11 WELL, I'VE KEPT IT. - 13 - I HAVE IT WITH ME HERE TODAY, AND I WILL ALWAYS KEEP IT. 11 WHEN SOCIETY ASKS SOMEONE TO PUT ON A BADGE AND PLACE IT OVER THEIR HEART, WE MAKE A SACRED COVENANT -- A COVENANT THAT SAYS: "WE AS A SOCIETY STAND BEHIND THOSE WHO ENFORCE THE LAW AGAINST THOSE WHO BREAK THE LAW." THAT'S WHAT EDDIE BYRNE'S BADGE MEANS TO ME. - 14 - THIS MEMORIAL GIVES MEANING TO THAT COVENANT, GIVES MEANING TO THESE LIVES, GIVES MEANING TO THE LAW AND WHAT IT STANDS FOR. No NUMBER OF WORDS OR WREATHS, NO AMOUNT OF MUSIC OR MEMORIALIZING, WILL DO JUSTICE HERE TODAY, BUT WE HAVE BEGUN THE REMEMBRANCE, AND BEGUN THE HEALING. THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO SHARE THIS MOMENT WITH YOU. AND MAY GOD BLESS AMERICA'S LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS. # # # THE WHITE HOUSE WASHINGTON October 10, 1991 MEMORANDUM FOR THE PRESIDENT THROUGH: DAVID DEMAREST TONY SNOW TS FROM: ROBERT SIMON RS SUBJECT: NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT MEMORIAL DEDICATION I. SUMMARY On Tuesday, October 15, at 2:00 p.m., you will dedicate the National Law Enforcement Memorial at Judiciary Square. An audience of 9,000 police officers and survivors is expected. II. DISCUSSION The memorial contains the names of all 12,500 officers killed in the line of duty since the U.S. was founded. You broke ground at the site on October 30, 1989. A quotation from that speech is now on the memorial. The remarks (8 minutes, on cards) pay tribute to these fallen officers and calls on Congress to pass the crime bill. Simon Oct. 10, 1991 Draft 4 / POLICE PRESIDENTIAL REMARKS: LAW ENFORCEMENT MEMORIAL DEDICATION JUDICIARY SQUARE TUESDAY, OCTOBER 15, 1991 2:00 p.m. Thank you, Craig [Floyd]. Members of Congress. Ladies and Gentlemen. [other acknowledgements] This city has erected many monuments to generals and admirals, to privates and seamen, who defended our nation's freedom against tyranny and oppression. We gather here today to dedicate this memorial to uniformed heroes of another sort: those who enforce the law and keep us secure here at home. For too long, America's lawmen and women have been the forgotten heroes -- forgotten until there's trouble, until we're stranded on the road, or frantically dialing nine-one-one at home. Today we remember these heroes and heroines. "Now the real wash. healing can start," says Vivian Eney [EE-nee], who so many of you Post know. "When the grave doesn't look new anymore, when the grass 3-27-91 p.A20 has grown over it," she says, "This will be the place to come, to see the names -- to touch the names." Visitors will come here. Some will be children, perhaps looking for a father or mother they never really knew. Who were these people? they will ask. \ They were policemen and policewomen, marshals and sheriffs, state troopers and special agents. They gave their lives in the line of duty. NLEOM Fact They were young and old, ranging from 19 to 81. They had names sheet 2 Robyn as diverse as America itself: Donald Kowalski, Patrick O'Malley, porter Freddie Lee Jackson, Tommy DeLaRosa, Jose Gonzales, Donna Miller. NLEOMF They had wives and husbands, mothers and fathers, and so many young children. Most of all they had love -- love for their profession; love for their communities; love for their families; love that can still be felt in this special place 11 right here today. 11 They devoted themselves to the timeless values that society shares. They valued the law. They valued peace -- the peace of a civilized community that protects children at play, families at home, and storekeepers at work. They valued human life -- so much that they were prepared to give their lives to protect it. They gave much, and asked little. They deserve our remembrance. Here in America's capital, for as long as these walls stand, they will be remembered. Not for the way they died, but for how they lived. They didn't ask for honors, though honor them we will. We honor them with these walls -- with these trees and grass and quiet pool of water. But we can honor them in a more profound way -- a more lasting way -- by strengthening the laws they swore to uphold. May 15,89 Since 1989, on a rainy spring day I know many of you speach remember, I have tried to persuade Congress that our police need help. Too many times, in too many cases, too many criminals go free because the scales of justice are unfairly tipped against 3 dedicated lawmen and women like you. With your help, that will change. We need a crime bill that will stop the endless, frivolous Mariame habeus corpus appeals that waste time prosecutors could be McCothgin x 2449 spending on new cases. We need a crime bill with tough penalties -- such as a 10-year minimum sentence to anyone using a semi- Paul Me Nulty automatic weapon in a violent or drug-related crime -- with no DUJ plea bargains and no parole. We need a crime bill that says to police, if you act in good faith, evidence will not be suppressed in court based on needless technicalities. And we need a crime bill that warns would-be killers out there: be prepared to pay with your own life. \\\\ I asked Congress to pass these proposals more than two years Jack ago. I've gotten only a piecemeal response. [This week,] the Howard House of Representatives is voting on a crime bill. But for that 10/ 11 bill to be worth anything, it must contain the crucial elements on 4:30 I've cited -- elements the House Judiciary Committee refused to include in the bill. Congress is only a few blocks away. They've heard from me; they need to hear from you. There's a war going on out there -- a war between criminals and a good society. We know that war will not end, as long as evil dwells in men's souls. But we can work to lock up those who are too violent to live in civilized society. We can support the law enforcement officers who are on the front lines day after day. And we can put new laws on the books to keep new names off these walls. nomination 4 speech President Coolidge told us, "The nation which forgets its 7-27-20 defenders will itself be forgotten." \ We will not forget. America \ will not forget. We will not forget those who have died. And we will not forget those who protect and serve every day of the year. III In the Oval Office, many important papers and documents S-15-89 cross my desk each day. Most of them stay there but a day or speech two. But inside the drawer, one thing stays: a New York City patrolman's badge -- Number 14072. It belonged to Eddie Byrne, a rookie cop who was guarding a witness when he was gunned down on the orders of a drug dealer in jail. Eddie's father asked me to keep that badge as a "reminder of all the brave police officers who put their lives on the line for us every single day.' " Well, I've kept it. I have it with me here today, and I will always keep it. When society asks someone to put on a badge and place it over their heart, we make a sacred covenant -- a covenant that says: "We as a society stand behind those who enforce the law against those who break the law. " That's what Eddie Byrne's badge means to me. This memorial gives meaning to that covenant, gives meaning to these lives, gives meaning to the law and what it stands for. No number of words or wreaths, no amount of music or memorializing, will do justice here today, but we have begun the remembrance, and begun the healing. 5 Thank you for allowing me to share this moment with you. And may God bless America's law enforcement officers. # # # Simon Oct. 8, 1991 Draft 3 POLICE PRESIDENTIAL'REMARKS: LAW ENFORCEMENT MEMORIAL DEDICATION JUDICIARY SQUARE TUESDAY, OCTOBER 15, 1991 2:00 p.m. Thank you, Craig [Floyd]. Members of Congress. Ladies and Gentlemen. [other acknowledgements] This city has erected many monuments to generals and admirals, to privates and seamen, who defended our freedom against tyranny and oppression. We gather here today to dedicate this memorial to uniformed heroes of another sort: those who enforce the law and keep us secure here at home. For too long, America's lawmen and women have been the forgotten heroes -- forgotten until there's trouble, until we're stranded on the road, or frantically dialing 911 at home. Today we remember these heroes and heroines. "Now the real healing can start," says Vivian Eney, who so many of you know. "When the grave doesn't look new anymore, when the grass has grown over it," she says, "This will be the place to come, to see the names -- to touch the names." Visitors will come here. Some will be children, perhaps looking for a father or mother they never really knew. Who were these people? they will ask. \ They were policemen and policewomen, marshals and sheriffs, state troopers and special agents. They gave their lives in the line of duty. They were young and old, ranging from 19 to 81. They had names 2 as diverse as America itself: Donald Kowalski, Patrick O'Malley, Freddie Lee Jackson, Tommy DeLaRosa, Jose Gonzales, Donna Miller. They had wives and husbands, mothers and fathers, and so many young children. Most of all they had love -- love for their profession; love for their communities; love for their families; love that can still be felt in this special place right here today. They devoted themselves to the timeless values that society shares. They valued the law. They valued peace -- the peace of a civilized community that protects children at play, families at home, and storekeepers at work. They valued human life -- so much that they were prepared to give their lives to protect it. They gave much, and asked little. They deserve our remembrance. Here in America's capital, for as long as these walls stand, they will be remembered. Not for the way they died, but for how they lived. They didn't ask for honors, though honor them we will. We honor them with these walls -- with these trees and grass and quiet pool of water. But we can honor them in a more profound way -- a more lasting way -- by strengthening the laws they swore to uphold. Since 1989, on a rainy spring day I know many of you remember, I have tried to persuade Congress that our police need help. Too many times, in too many cases, too many criminals go free because the scales of justice are unfairly loaded against 3 dedicated lawmen and women like you. With your help, that will change. We need a crime bill that will the stop endless, frivolous appeals that waste time prosecutors could be spending on new cases. We need a crime bill with tough penalties -- such as a 10-year minimum sentence to anyone using a semi-automatic weapon in a violent or drug-related crime -- with no plea bargains and no parole. And we need a crime bill that warns would-be killers out there: be prepared to pay with your own life. I asked Congress to pass these proposals more than two years ago. I've gotten only a piecemeal response. [This week,] the House of Representatives is voting on my crime bill. But for that bill to be worth anything, it must contain the crucial elements I've cited -- elements the House Judiciary Committee has tried to strip from the bill. Congress is only a few blocks away. They've heard from me; they need to hear from you. There's a war going on out there -- a war against crime. We know that war will not end, as long as evil dwells in men's souls. But we can work to lock up those who are too violent to live in civilized society. We can support the law enforcement officers who are on the front lines day after day. And we can put new laws on the books to keep new names off these walls. President Coolidge told us, "The nation which forgets its defenders will itself be forgotten." We will not forget. America will not forget. We will not forget those who have died. 4 And we will not forget those who protect and serve year year out. In the Oval Office, many important papers and documents cross my desk each day. Most of them stay there but a day or two. But inside the drawer, one thing stays: a New York City patrolman's badge -- Number 14072. It belonged to Eddie Byrne, a rookie cop who was guarding a witness when he was gunned down on the orders of a drug dealer in jail. Eddie's father asked me to keep that badge as a "reminder of all the brave police officers who put their lives on the line for us every single day." Well, I've kept it. I have it with me here today, and I will always keep it. When society asks someone to put on a badge and place it over their heart, we make a sacred covenant a covenant that says: "We as a society stand behind those who enforce the law against those who break the law." That's what Eddie Byrne's badge means to me. III This memorial gives meaning to that covenant, gives meaning to these lives, gives meaning to the law and what it stands for. No number of words or wreaths, no amount of music or memorializing, will do justice here today, but we have begun the remembrance, and begun the healing. Thank you for allowing me to share this moment with you. And may God bless America's law enforcement officers. # # # show edits Simon Oct. 7, 1991 Draft 2 POLICE PRESIDENTIAL REMARKS: LAW ENFORCEMENT MEMORIAL DEDICATION JUDICIARY SQUARE TUESDAY, OCTOBER 15, 1991 2:00 p.m. Thank you, Craig [Floyd]. Members of Congress. Ladies and Gentlemen. insted This city has many monuments to generals and admirals, to privates and seamen, who defended our freedom against tyranny and oppression. We gather here today to dedicate this memorial to uniformed heroes of another sort: to those who enforce the law and keep us secure here at home. For too long, America's lawmen and women have been the forgotten heroes -- forgotten until there's trouble, until we're stranded on the road, or frantically dialing 911 at home. Today temamber these 0 heroes and heroines we begin an act of remembrance "Now the real healing can start," says Vivian Eney, who so many of you know. "When the grave doesn't look new anymore, when the grass has grown over it," she says, "This will be the place to come, to see the names -- to touch the names." Visitors will come here. Some will be children, perhaps looking for a father or mother they never really knew. Who were these people? they will ask. \ They were policemen and policewomen, marshals and sheriffs, state troopers and special agents. They gave their lives in the line of duty. They were young and old, ranging from 19 to 81. They had names 2 as diverse as America itself: Donald Kowalski, Patrick O'Malley, Freddie Lee Jackson, Tommy DeLaRosa, Jose Gonzales, Donna Miller. They had wives and husbands, mothers and fathers, and so many young children. Most of all they had love -- love for their profession; love for their communities; love for their families; love that can still be felt in this special place right here today. devoted themselves to The They held strong beliefs timeless values that society shares. They valued the law. They valued peace -- the peace of a civilized community that protects children at play, families at home, and storekeepers at work. They valued human life -- so much that they were prepared to give their lives to protect it. They gave só much, and asked SO little. Now that they are They deserve our remembrance gone, they ask to be remembered. Here in America's capital, along the Pathway of Remembrance, they will be remembered. Not for the way they died, but for how they lived. They didn't ask for honors, though we will honor them. We honor them with these walls -- with these trees and grass and quiet pool of water. But we can honor them in a more profound way -- a more lasting way -- by strengthening the laws they swore to uphold. Since 1989, on a rainy spring day I know many of you Commiss persuade remember, I have tried to convince Congress that our police need help. Too many times, in too many cases, too many criminals go free because the scales of justice are unfairly loaded against 3 dedicated lawmen and women like you. With your help, that will change. We need a crime bill that will the stop endless, frivolous appeals that waste time prosecutors could be spending on new cases. We need a crime bill with tough penalties -- such as a 10-year minimum sentence to anyone using a semi-automatic weapon in a violent or drug-related crime -- with no plea bargains and no parole. And we need a crime bill that warns would-be killers out there: be prepared to pay with your own life. I asked Congress to pass these proposals more than two years ago. I've gotten only a piecemeal response. [This week, ] the House of Representatives is voting on my crime bill. But for it must contain that bill to be worth anything, the crucial elements I've cited elements the HOUSE has fired the HOUSE Judiciary Committee has tried to strip from the 6.7/0 indicated must be put back in. Congress is only a féw blocks away. They've heard from me; they need to hear from you. There's a war going on out there -- a war against crime. We know that war will not end, as long as evil dwells in men's souls. But we can work to lock up those who are too violent to live in civilized society. We can support the law enforcement officers who are on the front lines day after day. And we can put new laws on the books to keep new names off these walls. President Coolidge told us, "The nation which forgets its defenders will itself be forgotten." \ We will not forget. America will not forget. We will not forget those who have died. And we will not forget those who protect and serve year in and year out. 4 In the Oval Office, many important papers and documents each cross that my big desk every day. Most of them stay there but a day or two. But inside the drawer, one thing stays: a New York City patrolman's badge -- Number 14072. It belonged to Eddie Byrne, a rookie cop who was guarding a witness when he was gunned down on the orders of a drug dealer in jail. Eddie's father asked me to keep that badge as a "reminder of all the brave police officers who put their lives on the line for us every single day." Well, I've kept it. I have it with me here today, and I will always keep it. When society asks someone to put on a badge and place it over their heart, we make a sacred covenant -- a covenant that says: "We as a society stand behind those who enforce the law against those who break the law." That's what Eddie Byrne's badge means to me. III This memorial gives meaning to that covenant, gives meaning to these lives, gives meaning to the law and what it stands for. No number of words or wreaths, no amount of music or memorializing, will do justice here today, but we have begun the remembrance, and begun the healing. Thank you for allowing me to share this moment with you. And may God bless America's law enforcement officers. # # # Simon Oct. 7, 1991 Draft 2 POLICE PRESIDENTIAL REMARKS: LAW ENFORCEMENT MEMORIAL DEDICATION JUDICIARY SQUARE TUESDAY, OCTOBER 15, 1991 2:00 p.m. Thank you, Craig [Floyd]. Members of Congress. Ladies and Gentlemen. This city has many monuments to generals and admirals, to privates and seamen, who defended our freedom against tyranny and oppression. We gather here today, however, to dedicate this memorial to uniformed heroes of another sort: to those who enforce the law and keep us secure here at home. For too long, America's lawmen and women have been the forgotten heroes -- forgotten until there's trouble, until we're stranded on the road, or frantically dialing 911 at home. Today we begin an act of remembrance and renewal diche? V "Now the real healing can start," says Vivian Eney, who so many of you know. "When the grave doesn't look new anymore, when the grass has grown over it," she says, "This will be the place to come, to see the names -- to touch the names." Visitors will come here. Some will be children, perhaps looking for a father or mother they never really knew. Who were these people? they will ask. \ They were policemen and policewomen, marshals and sheriffs, state troopers and special agents. They gave their lives in the line of duty. They were young and old, ranging from 19 to 81. They had names as diverse as America itself: Donald Kowalski, Patrick O'Malley, 2 Freddie Lee Jackson, Tommy DeLaRosa, Jose Gonzales, Donna Miller. They had wives and husbands, mothers and fathers, and so many young children. Most of all they had love -- love for their profession; love for their communities; love for their families; love that can still be felt in this special place right here today. What did they value? They valued the law. They valued peace -- the kind of civilized community that protects children at play, families at home, and storekeepers at work. They valued Liss human life & So much that they were prepared to give theirlown to protect it. And finally, what do they ask of us They ask to be remembered. And here in America's capital, along the Pathway of Remembrance, they will be remembered. Not for the way they died, although they died courageously, but for how they lived. They didn't ask for honors, though honor them we will We honor them with these walls -- with these trees and grass and quiet pool of water. But we can honor them in a more profound way -- a more lasting way -- by strengthening the laws they swore to uphold. Since 1989, on a rainy spring day I know many of you remember, I have tried to convince Congress that our police need help. Too many times, in too many cases, too many criminals go free because the scales of justice are unfairly loaded against dedicated lawmen and women like you. With your help, that going to change. 3 We need a crime bill that will the stop endless, frivolous appeals that waste time prosecutors could be spending on new cases. We need a crime bill with tough penalties -- such as a 10-year minimum sentence to anyone using a semi-automatic weapon in a violent or drug-related crime -- with no plea bargains and no parole. And we need a crime bill that warns would-be killers out there: be prepared to pay with your own life. More than I asked Congress to pass these proposals over two years ago. I've gotten only a piecemeal response. [This week, ] the House of Representatives is voting on a crime bill that must be amended to put these crucial elements back in. Congress is only a few blocks away. They've heard from me; they need to hear from you. There's a war going on out there -- a war against crime. We that know it is a war that will not end, as long as evil lurks within 7 the human heart. But we can work to lock up those who are too violent to live in civilized society. We can support the law enforcement officers who are on the front lines day after day. And we can put new laws on the books to keep new names off these walls. On May 15th, when the names of those who have fallen this year are added to the wall, a blue laser will rise into the sky -- a "thin blue line" of light that should forever shine as a reminder of the officers who stand between society and those who would do us harm. President Coolidge told us, "The nation which forgets its defenders will itself be forgotten." We will not forget. 4 America will not forget. We will not forget those who have died. And we will not forget those who protect and serve year in and year out. In the Oval Office, many important papers and documents cross that big desk every day. Most of them stay there but a day or two. But inside the drawer, there one thing that stays: a New York City patrolman's badge -- Number 14072. It belonged to Eddie Byrne, a rookie cop who was guarding a witness when he was gunned down on the orders of a drug dealer in jail. Eddie's father asked me to keep that badge as a "reminder of all the brave police officers who put their lives on the line for us every single day." Well, I've kept it. I have it with me here today, and I will always keep it. When society asks someone to put on a badge and place it over their heart, we make a sacred covenant -- a covenant that says: "We as a society stand behind those who enforce the law against those who break the law. " That's what Eddie Byrne's badge means to me. This memorial gives meaning to that covenant, gives meaning to these lives, gives meaning to the law and what it stands for. No number of words or wreaths, no amount of music or memorializing, will do justice here today, but we have begun the remembrance, and begun the healing. We put away no final memories, but instead ask for the peace which only God provides. Thank you for allowing me to share this moment with you. And may God bless America's law enforcement officers. Nov. 10 / Administration of George Bush, 1989 ticipate in WIC. in increasing participation in the nation- Vietnam? And In joining to support this improvement in wide WIC system. black and whit WIC, the Administration and the Congress This is the kind of action we must quarter of the have created an opportunity to help the pursue-obtaining better value for each Hispanic-native neediest segments of our population. We dollar of Federal spending-if we are to privileged and will implement competitive bidding as make progress on pressing national con- they were Am barrios of San quickly and effectively as possible so that cerns. thousands of poor, nutritionally deficient Houston, the GEORGE BUSH Americans wh women, infants, and children may receive The White House, often frighten the help they need. The Secretary of Agri- And next, t culture will make speedy implementation of November 10, 1989. what did they this initiative a top priority. The results of diers? And we the many State competitive bidding experi- Note: H.R. 24, approved November 10, was freedom, they ments will also be evaluated for their value assigned Public Low No. 101-147. they loved the their fear, whic tion of courag every war, sh Remarks at the Dedication Ceremony for the Vietnam Veterans man, they stro Memorial in Dallas, Texas honor. And then t} November 11, 1989 these boys in because to def Thank you, Governor. Thank all of you, the idea is democracy. And around the always a valian on this beautiful day. Governor Clements, world, the 1990's will be the decade of de- ders to the ] thank you, sir. Mayor Strauss, Mayor Bolen, mocracy. whether scalin Brad Wright, Mr. Russell, Judge Burkett, Memorials like these are the very embod- ing through and Art Ruff and Chaplain Adickes, mem- iment of our nation, expressing our deepest Mekong. bers of the foundation, but especially my values and our character as a people, for we And we will fellow veterans and Texans and fellow Americans navigate by such symbols. The the boat peop Americans, I am just delighted to be back St. Louis Arch, pointing toward the West; who fled the here, and so is Barbara. It's a privilege to be the Statue of Liberty, its silhouette a morn- fighting, and C with you and to officially dedicate a monu- ing star of freedom; the Lincoln and Jeffer- those Vietnam ment that is proud and patriotic and thus son Memorials, whose majesty proclaims the nerable in an quintessentially Texan: the Texas Vietnam principles of self-government-each reflects were spotted Veterans Memorial. what we are as a nation and as a people. Midway. And Four times in this century, the sons of And so it is here today, for the Lone Star many were C1 America have crossed the oceans to fight heroes of America's longest war. For this calling out, "H for the freedom of others. Their blood has memorial moves us and inspires us, and its freedom man!' consecrated ground in places well-known lessons live as oral history, passed from one why were we i and obscure, from Argonne to Bougainville, generation to another. This memorial is not those boat peo] from Omaha Beach to Inchon, from Con merely stone and masonry, as striking as still fleeing, an Thien to the Mekong Delta. And because they are; it's a tangible testament to Ameri- erty that can € they gave the last full measure of devotion, ca's love for the living, and for the dead. for society, plu our nation is at peace. And because of Last year nearly half of the visitors to determination. them, the peaceful ideals of America are America's Vietnam memorials were boys And finally, now the ideals of the world. and girls age 12 years and younger, and how do we sal Look to the very heart of Europe, to these children don't necessarily remember freedom? We Berlin, and you will see a great truth shin- the Southeast Asia conflict. And when they ting that true ing brighter with each passing day: The wonder, what is this memorial all about?- freedom-not quest for freedom is stronger than steel, we owe them an answer, an answer whose but the triump more permanent than concrete. Victor honesty will be worthy of our veterans. them through Hugo said: "Nothing can stop an idea whose And they will ask, first: Who were these thanking the V ble-Vietnam time has come." Well, my fellow veterans, men and women, these Lone Star heroes of 1502 Administration of George Bush, 1989 / Nov. 11 ion in the nation- Vietnam? And we must tell them they were munities, foundations, organizations, and black and white, red and brown-almost a other contributors. And we honor them by f action we must quarter of the names on this memorial are giving all our vets the hope and opportuni- Hispanic-native-born, foreign-born, the ty that they have earned and by teaching er value for each privileged and the poor. But most of all, our children what this memorial teaches us: ding-if we are to ssing national con- they were Americans-Americans from the about selflessness and sacrifice, qualities barrios of San Antonio or the city streets of which know no generation. Houston, the vast expanse of west Texas; Unlike other veterans, the brave boys GEORGE BUSH Americans who were young and probably who went to Vietnam had to endure two often frightened, so very far from home. wars. The first was that one waged in the And next, the kids will wonder: Well, swamps and the jungles abroad, and the what did they value, these brave young sol- second was fought for respect and recogni- diers? And we must tell them they valued ! November 10, was tion at home. And with the passage of time, freedom, they valued human dignity, and 101-147. they have won the battle for the hearts of they loved the U.S. And so, they overcame their countrymen-and in my view, it's their fear, which after all is the very defini- about time. The children who come here tion of courage. In a struggle which, like today and will come tomorrow evidence every war, showed man's inhumanity to n Veterans that victory. They must know about the man, they strove to prove man's fidelity to courageous people whose names illuminate honor. these tablets. The men who died would And then the kids will say: Why were want our kids to have a future they never these boys in Vietnam? And we will say, knew-a future without war, without fear. because to defend democracy and liberty is Their sacrifice helped make that possible. And around the always a valiant cause-in the fields of Flan- Abraham Lincoln termed that sacrifice e the decade of de- ders to the rugged cliffs of Normandy, "the last full measure of devotion." And we whether scaling Korea's hillsides or trudg- ing through those rice paddies of the must never forget it. For if the Texans we re the very embod- honor today could speak, they might say, ressing our deepest Mekong. as a people, for we And we will tell them further the story of "Praise us as you will, but above all, we the boat people, gallant men and women want to be remembered." And today we do such symbols. The remember the Lone Star heroes of Ameri- ; toward the West; who fled the very brutality that we were fighting, and of that memorable day when ca's longest war, and through them, heroes silhouette a morn- Lincoln and Jeffer- those Vietnamese refugees-alone and vul- throughout our history-America's uni- nerable in an overloaded, sinking boat- formed sons and daughters who took up ajesty proclaims the nent-each reflects were spotted by the aircraft carrier arms and bore our burden for a cause larger n and as a people. Midway. And as the carrier approached, than themselves. for the Lone Star many were crying and all were waving, And today we remember the more than 3 calling out, "Hello, American sailor! Hello, million Americans who served in Vietnam, gest war. For this freedom man!" So, when our children ask among them, so many proud Texans. Men inspires us, and its why were we in Vietnam, we must point to like Plano's Sam Johnson, a prisoner for 7 y, passed from one his memorial is not those boat people, regrettably some of them years in what they called the Hanoi nry, as striking as still fleeing, and say, for them-for the lib- Hilton-tortured, but never defeated-now estament to Ameri- erty that can ensure for individuals, choice; a State legislator representing the people of for society, pluralism; and for nations, self- his district here in our great State. and for the dead. of the visitors to determination. And also this morning, we remember And finally, our children will ask: Well, America's wounded from the Vietnam con- norials were boys how do we salute the men who fought for flict and the many brave Texans who paid a and younger, and essarily remember freedom? We salute them by never forget- heavy price. They were proud of the ct. And when they ting that true peace means the triumph of United States; they make us proud today. morial all about?- freedom-not merely the absence of war, And then there's another: there are our an answer whose but the triumph of freedom. And we salute missing or unaccounted for, and we remem- our veterans. them through memorials like this and by ber them, too. For while they may be miss- t: Who were these thanking the volunteers who made it possi- ing-missing in action and from our lives— one Star heroes of ble-Vietnam vets, cities and towns, com- they are not missing from our thoughts or 1503 Simon Oct. 3, 1991 Draft 1 POLICE PRESIDENTIAL REMARKS: LAW ENFORCEMENT MEMORIAL DEDICATION JUDICIARY SQUARE TUESDAY, OCTOBER 15, 1991 2:00 p.m. Thank you, Craig [Floyd]. Members of Congress. Ladies and Gentlemen. Two centuries ago, in 1776, the people of this nation began an experiment -- an experiment to see if the People themselves could form a government based on individual liberty and the rule of law. Many times that experiment was tested, and America sent her sons to defend freedom against tyranny and oppression. Today, around the world, we see that our experiment has triumphed. Freedom and the rule of law have defeated the dictators, and those last few hold-outs are seen as part of a dying breed. has many This city is full of monuments to the generals and admirals, the to privates and seamen, who secured de fended this our liberty freedom for us against and tyrang and much of oppension now the world Today, however, we dedicate this memorial to V uniformed heroes of another sort: to those who enforce the law and keep us secure here at home. Here we he cord forever the names of The brave For too long, America's lawmen and women have been the men and women who save forgotten heroes -- forgotten until there's trouble, until we're their stranded on the road, or frantically dialing 911 at home. lives Today to preserve we begin an act of remembrance and renewal. law who state and order. "Now the real healing can start," says Vivian Eney, who so many of you know. "When the grave doesn't look new anymore, when 2 the grass has grown over it," she says, "This will be the place to come, to see the names, to touch the names." home Visitors will come here. Many will be children, perhaps looking for a father or mother they never really knew. And they will have questions and we owe them answers. Who were these people? they will ask. \ They were policemen and policewomen, marshals and sheriffs, state troopers They gave their lives in the line of duty. and special agents. h They were young and old, ranging from 19 to 81. They had names as diverse as America itself: Donald Kowalski, Patrick O'Malley, Freddie Lee Jackson, Tommy DeLaRosa, Jose Gonzales, Donna Miller. They had faces: faces that liked to laugh, that sometimes cried -- though they hated for anyone to see. They had feelings -- though they had to hide them just to get through each day. They had wives and husbands, mothers and fathers, and so many young children. Most of all they had love -- love for what they love for their profession communi ties; love for did love for their families; love that can still be felt 11 in their this special place right here today. profession, \\ What did they value? the children will ask. They valued the law. Sworn to uphold it and pursue those who scorn it. They the basic order of a civilized community, protects at valued peace -- the kind of peace that permits children to play, families at home, shop keepers at business. and homeowners to live without fear of attack or theft. They valued human life. So much that they were prepared to give their own to protect it. And finally, what do they want from us? They want to be remembered. And here in America's capital, along the Pathway of 3 Remembrance, they will be remembered. Not for the way they died, although in every case they died courageously, but for how they lived. They didn't ask for honors, though honor them we will. We honor them with these walls -- with these trees and grass and quiet pool of water. But we can honor them in a more profound sacrificed way -- a more lasting way -- by strengthening the laws they swore to uphold. Since 1989, on a rainy spring day I know many of you remember, I have tried to convince Congress that our police need help. Too many times, in too many cases, too many criminals have are still some free gone free because the scales of justice are unfairly loaded you and I know against dedicated lawmen and women like you. With your help, that going to change. that such laxity desecrates the memory LThat's why I an seeking to of The heroes we Zonon to day. We need. a crime bill that will stop endless, frivolous Knew the appeals that waste time prosecutors could be spending on new tough, certain penalties: for instance, cases. We need a crime bill that gives a 10-year minimum sentence to anyone using a semi-automatic weapon in a violent or drug-related crime -- with no plea bargains and no parole. We to let need a crime bill that allows juries to hear evidence gathered by good cops in good faith, even if some lawyer or judge bungled a laws search warrant. And we need a crime bill that says to would-be cur murderers warn kiplers killers out there: be prepared to pay with your own life. I asked Congress to pass these proposals over two years ago. I've gotten only a piecemeal response. This week, the House of Representatives is voting on a crime bill that must be amended to 4 put these crucial elements back in. Congress is only a few blocks away. They heard from me; they need to hear from you. There's a war going on out there -- a war against crime. our struggle against crime will never And sadly, We we know it is a war that will not end, as long as evil forms a part of human nature. lurks within the human heart. But we can work to lock up those who are too violent to live in civilized society. We can support the law enforcement officers who are on the front lines day after day. And we can put new laws on the books to keep new names off these walls. On May 15th, when the names of those who have fallen this beam from this monument year are added to the wall, a blue laser will shoot heavenward to the shy -- a "thin blue line" of light that should forever shine as a reminder of the officers who stand between society and those who would do us harm. a real law an Forcement leader in the history of the Presidency President Coolidge told us, "The nation which forgets its defenders will itself be forgotten." We will not forget. America will not forget. We will not forget those who have died. And we will not forget those who protect and serve year in and year out. In the Oval Office, many important papers and documents cross that big desk every day. Most of them stay there but a day or two. But inside the drawer, there's one thing that stays: a New York City patrolman's badge -- Number 14072. It belonged to Eddie Byrne, a rookie cop who was guarding a witness when he was gunned down on the orders of a drug dealer in jail. Eddie's father asked me to keep that badge as a "reminder of all the 5 brave police officers who put their lives on the line for us every single day." \\ Well, I've kept it. I have it with me here today, and I will always keep it. 11 When society asks someone to put on a badge and place it his over their heart, we make a sacred covenant -- a covenant that says: "We as a society stand behind those who enforce the law against those who break the law." That's what Eddie Byrne's badge means to me. III This memorial gives meaning to that covenant, gives meaning to these lives, gives meaning to the law and what it stands for. No number of words or wreaths, no amount of music or memorializing, will do justice here today, but we have begun the remembrance, and begun the healing. We put away no final memories, but instead ask for the peace which only God provides. Thank you for allowing me to share this moment with you. And may God bless America's law enforcement officers. # # # A20 WEDNESDAY, MARCH 27, 1991 THE WASHINGTON POST Officers' Memorial Takes Shape 1st Panels Installed At Judiciary Square By Linda Wheeler Washington Post Staff Writer Just before noon yesterday, a crane gently lowered Lawrence Inman into place in Judiciary Square. With him went William Sat- ters and Raymond M. Koerber and Lucius J. Rice and 96 other names of police officers, all inscribed in a four-foot marble panel. Theirs was the first of 128 such panels that, when installation is completed in October, will become the National Law Enforcement Of- ficers Memorial, the nation's trib- ute to the 12,386 men and women who have been slain in the last two Watching Manuel Carrico guide slab are, from left, Chairman Craig Floyd, Vivian Eney, officer's widow, and Mel Radford. centuries in the line of duty. As she watched, Vivian Eney memorial will line two crescent- Floyd said later. No rank, depart- Floyd said he and his staff spent smiled, knowing she will see her shaped walkways in the 400 block of ment name or date of death will two years searching through the husband's name on one of the pan- E Street NW. appear with the names. Those country's 15,432 police agencies to els yet to come. After those attending had posed searching for a particular name will collect the names for the memorial. "Now the real healing process for photographs in front of the first use a guidebook that will identify His group discovered that the first can start to take place for the law panel, which was suspended just the panel and line where it appears. line-of-duty death was that of U.S. enforcement community," said above the ground by a crane, me- The memorial will have the Marshal Robert Forsyth, who was Eney, whose husband, U.S. Capitol morial fund Chairman Craig Floyd names of 102 officers from the Dis- killed in Augusta. Ga., in 1794 while Police Sgt. Chris M. Eney, was signaled the work crew to lower it trict, 199 from Maryland and 272 serving a warrant. killed in a training exercise in 1984. into place. Stone masons Manuel from Virginia. Included on the panels will be "When the grave doesn't look new Carrico and Manuel Moitalta Floyd said the random computer four of the youngest officers to die, anymore, when the grass has grown seemed to hug the cold stone as selections were intended to avoid all aged 19, and the oldest to die on over it, this will be the place to they guided it down. problems encountered by the build- the job, 81-year-old Dotson "Pop" Floyd pointed to the first name ers of the Vietnam Veterans Me- come to see the names, to touch the Sutton of Polaski County. Mo., who on the $7 million memorial, which is morial, which lists names by year of was struck by a car in 1952. names." financed by private contributions. death. That made it difficult to add Floyd said he was particularly Eney, president of the 4,000- "Lawrence Inman of Tulsa, Okla- new names of those who died re- pleased that the httle-remembered member Concerns of Police Sur- homa." he said. "Officer Inman died cently of their wartime injuries. names of officers slam by famous vivors, was among 20 police officers in 1947 while pursuing a suspect at Because all the names on the criminals will be memorialized, in- and supporters of the memorial who high speed. HIS car crashed." Law Enforcement Officers Memo- cluding the five officer killed by stood at the muddy construction site Inman's name was selected by a rial are arranged at random. either Billy the Kid III the 18706 and the and applauded the installation of the computer programmed to organize new or old names can be added eight gunned down by Bonne and first four panels. When finished, the the memorial names at random, without creating it problem, he sand. Clyde in the 1930% National Law Enforcement Officers' News MEMORIAL FUND,Inc. SUMMARY OF LAW ENFORCEMENT DEATHS * Our names research effort has documented 12,561 law enforcement officers who have died in the line of duty from 3,303 departments. All of these names will be engraved on the Memorial prior to dedication. The two 304-foot long Memorial walls have the capacity to hold a total of 29,233 names. If the current rate of deaths among law enforcement officers (153 a year) were to remain constant, names of future officers killed could be added until the year 2100. The first name engraved on the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial was Lawrence Inman of the Tulsa, Oklahoma Police Department. Officer Inman was killed in 1947 in an automobile accident while responding at high speed to an armed robbery. The first line of duty death was Robert Forsyth, a U.S. Marshal shot and killed in 1794, in Augusta, Georgia while serving an arrest warrant. The states with the most deaths are: California with 1,094, New York with 943, Illinois with 769, Texas 677, and Ohio with 573. The states with the fewest deaths are: Vermont with 11, North Dakota with 19, Alaska and New Hampshire both with 23 and Delaware with 25. Of all the officers killed 59 were women. The first, Matron Mary T. Davis from the Wilmington, Delaware Police Department, was beaten to death by an inmate on May 11, 1924. A total of 711 Federal officers have been killed in the line of duty. The oldest officer killed in the line of duty was Night Marshal Dotson "Pop" Sutton of the Pulaski County, Missouri Sheriff's Department. He was 81 when he was struck by a vehicle. The three youngest officers killed in the line of duty were 19 years old. Many of our nation's most notorious criminals built their legends on crime and violence. For example, Billy the Kid was responsible for the death of six officers and Bonnie & Clyde were responsible for the deaths of eight officers. 87% of all officers were married. The most officers killed in any single incident occurred on November 24, 1917, when a 1360 Bev bomb exploded at the Milwaukee, Wisconsin Police Department. Nine officers were Suite 305 killed. McLean, VA 22101 703/827-0518 fax: 703/448-1236 STATE DEATH TOTALS ALASKA 23 ALABAMA 319 ARKANSAS 141 ARIZONA 171 CALIFORNIA 1,094 COLORADO 175 CONNECTICUT 99 DELAWARE 25 DISTRICT OF COLUMBIA 101 FLORIDA 420 GEORGIA 336 HAWAII 37 IOWA 114 IDAHO 34 ILLINOIS 769 INDIANA 235 KANSAS 182 KENTUCKY 239 LOUISIANA 244 MASSACHUSETTS 212 MARYLAND 196 MAINE 65 MICHIGAN 412 MINNESOTA 171 MISSOURI 470 MISSISSIPPI 113 MONTANA 93 NORTH CAROLINA 246 NORTH DAKOTA 19 NEBRASKA 82 NEVADA 42 NEW HAMPSHIRE 23 NEW JERSEY 253 NEW MEXICO 91 NEW YORK 946 OHIO 573 OKLAHOMA 196 OREGON 132 PENNSYLVANIA 522 RHODE ISLAND 29 SOUTH CAROLINA 167 SOUTH DAKOTA 35 TENNESSEE 231 TEXAS 677 UTAH 72 VIRGINIA 270 VERMONT 11 WASHINGTON 216 WISCONSIN 161 WEST VIRGINIA 107 WYOMING 34 TERRITORIES 221 FEDERAL AGENCIES 711 TOTAL OFFICERS KILLED 12,561 MEMORANDUM 91 OCT 3 All : 50 TO: Bob Simon, White House FROM: Jim Scutt and Robyn Porter, NLEOMF RE: Line of duty deaths DATE: October 3, 1991 Here is the list of deaths you requested per your discussion with Jim: William Martinez-Acevedo Puerto Rico P.D. 01/03/1989 Jose Gonzales Metro-Dade (FL) P.D. 03/28/1989 Tommy DeLaRosa Fullerton (CA) P.D. 06/02/1990 Anthony Vendetti NYCPD 01/21/1986 James McAllister FBI 04/19/1986 Charlie Hanlon Philadelphia (PA) P.D. 11/15/1985 Freddie Lee Jackson Detroit (MI) P.D. 10/06/1986 Keith L. Williams NYCPD 11/13/1989 If you have any questions please feel free to contact the office. Donald Kowalski Somersworth WH 9/4/79 8/30/38 Partrick O'Malley Chicago Dohna Miller 348 UNIVERSITIES VETO POWER 349 government we can unite upon a program which is wise and just, en- Valor lightened and constructive. LYNDON B. JOHNSON 1. Valor is self-respecting. Valor is circumspect. Valor strikes only when it is right to strike. Address to Congress, Nov. 27, 1963; Chicago Daily News, WOODROW WILSON Nov. 27, 1963 Address at a gridiron dinner, Feb. 26, 1916; Life, VI, 118 See also America 15, 16, Flag (The) 4, Goals 3, Government 4, 103, See also Bravery Isolationism 10, Religion 15, War 65 Vanity Universities 1. Vanity, I am sensible, is my cardinal vice and cardinal folly; and 1. That a national university in this country is a thing to be desired, I am in continual danger, when in company, of being led an ignis fatuus has always been my decided opinion. chase by it. GEORGE WASHINGTON JOHN ADAMS To John Adams, Nov. 22, 1794; Writings (Fitzpatrick), XI, 1 Diary, May 3, 1756; Works, II, 16 2. I congratulate you, and Madison and Monroe, on your noble employ- 2. They say I am vain. Thank God I am so. Vanity is the cordial drop ment in founding a university [University of Virginia]. From such a which makes the bitter cup of life go down. What is not vanity is noble triumvirate, the world will expect something very great and very sure to be vexation. new, but if it contains anything quite original, and very excellent, I fear JOHN ADAMS the prejudices are too deeply rooted to suffer it to last long, though it 1822; Figures, p. 68 may be accepted at first. It will not always have three such colossal repu- 3. Upon each recurrence of my birthday I am solemnly impressed with tations to support it. JOHN ADAMS the vanity & emptiness of worldly honors and worldly enjoyments, and of the wisdom of preparing for a future estate. To Thomas Jefferson, May 26, 1817; Writings (of Jefferson), XV, 123 JAMES K. POLK Nov. 1, 1848; Diary (Quaife), IV, 177 3. I have always thought the chief object of education was to awaken Veterans the spirit, and that-inasmuch as a literature whenever it has touched its 1. The nation which forgets its defenders will be itself forgotten. great and higher notes was an expression of the spirit of mankind-the CALVIN COOLIDGE best induction into education was to feel the pulses of humanity which Acceptance of Nomination for Presidency, Cleveland, Ohio, had beaten from age to age through the universities of men who had July 27, 1920 penetrated to the secrets of the human spirit. WOODROW WILSON See also Gettysburg, Gratitude 1, Square Deal 1, War 47 Address in Paris, France, Dec. 21, 1918; Selections, p. 178 Veto Power 4. Everyone is familiar with the assertion of President Garfield that Mark 1. The power of the Executive veto was exercised by five of my prede- Hopkins, sitting on one end of a log with a student on the other, would cessors in the administration of the Government, and it is believed in constitute a university. He did not particularize about the student, but he no instance prejudicially to the public interests. was careful to provide that the head of the institution was to be Doctor JAMES K. POLK Hopkins. Only a trained and tried educator could fill the requirements for Fourth Annual Message to Congress, Dec. 5, 1848; the head of a seat of learning that was to be dignified by the name of a Messages and Papers, p. 2519 university. 2. The veto power was established CALVIN COOLIDGE THE WHITE HOUSE Office of the Press Secretary For Immediate Release October 30, 1989 REMARKS BY THE PRESIDENT AT NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS' MEMORIAL GROUNDBREAKING Judiciary Square Washington, DC 2:17 P.M. EST THE PRESIDENT: Thank you all very much for that -- Sarah, Jim -- for that very warm welcome, Jim, and the kind words and for the hard work that you and Craig Floyd here and so many others have contributed to making this spectacular day and reality. Craig leaned over to me and said, "This beats May 15th." (Laughter.) And some of you may remember the event that we had, drenched in front of the Capitol up there. And the Lord is looking down on this one with a little more favor, I think. I want to salute our able Attorney General, Dick Thornburgh, that rode over here with me, doing an outstanding job. And I might say, I'm very pleased to see his predecessor, Ed Meese with us. He stood strong and tall for law enforcement, and I think we still all appreciate that very, very much. (Applause.) I'm delighted to see Chief Fulwood here and of course my friend, Al D'Amato. Senator Pell has been detained, but there are other -- several other members of Congress, and I'd like to ask them to stand. I see Connie and Ben Gilman, but there may be others there, and I want to salute them. Because we're getting -- (Applause.) -- there's Senator Domenici back there, also. (Applause.) And, of course, I'm delighted to see my friend Dewey Stokes and Lee Greenwood with us. And so many other -- Phil Caruso -- so many others that are supporting all of this. It's a pleasure to be here. All these leaders deserve our thanks. But I really also want to say, "Thank you, America." More than 400,000 individuals have stepped forward to donate the funds for this memorial -- a gift from a caring people and a grateful nation. And the sacrifices that we honor today began on a cold winter's day in January, 1794. Robert Forsythe, a veteran of the Revolutionary War and one of George Washington's new federal marshals enlisted two deputies and went to serve some routine court papers on the Allen brothers of Augusta, Georgia. But then as now, every cop knows there's no such thing as a routine assignment. And when the marshal found the brothers, they fled upstairs and fired a single shot right through the door and Robert Forsythe became the first casualty in an undeclared war that continues to this day. law enforcement. In 1988, Chicago police officer Irma Ruiz was a Routine assignments continue to hold special danger for mother of four and a beloved mother figure to dozens of elementary students in the hallways she patrolled. But when a drug-crazed gunman teachers. attacked the school, Irma died -- protecting nearly 200 children and Two cops, two sacrifices, two centuries apart. But both part of one tradition -- the thin blue line that protects our nation from the evil within. The story to be carved on these walls is the and decency and to protect a national treasure that we call the story of America -- of a continuing quest to preserve both democracy American Dream. You know the numbers -- an estimated 30,000 officers have died defending law and order in America. And added to this are the wounded. A toll of disability and pain that rivals those of America's overseas wars. And each loss represents a hometown hero; a city of bands; the bagpipe strains of Amazing Grace rising in the wind. flags at half-mast; a somber procession of white gloves and black arm MORE - 2 - And with each casualty is told the tale of a family, so often forgotten. The brave spouses and parents and children who pay a terrible price in loneliness and loss. And many of you are here today. And many of you have played a critical role in bringing this memorial to life. The Law Enforcement Memorial ensures that what is so real to you today will never become a statistic. Each loss has a name. And each name has a story to tell. The polished granite walls of America's Police Memorial will bear witness to the sacrific of frontier lawmen like Frank Dalton of Fort Smith, Arkansas -- one of more than a hundred deputies gunned down by outlaws in the American West. And prohibition detectives like Harry McGinnis, killed in 1933 in a shoot-out with Bonnie and Clyde. Federal agents like Secret Serviceman Leslie Coffelt -- mortally wounded while preventing two terrorists from assassinating President Harry Truman. And ordinary -- extraordinary policemen like Philadelphia's Albert Valentino, shot down last week -- just last week investigating a burglary. For all who have lost their lives protecting the public, this memorial will stand as a tribute to their courage and their sacrifice. They will always be remembered here in the Oval Border of the Pathway of remembrance. And they will always be remembered down the street in the Oval Office, where since the day I took office, I've kept the badge of a rookie cop martyred last year in New York. This memorial is also a tribute to the living -- to the partners and the teammates of the fallen -- to their families and to all of you who are foot soldiers in the battle against lawlessness. In an age of indifference, you took a stand. You made a choice. You made your lives count for something and your service matters -- not only because it saves lives and families and neighborhoods; it matters because it is the right thing to do. And on May 13th, many of you -- I said 15th, maybe it was the 13th -- you gathered here in this same square to hold a candlelight vigil for your fellow officers. The night sky was pierced by one of the most appropriate and imaginative memorials ever brought to Washington -- a single crystal blue beam of light -- a laser -- representing the thin blue line. I'm right -- two days later on the 15th, a dismal, drizzly Washington afternoon, I stood shoulder-to-shoulder with many of you up there on Capitol Hill, armed with new proposals to help protect the pure blue light of law enforcement. And we invited Congress to join us in a new partnership with America's cities and states -- a new national strategy to take back the streets by taking crimals off the streets. (Applause.) The states need to do their part as well. We need mandatory prison terms for those using firearms for crime and an end to plea bargaining for violent firearms offenders. (Applause.) And for cop killers, for those who commit the ultimate crime, I feel strongly that they should pay the ultimate price. (Applause.) Congress has had our crime package since May. It is time to act, because these improvements are a vital part of our National Drug Strategy. And because, before any more names are added to that wall, the protection you deserve should be added to the books. And so it is with that hope and with great personal pride in America's police, and in all who have contributed to this historic effort, that I will now join in the ground-breaking for the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial. Thank you for coming. And thank you all, and God bless you. And especially, God bless those we honor here today. Thank you all very, very much. (Applause.) END 2:28 P.M. EST Administration of George Bush, 1989 / May 15 y to discuss each of them. throughout the year. These dedicated indi- the relief of I encourage all Americans to join me in viduals who uphold the law and protect our bachev. We expressing our heartfelt respect and grati- lives and property deserve our constant è going to do tude to the Nation's law enforcement offi- support. dent fashion, cers, not only during Police Week and world fore- Police Officers' Memorial Day, but also GEORGE BUSH :d we are the and we have e're going to Remarks at the National Peace Officers' Memorial Day Ceremony But I would nly about the May 15, 1989 im optimistic king place in Thank you, Suzy. If it doesn't start clear- We gather today to respond to those do my level ing up, we're issuing snorkels to everybody voices and to honor the fallen by launching Congressmen out there. [Laughter] Thank you, Suzy a national strategy, a partnership with ator that is Sawyer, and of course, to Dewey Stokes and America's cities and States, to take back the ites standing Craig Floyd, my respects as well. You have streets. It calls for a return to common in the world great leadership, and I salute them. I want sense. And it begins with a clear-eyed vision Id peace, that to say how pleased I am that the Secretary of the kind of problems we face, the kind of the pursuit of of the Treasury is with me, Nick Brady; our people we are, the kind of values that we Attorney General, the able Dick Thorn- hold, and the kind of nation we intend to Thank you burgh; and our drug czar, Secretary Bill bequeath to our children. apport of this Bennett. The fact that we four are here is The problem is violent crime, and in par- lighted to be intentional. It sends the signal of our com- ticular, the blood that's been shed by in- God bless the mitment and of our interest. And I know creasingly sophisticated guns in the hands unk you very, Members of Congress are here as well. I of a new class of criminals. Usually, but not spotted my own Senator, Senator Phil always, the deaths are tied to a cycle of Gramm of Texas, and Senator Pete Wilson. dollars and drugs and dependency. The 9:25 p.m. in But I'm going to be in trouble because I principles are simple. My generation well nd Farm. Fol- can't see over there-who else is there. But remembers what some believe was FDR's dent returned I know many are sitting right over here, finest speech: the "Four Freedoms," an ad- and we salute them. I see Senator Ford and dress to a joint session of the Congress. And others, and we're just delighted that they the last, often forgotten, but arguably the are here today. most fundamental of those freedoms was Last fall a retired New York police lieu- simply this: freedom from fear. Our sworn ficers' tenant gave me badge number 14072, and I duty to "insure domestic Tranquility" is as have it with me today-the badge his son old as the Republic, placed in the Constitu- wore the day he was gunned down by a tion's preamble even before the common gang of cocaine cowards. Matt Byrne asked defense and the general welfare. And so, me to keep Eddie's badge as a "reminder of when we ask what kind of society the ay poignantly all the brave police officers who put their American people deserve, our goal must be ment officials lives on the line for us every single day." a nation in which law-abiding citizens are of the year. Matt, your son's badge, as I have told you, is safe and feel safe. accident on a kept in my desk at the Oval Office. And To achieve this goal, people must be held vay, or arrest- during the debate on gun-related violence accountable for their actions, and that's er-city, police that has raged in this country the past sev- common sense. Most Americans are law- e risk of their eral months, neither it nor what it repre- abiding, and most believe that there is such se who have sents has ever been far from my mind. I've a thing as right and wrong, good and evil. ey have paid heard the many voices, the courageous and And whether it's the brutalization of a or our safety, the compassionate, the wounded and the young runner in a park or terrorizing a small repay- widowed, and I salute the survivors that are young man onto a crowded highway, these ot we owe to here today. are acts that cannot be excused or ex- panel E line 3 557 Mar. 9 / Administration of George Bush, 1989 most importantly, each of these cases in- Mary Jane Hatcher spoke with eloquence this figh volved sophisticated, long-term investiga- last week about the responsibility main- must st tions. And several were among the first stream America and so-called casual cocaine we're h cases in the entire country to make use of users must bear for the death of her hus- from the the new drug kingpin statutes. Nearly all band. Well, $1.1 billion of our request will gress to involved task force cooperation and the pio- go for prevention and education, to let the stand wl neering use of forfeiture laws, in some cases casual users know the risk they take and the on the S to spectacular effect. The forfeitures from price they may have to pay and to tell our And the Torres brothers, I'm told, may ultimate- children that drugs are wrong. Staten I ly total $30 to $50 million. While there may not be light at the end dy whic And just as the death penalty for cop kill- of the tunnel, there does seem to be some that you ers helps even the odds, stripping the light coming in under the door. At the cowards enemy of their ill-gotten gains turns the Apollo Theatre in Harlem one Wednesday should I tables in a dramatic and highly effective last month, the amateur night performances there. ] way. Perhaps you heard Woody Allen's wry were interrupted by spontaneous antidrug year-old observation: "Organized crime in America messages from the stage and then support- takes in over $40 billion a year and spends ive chants from the crowd. And things like very little on office supplies." Philosopher, this don't happen because of government that he is. programs: They happen because attitudes Rema Experts have estimated that today drugs are beginning to change, and they are alone count for $110 billion-an industry New changing because the American people are right here in our own country. We're hurt- behind your efforts all the way. March ing the drug kingpins where they live when we take their money, and we're going to Attitudes are beginning to change over- seas as well. Your boss, the Attorney Gener- Than get even better at taking it. We've got to be. Ladies and gentlemen, we do intend to al [Richard L. Thornburgh], returns today duction prevail. The scourge will end. I will lead from meetings with officials in Colombia, with y the fight. Bill Bennett, our nation's first Bolivia, and Peru. And Bill and I will meet celery, drug czar-tenacious, unafraid-is going to with him as soon as he gets back. I think we've { be right there at my side. we're having lunch tomorrow at the White [laught And although we meet on a crucial bat- House to be briefed on this trip. And I our dog tlefield of this war, you might say, it is a know that some of you have also served or I war war that is being waged on many fronts. will serve your own tours in South America, tions to Last month I spoke to Congress about four a tribute to our increased cooperation Paul Si areas: rehabilitation, education, interdiction, there. And I and enforcement. And in a time of budget When I first became Vice President 8 gives S constraints-and regrettably, we are living years ago, several South American Presi- Negro in such a time-I asked for an increase of dents told me: "It's your problem. You're Chris I $1 billion in budget outlays to fund these the consumer. If it weren't for the rich know, new efforts. And for you in Federal law gringos to the north, we wouldn't have the simply, enforcement, our proposal budgets a record problem." But now they see that the nar- see my $4.1 billion, fully 70 percent of the total. By cotics have affected their own kids, their with us 1995, we also intend to reduce present own society. Look at Colombia, where the You prison overcrowding by 50 percent. Supreme Court Justices were mowed down with t] And beyond enforcement, other monies like tenpins. Univer will go to expanded treatment for the inno- Obviously, the race is far from won. But to Nev cent and the poor, like the over 5,000 there is power in us yet. And we in Wash- idealist babies born in New York last year already ington will continue to understand, to educat addicted to drugs. Other new funds will go learn-but certainly to support your work today, to cut the waiting time for the treatment here. The Adamita trial, the Johnny Kon Air Fc programs, perhaps along the lines of the and Brooks Davis cases, the new seizure nostalg innovative oral methadone program at New program in which whole apartment build- tomori York's Beth Israel Hospital, designed to get ings are wrested back from the crack lords with tl the addicts off the needles as well as heroin. who control them-they're all important to the lin 200 May 15 / Administration of George Bush, 1989 plained away. A commonsense approach to out there. And the overwhelming majority consideration, we crime means that if we're going to affect are legitimately owned, for legitimate pur- imports that do people's behavior we must have a criminal poses. But in contrast to legitimate gun standards. justice system in which there is an expecta- ownership is the chilling fact that some- Recently the tion that if you commit a crime you will be thing like 80 percent of all firearms used by guns summed u] caught; and if caught, you will be prosecut- felons are stolen or otherwise unlawfully ob- difficulty in draf ed; and if convicted, you will do time. For tained. Throughout our nation's history, the assault weapons far too long, a privileged class of violent and hard lesson we've learned is that criminals automatics frequ repeat offenders have calculated that crime will get guns. And so, let me be very clear hunting and spoi really does pay, that our criminal justice about our response: The right to own a gun controversy ano system is a crapshoot where the risks are is not a license to harm others. You're all well a worth the rewards. Well, it's time we And so, first I am calling on Congress that we do knov change the odds and up the stakes enor- today to do for dangerous firearms what it ons is that the mously. has wisely done for dangerous drugs: to with unjustifiabl And we will lead the way. We'll do our double the mandatory minimum penalties torious AKS-47, part and then some. But no Federal effort for the use of semiautomatic weapons in magazine that F can succeed without the full partnership of crimes involving violence or drugs. And the lets without rel the cities and the States that you so nobly math is simple. Anyone who uses a semi- fifth-we stand represent. Unfortunately, nowhere is your automatic for crime, or so much as has one the Capitol and front-line role more evident than in the on them during a crime, will do an auto- tion prohibiting honor roll that will be read today: of 161 matic 10 extra years in Federal prison-no ture, sale, or tra officers killed in the line of duty last year, probation, no parole, no matter which magazines of mc 152 were State or local cops. And you are the first line of defense, and your respective judge they get. The current when an unstabl governments have an obligation to adopt And secondly, we just can't plea-bargain tough legislation and provide the re- away the lives of your loved ones, the lives fornia, purchas counter and use sources-in police, prosecutors, and pris- of our cops and kids. And I'm directing the mentary school ons-to fully back you up. Attorney General to advise America's pros- At the trial of Eddie Byrne's executioners, ecutors to end plea bargaining for violent Purdy had no b was arrested OI there was testimony that the hit was or- Federal firearms offenses. Those who use before his 15th dered from prison to send a message to the guns will do time-hard time. firearms arrest, people behind the badge. And one witness And third, when a criminal carries a gun and with it chall said that they hoped to see the attack on and someone dies, they must pay with their convictions. Alt] the television news at Riker's Island. Well, own lives. We are calling on Congress today ons offenses, bc today we have a message of our own: We're to enact the steps necessary to implement meanors. Purdy going to take back the streets by taking the death penalty and to newly designate hole that bars 0 criminals off the streets. And it is an attack the use of a firearm as an aggravating factor and got that de on all four fronts: new laws to punish them, for determining whether the death sen- geous. new agents to arrest them, new prosecutors tence should be imposed. And therefor to convict them, and new prisons to hold And I call on America's Governors to gress close this them. match this Federal initiative and propose like it that allov I am announcing today-and there is no these same three standards at home: man- deadly hands. more fitting place than right here-a com- datory time, no deals without cooperation, common sense. prehensive new offensive for combating and the death penalty where appropriate. weapons to fall violent crime-for Eddie Byrne, for every Your States owe it to those here today, and But we need officer we honor here today, and for Amer- to the American people. new laws. And ica. The first front of this campaign, new And fourth, 2 months ago, at my direc- L.A. gang wars, laws, starts with the semiautomatic and so- tion, the Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco and ment to a cop called assault weapons that criminals have Firearms suspended the importation of cer- get them off t taken as their gun of choice. And again, tain so-called assault weapons. ATF is con- "Lady, we're tr common sense has to play an important tinuing its examination to determine which, a four-word part in this discussion. The fact of the if any, of those weapons are not acceptable help." And be matter is, nearly half the households in this under standards in existing law. And at the police need mc country have guns, and guns are already conclusion of this study, and after careful to tell you tha 558 Administration of George Bush, 1989 / May 15 -Iming majority consideration, we will permanently ban any rhetoric with resources and call on our legitimate pur- imports that don't measure up to these cities and States to do the same. legitimate gun standards. The second front, if you will, of our new act that some- Recently the U.S. News cover story on offensive calls for increased manpower and rearms used by guns summed up a related challenge: "the a new strategy on guns, a strategy based on unlawfully ob- difficulty in drafting laws that will separate models of proven effectiveness. I have di- n's history, the assault weapons used in crime from semi- rected the Attorney General and the Treas- that criminals automatics frequently used for legitimate ury Secretary, working together with State e be very clear hunting and sport." And there is substantial and local enforcement, to launch a compre- it to own a gun controversy and debate on this point. hensive, coordinated offensive against our 'S. You're all well aware of that. But one thing nation's most violent criminals. And I am g on Congress that we do know about these assault weap- requesting funding for hiring 825 new Fed- irearms what it ons is that they are invariably equipped eral agents and staff-375 at ATF, 300 at rous drugs: to with unjustifiably large magazines. The no- the FBI, and 150 Deputy U.S. Marshals. mum penalties torious AKS-47, for example, comes with a Many of these hirings will permit experi- ic weapons in magazine that pumps off 30 explosive bul- enced investigators from all three agencies drugs. And the lets without reloading. And that is why- to promptly combat violent crime in the 0 uses a semi- fifth-we stand on the steps here in front of field. uch as has one the Capitol and ask its support for legisla- ill do an auto- tion prohibiting the importation, manufac- Of course, arresting these thugs doesn't eral prison-no ture, sale, or transfer of these insidious gun help if we don't have the muscle to pros- ecute each criminal to the fullest extent of matter which magazines of more than 15 rounds. The current debate was first sparked the law. And that's why the third front of when an unstable gunman in Stockton, Cali- this campaign calls for Congress to back up it plea-bargain ones, the lives fornia, purchased an AKS-47 over the these new troops with 1,600 new prosecu- n directing the counter and used it to lay waste to an ele- tors and staff. And now, there probably isn't America's pros- mentary school playground. Patrick Edward a police officer here who hasn't seen a case ing for violent Purdy had no business buying that gun. He where a dangerous felon-properly arrest- was arrested on his first weapons charge ed, fully prosecuted, and sentenced to the Those who use before his 15th birthday. And by his fourth maximum-walked out of jail early, some- il carries a gun firearms arrest, Purdy had finally turned 18, times years early, because prisons are burst- and with it chalked up the first of two adult ing at the seams. That is not right. pay with their convictions. Although for violent and weap- Part of our commonsense approach is a Congress today ons offenses, both convictions were misde- simple recognition that it doesn't do any to implement meanors. Purdy crawled through the loop- good to provide new Federal agents, new ewly designate hole that bars only felons from buying guns assistant U.S. Attorneys, and new laws with gravating factor and got that deadly AKS-47. That is outra- long-term penalties if we don't have the he death sen- geous. prison cells to keep criminals where they And therefore, we also propose that Con- belong. A chain is only as strong as its weak- Governors to gress close this Purdy loophole and others est link. And so, as the fourth front in this and propose like it that allow deadly weapons to fall into comprehensive effort, I am calling on the at home: man- deadly hands. Again, that's just plain Congress to authorize an additional $1 bil- it cooperation, common sense. We must not allow deadly lion, over and above the $500 million al- e appropriate. weapons to fall into deadly hands. ready slated for 1990, for Federal prison ere today, and But we need to do more than just enact construction. These 24,000 new beds will new laws. And in a recent movie about the boost Federal prison capacity by nearly 80 at my direc- L.A. gang wars, a woman shouts encourage- percent. Tobacco and ment to a cop on patrol, telling him: "You Not since Lincoln has a President stood in ortation of cer- get them off the street." And he answers: front of the Capitol and been just a few is. ATF is con- "Lady, we're trying." And the woman offers miles from the front lines of a. war. Never termine which, a four-word solution: "You need more was the toll more visible than in the faces of not acceptable help." And believe me, we know it. Our the brave men and women, the families, aw. And at the police need more help. And I'm here today gathered here today. And when I first stood d after careful to tell you that we're prepared to match here as President, over there, only mo- 559 NATIONAL LAW ENOREMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND 1991 100 II , = THE WHITE HOUSE WASHINGTON December 7, 1989 Dear Mr. Floyd: I was pleased to join you and your colleagues for the groundbreaking ceremony of the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial. This is a wonderful tribute from a caring and grateful nation to the brave officers of the thin blue line who make the supreme sacrifice defending law and order. The groundbreaking shovel is a fine memento of the event. I was proud also to salute the contributions of the dedicated men and women who continue to make our country a safer place to live. Thank you all very much. With my best wishes, Sincerely, ay Bush Mr. Craig Floyd Chairman National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial Fund Suite 305 Send contributions to, or request information from 1360 Beverly Road NLEOMF, 1360 Beverly Road, Suite 305, McLean, VA 22101 McLean, Virginia 22101 SATIONAL '' ENFORE MEMORIAL " IN Washington, D.C. - October 30, 1989. President George Bush breaks ground on the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial. Joining the President were (from left to right): Memorial Chairman Craig W. Floyd, Police Officer of The Year Gregory Jaglowski and U.S. Attorney General Dick Thornburgh. NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND JANUARY 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY New Year's Day 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 Martin Luther 15 16 King's Birthday 17 18 19 20 Martin Luther 21 22 23 King's Birthday 24 25 26 (Observed) 27 28 29 30 31 Hammond, Indiana Police Officer Donald B. Cook was shot and killed on January 13, 1947, after serving only seven days on the job. His partner, John J. Gerka, Jr., a 15- month veteran of the department, was also killed in the same incident. MAR ... 11 HI NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND FEBRUARY 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY William H. Bonney, also known as "Billy the Kid," built his legend on crime and 1 Groundhog Day 2 violence. He was responsible for killing five law enforcement officers between 1878 and 1881. The names of those New Mexico lawmen-all of whom will be listed on the Memorial -were Sheriff William Brady and Deputies James W. Bell, James Carlysle, Robert Olinger and George Hindman. 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 Lincoln's Birthday 12 Ash Wednesday 13 Valentine's Day 14 15 16 17 President's Day 18 19 20 21 Washington's 22 23 Birthday Washington's Birthday (Observed) 24 25 26 27 Purim 28 NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND MARCH 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY New Salem, North Dakota Police Chief 1 2 Ed Mumby was shot and killed on July 11, 1953, by a man who refused to pay a one-cent sales tax for a soda he bought. 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 St. Patrick's Day 17 18 19 First Day of Spring 20 21 22 23 Palm Sunday 24/31 25 26 27 28 Good Friday 29 First Day of 30 Passover Easter Sunday BIG STEM 918 STEM TEXTO OF NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND APRIL 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 National Victim 21 22 23 24 Rights Week 25 26 27 28 29 30 San Francisco Police Officer George Campbell was shot and killed during a bank robbery on April 9, 1925. After being shot, Officer Campbell was still able to subdue the suspect and handcuff his assailant to his own wrist before he died. The assailant was convicted of murder and sentenced to death. use --- --- ини B. THE "III" HAVE HEERED GRAND NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND MAY 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY Jacksonville, Florida Officer Ray Shinholser was killed on 1 2 3 4 December 14, 1988, when his police motorcycle collided with a pickup truck while on patrol. Only one day earlier, Officer Shinholser had recorded a song titled, "Momma, When's Daddy Coming Home?" to help raise money for the Memorial Fund. 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 Mother's Day 12 13 14 Peace Officers' 15 16 17 Armed Forces Day 18 Memorial Day National Police Week 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 Memorial Day 27 28 29 30 31 NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND JUNE 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY Seven New York State correctional officers died as a result of injuries sustained 1 at the Attica Correctional Facility riot on September 13, 1971. They were John D'Archangelo, Jr., Richard J. Lewis, Sgt. Edward T. Cunningham, William E. Zuinn, Carl W. Valone, Ronald Werner, and Harrison Whalen. These and other correctional officers will be honored by the Memorial. 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 Flag Day 14 15 Father's Day 16 17 18 19 20 First Day of 21 22 Summer ²³/₃₀ 24 25 26 27 28 29 NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND JULY 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY 1 2 3 Independence Day 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 Two little girls, Laura and Heather Phillips, held a garage sale of their old toys to raise money for the Memorial. Their father, West Virginia Trooper William H. Phillips, was killed in the line of duty on July 30, 1987. NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND AUGUST 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY U.S. Marshal Samuel Enoch Vaughn was shot 1 2 3 and killed by a prisoner he was transporting to the federal penitentiary on August 8, 1953. Marshal Vaughn was the father of 13 children. 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND SEPTEMBER 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY 1 Labor Day 2 3 4 5 6 7 Grandparent's Day 8 Rosh Hashana 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 Citizenship Day 17 Yom Kippur 18 19 20 21 22 First Day of 23 24 25 Autumn 26 27 28 29 30 Walter A. Schroeder was shot and killed during a bank robbery on September 24, 1970. Three years later Walter's brother, John D. Schroeder, was shot and killed during another robbery attempt. Both were members of the Boston Police Department. NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND OCTOBER 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 Columbus Day 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 Halloween 31 Julie Y. Cross became the first female Secret Service Agent casualty when she was shot and killed during a stakeout at Los Angeles International Airport on October 4, 1979. NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND NOVEMBER 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY The first law enforcement officer to die in the line of duty in South Carolina 1 2 was Greenville County Sheriff Robert Maxwell, who was shot in an ambush on November 12, 1794 as he crossed the Saluda River. Maxwell was a general in the Continental Army during the Revolutionary War and is believed to have been killed by British loyalists. 3 4 Election Day 5 6 7 8 9 10 Veterans Day 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 Thanksgiving Day 28 29 30 NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND DECEMBER 1991 SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY 1 First Day of Chanukah 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 First Day of Winter 21 22 23 24 Christmas Day 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 Osceloa County, Michigan Sheriff Fay E. Wooster and his wife, Undersheriff Sophia Wooster were killed in an automobile accident on December 22, 1952, after delivering prisoners to the state prison. They left behind two children. Site of the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial The National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial will honor men and women in law enforcement who die in the line of duty and will recognize the service and sacrifice of those who serve. The three acre site of the Memorial will be a special place of honor for all law enforcement officers. It will be a setting where family and friends can locate the name of a fallen loved one - and know the nation cares. It will be a place that will make law enforcement officers feel proud to serve. THE NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL PATHWAY OF REMEMBRANCE Designed especially to invite reflection and contemplation, the Memorial's Pathway of Remembrance will form an oval-shaped border for the Memorial space. Polished granite walls bearing the names of slain law enforcement officers will edge the tree-lined Pathway, where visitors may seek out the names of loved ones and quietly pay tribute to America's heroic law enforcement officers. In the belief that each loss of one law enforce- ment officer is a tragedy equal to all others, regardless of date, location, or circumstances, Memorial Fund leaders have mandated that the officers' names will not be grouped chronologically, alphabetically, or geographi- The Memorial walls will bear the names of all As a Memorial Fund supporter, when you visit cally. Rather, they will appear in a random law enforcement officers who have died in the the finished Memorial, you will experience a order, with alphabetical directories nearby so line of duty throughout America's history. special pride in helping to create this long- that visitors can easily locate the names of Systematic Federal recordkeeping began in overdue tribute to our nation's law enforce- individual officers. 1961; for police deaths after that date, the ment community. Spend a quiet moment U.S. Department of Justice provides accurate under shady trees, appreciating the sacrifices This system of ordering the names will allow information. But to find the facts on officer of those who did not hesitate to give up their new names to be added in the future without deaths before 1961, the Memorial Fund has lives for the rest of us. disrupting the Memorial's design. But, most launched a research effort to identify, verify, importantly, it emphasizes the Fund's feeling and compile the names of fallen officers, From its dignified yet moving Pathway of that a little-known officer's death 100 years reaching out to law enforcement leaders Remembrance to its proud, life-like statues, ago is just as important to America as the across America. the Memorial will be a place for recognition, highly publicized death of a narcotics agent for healing, for reflection a place for saying within the last few months. "thank you". Thank you for helping to build the National Law Enforcement Officers Me- morial, a place of honor for all of America. NATIONAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS MEMORIAL FUND "Eagle Of The Law" "Row On Row" We return to the beat and hope it's all right I'd stop drug abuse 'cause there's no excuse But we know we'll be back for the very next In their everyday of work For the lives its shattered and maimed. Only their names lie row on row fight They wear a uniform of blue. There'd be no more kidnapped children For they are scattered to and fro. While guarding streets or airports No parents crying in the rain. A stop light runner and a simple chase Protecting me and you. Some lie under the tall pines of Maine, But we never know what we may face The strife of daily living Lord help the children those abused Others under the Texas plain. Another bad drunk? A kid on a high? And those involved in crime; And misused. Or something much worse to give us a try? Cause these men and women May they be protected I pray Some lie under the Alaskan turf We can't take it easy, we can't take a chance To be watchful, helpful and kind. And may all the tears and the pain and the Others near the Florida surf. Always a new tune, always a new dance They act as an eagle of the law, scars go away. With strength and depth of eye, Some lie near the Golden Gate Bridge There's racial tensions and rights to uphold Whose instant form of judgement And Lord help the man who takes a gun in his Others rest on a Smokey Mountain ridge. We have to show patience but yet appear bold May cause them to live or die. hand, It's easier to say that "all must be fair" Happy people never call them And thinks that the whole world should pay. Some lie under the Kansas sod, When you're not on the street, when you're not Troubles only come their way. Then call for a cop 'cause the law All being the children of God. the one there We respect and thank them. Has to stop him someway. Those feelings of pressure we must put aside To God for their safety, we pray. And if after answering a call of strife, With our actions up front and keeping our pride I'd give my life to make everything right one of us should lose our life, By Ann Wagner Soehrmann, Crystal Lake, IL In this world of sorrow and pain. It's harder on family than it is on me I'd stand in the fight for each battered wife Go ahead and bury us to and fro Their imagined worst fears are all that they see "Lawman" You can name. Then add our names to the row on row. I'm on the job and handling it well But they're safe at home imagining hell A Lawman has a way of Life, I'd stop drug abuse 'cause there's no excuse Lieutenant Frank L. Pendleton When the telephone rings and it's late at night Few people understand. For the lives it's shattered and maimed. Salem (VA) Police Department They wake in a sweat with a terrible fright They use him when there's trouble and strife, There'd be no more kidnapped children But their awful thoughts I must leave at the Abuse him when they can. No parents crying in the rain. station "I'm A Policeman" 'Cause they might dull my senses and force He can't walk on water - though he's tried. Yes I am a Lawman, but even my best hesitation Sometimes he plays the martyr for their Just doesn't stop all the pain. I'm a policeman, Oh why? you may ask pride. There's still all those people standing It's not that the pay is well worth the task So why do I do it? Where is the joy? And holding back the tears he's never cried, Over those graves in the rain. It's something deep down, it's something inside There's people who smile, a found little boy His closest friend he carries at his side, It's not just a job where you're there for the ride There's laughter and friendship with people who I might be a dreamer but someday I'm hoping The dangers we face, we know they're for real care Sometimes I think about just what it takes All will be happy and then But it's not just a job, it's something you feel There's knowing a difference just 'cause we're In this world to be a good man. There'll be no more need for a breed there And there's times when life gives and takes They call the Lawman. We're out on the beat, it's late at night There's sunshine and sadness and having the All the hate I can stand. This is the time when families fight nerve I'd give my life to make everything right Shouting and cursing, then comes a hit To get up each morning and say that "I serve". But I've asked myself so many times In this world of sorrow and pain. A loud screaming child, a mad raging fit Over and over again. I'd stand in the fight for each battered wife We come on the scene there's not a set play John T. Sutton, March 1988 What more can I give when I'm giving You can name. We have to assess with our fears pushed away Dallas, Texas The best that I can? I'd stop drug abuse 'cause there's no excuse There's darting eyes and another door I'd give my life to make everything right For the lives it's shattered and maimed. Can we see all the people or are there more? In the world of sorrow and pain. There'd be no more kidnapped children, A bang and a crash come from the back I'd stand in the fight for each battered wife No Parents crying in the rain. Is someone else there to take a crack? You can name. We take control but it's never easy By Officer John R. 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Floyd, Chairman The National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial Fund POTOMAC PUBLISHING 1989 Cover photo courtesy of Weinbrenner Shoe Company, Inc. ЗИ THE TUCKO Copyright © 1989 by Constance Clark. "Of Weeping Adults, Who Wear Badges"-Reprinted by permission from Tribune Media Services Reproduction of any part of this book in any form is forbidden without the express written consent of the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial Fund. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS I wish to thank all the survivors who so generously shared their stories for this book. Thanks to every one of you for granting me the privilege of writing about the loved ones you have lost and the lives you are now leading. I am grateful as well to Officer Dewey Stokes, National President, Fraternal Order of Police, and to James W. Scutt, Director, Legislative Affairs, National Sheriffs' Association, who provided much valuable insight into the life of a law enforcement officer. And, for their extraordinary inspiration and assistance, I thank Special Agent James Horn of the FBI Acad- emy's Behavioral Science Services Unit, and Detective Richard Pastorella, New York Police Department, founder of the Police Self-Support Group. Thanks are due as well to Kelley Lang of the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial Fund, Linda Alli- son of Potomac Publishing, and Sharon Barnes for their indispensable research and editorial assistance. Last but far from least, this book could not have been created without the vision and guidance of Craig W. Floyd of the National Law Enforcement Officers Memo- rial Fund and Robert Allen of Potomac Publishing. -Constance Clark September 1989 Alexandria, Virginia DEDICATION This book is dedicated to all the officers who have risked or lost their lives for the protection of others. Because you care, we care. FOREWORD On May 15, 1989, a crowd gathered on the grounds of the United States Capitol. They had been invited by the Fraternal Order of Police Ladies Auxiliary (FOPLA) for the 8th Annual Peace Officers Memorial Day Service. Bagpipers played and people spoke. President George Bush came and gave a speech about drugs and crime in America. As he left, a choir sang. A steady spring rain drizzled down, soaking the thousands of people who had come to pay tribute. Then the ceremony really began. One by one, the names were called out, by FOPLA President Suzie Sawyer, names of law enforcement offi- cers who died in the line of duty in 1988. And as each name was read, a widow, or a mother, or a child, or a whole family would step forward and place a flower in a gigantic wreath. Some were stoic, as if they had learned to manage their pain, at least in public. Some wept. Some needed assistance in returning to their seats. Around them, the colleagues of their loved one stood proudly in uniform for two hours, impervious to the soaking rain. Mourners placed 161 flowers in the wreath, each representing a death that had taken place the year before-the loss of a man or woman who willingly undertook risks most of us would never even consi- der taking. As members of "the thin blue line," they risked their 1 2 IN THE LINE OF DUTY lives every day to protect their communities and their nation from the terror and destruction of crime. They were always there when we called, always ready to help, whatever the personal cost to them might have been. Yet our nation seems to have simply forgotten their service-their sacrifice. Though an estimated 30,000 law enforcement offi- cers have died in the line of duty since America's begin- nings, we as a nation have created no monument to honor their sacrifices. There's no stately building or peaceful garden dedicated to their memory. There's not even a plaque! Of course, these fallen heroes are remembered by their families and friends. But, as years pass, the newspaper clippings yellow and crumble. The flowers so carefully saved from the funeral spray turn to dust. The children grow up and wonder, "Why did Dad give his life? And why doesn't anybody else care that he's gone?" As Chairman of the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial Fund, I believe that people do care - but that many of us, busy with our own preoccupa- tions, overlook the need to pay homage to those who give their lives in our service. I believe most Americans are not even aware that a law enforcement officer dies in the line of duty every 57 hours in our country-an average of 153 each year. It is my hope that once people learn about the sacri- fices that are made on their behalf, they will want to join together to say "thank you" to our law officers, the veterans of America's war on crime, just as they have honored our military heroes. That is why I hope to FOREWORD 3 distribute this book to thousands of Americans who simply aren't aware of the debt we owe to the men and women of law enforcement. The officers' sacrifices have been too long overlooked. Surely, these men and women deserve nothing less than our respect, our gratitude, our praise, expressed promi- nently and permanently in our nation's capital! After two hundred years of silence, the United States of America has at last decided to say "thank you." In 1984, Congress approved the concept for a National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial. They said we could build our Memorial in Judiciary Square, in the heart of Washington, D.C. But they also mandated that all the funds needed to build and maintain the Memorial-an estimated $5 mil- lion-would have to be raised from the public. Not one cent of government money could be used. Congress also mandated that the money be raised, and ground broken for the Memorial's construction, within five years. To date, the Memorial Fund has received thousands of contributions, from law enforcement groups and from Americans in all walks of life, Americans who believe in law and order, who support the efforts of our Federal, State, and local officers. But the need is still great. In creating the concept for this book, I wanted to make sure I could hand it to a stranger and say, "Here. Read this. Then you'll understand why we need to build a National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial-now." Here are stories of the officers who risked their lives and lost them. Here, too, are the stories of those who were permanently disabled in a line-of-duty incident. 4 IN THE LINE OF DUTY And here are the stories of the families, the survi- vors-those who so courageously face a future without their husbands, wives, fathers, mothers, children, sis- ters, or brothers. Mrs. Connie Miller, whose daughter, Hillsborough County (Florida) Sheriff's Deputy Donna Miller, died in a line-of-duty accident, explained the need for the Memorial simply and perfectly: "That Memorial is so important, because when it's built, we can go up there. We can talk about it, and we can cry. We'll know that everybody's there for the same reason we are. And we'll know that Donna has not been forgotten." With the help of people like you, the Memorial will be built. It will be a place for remembering, a place for healing. It will honor the dead, comfort the survivors, and tell the officers still on the streets that we as a nation care about the dangerous and difficult work they do to protect us, to preserve our very way of life. As you read this book, please ask yourself one ques- tion: Do these officers deserve a permanent, national tribute? Is it our duty to make sure that they will never be forgotten? If your answer is "Yes," please do your part to help build this long-overdue Memorial. Say your personal "thank you" to the officers who make it possible for you to walk down the street in safety. Their families-and the entire law enforcement fam- ily-will appreciate it. -Craig W. Floyd, Chairman National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial Fund New Jersey State Trooper Phil Lamonaco It was just before Christmas-December 21. New Jersey State Trooper Phil Lamonaco was on his last late duty shift before Christmas. Patrolling a stretch of highway, he pulled a car over for a routine traf- fic stop. As he walked in the snow from his cruiser to the car, perhaps Phil was thinking about his wife and children waiting for him at home, getting ready to celebrate a wonderful Christmas. Maybe he thought to himself, "Just a few more hours, and I'll get to go home, look in on the kids, talk with Donna, put a few final touches on the Christmas tree." 5 6 IN THE LINE OF DUTY Phil Lamonaco never made it home. Unknowingly, he had pulled over a car carrying two hardened criminals-two men named Manning and Williams, part of a self-proclaimed revolutionary gang called the United Freedom Front. These terrorists were plotting to overthrow the United States government. Phil saw that Manning had a gun. He asked him to get out of the car. Phil took the gun and started to frisk Manning. To break Phil's concentration, Manning started wav- ing his arms. As if on signal, Williams jumped out of the passenger side of the car and started shooting. Williams pumped nine bullets into Phil Lamonaco. The fatal bullet pierced his heart. It's some consolation to Donna to know that Phil died instantly. But it doesn't help much when she thinks of her husband lying face down in the snow, bleeding. Manning and Williams were about to speed off into the darkness when Manning decided to retrieve his gun from Phil's body. For a parting shot of incredible viciousness, he then shot Phil three more times in the back of the head. As her husband was being murdered, Donna Lamonaco was making Christmas cookies with the couple's three children, Laura, 5, Michael, 4, and 10- month-old Sarah. Each of the children had made one special cookie for Daddy to enjoy when he got home. "We were cleaning up. I was washing flour and sugar off of Sarah around five o'clock when the doorbell rang. Laura had just finished her own bath. She yelled, 'Mommy, there are two men at the door, and I'm stark naked!" INTRODUCTION 7 Laughing, Donna told Laura to get dressed. With little Sarah in her arms, she went to open the door. There she saw two State Troopers, close friends of Phil's and Donna's. "I thought they had stopped by for a cup of coffee," Donna says. But one of the Troopers, who had a baby close in age to Sarah, took her out of Donna's arms. They told Donna to sit down. "Phil's been hit," they said. "It didn't sink in at first," Donna says. "I thought, 'By a car or truck?" "No, babe, Phil's been shot," one of the Troopers told her. It was hard to believe that somebody like Phil-so careful, so good at his job, Trooper of the Year in 1979-could get into serious trouble. Donna recalls, "I knew that he would be okay, though, since he had his vest on." Phil and Donna had made a special pact that he would always wear his bullet-resistant vest. Donna found a babysitter and went with the Troop- ers to the hospital. "I knew he'd be all right. But when I got to the hospital, they told me: 'Donna, he's gone." It took a while for Donna to comprehend that Phil was actually dead. She wanted to see him for herself: "If I could just see him, hold him in my arms, I could prove they were wrong-that Phil was okay." Donna ran down the hallway. "When I saw all the police officers standing outside the door of one room, I knew this was where he was. As I entered the room, cold and still, I felt fear. I wanted to hold him, touch his hand, but because of the many wounds, I couldn't." Instead of reassuring herself as she had hoped to do, 8 IN THE LINE OF DUTY Donna now had to find a way to tell her children that their Daddy was dead. The family's pastor brought Donna home from the hospital and tried to explain to the children what had happened. He avoided certain stark words, certain harsh realities. The children didn't understand. Finally, Donna interrupted when Laura asked a question. "Laura, Daddy died." In a voice Donna will never forget, her little daughter said, "He died?" Together, Donna and her children buried Phil on Christmas Eve. It was the worst Christmas of their lives. But, though Phil died in 1981, Christmas is still hard for the Lamonacos. "Holidays are still the pits for us," she says. "Two years ago, Christmas was really emotionally difficult because the trial was going on, and all the horrifying details that came out made the anger, fear, and loneli- ness even stronger. And last year was really bad, too. I couldn't figure out why-I didn't even try to. Then in January it hit me. This past Christmas marked the time when Phil had been gone longer than we had been married." A deeply caring man, Phil was a wonderful husband and father. He and Donna were deeply in love. "Some of the guys would go out for a drink after their shifts, and they'd ask Phil to come along. He'd say no, and they'd tease him about being tied to my apron strings. But he'd say that wasn't it. 'I just love my wife,' he'd say. And he'd come home." Together, Phil and Donna were building a strong INTRODUCTION 9 foundation for their family. They especially loved Christmas, a time of sleigh rides in the snow, hot cinna- mon-scented apple cider by the Christmas tree, a tradi- tion of opening one gift each on Christmas Eve. And every year as Christmas approached, Donna and Phil set up a manger in the living room. They explained to the kids that each time they did a little chore around the house-like putting away their toys-they were enti- tled to take one piece of straw and put it in the manger, to make a soft bed. They'd start on December 1, and by the time Christmas Day arrived, the manger was ready, a birthday gift for Jesus. "We had a Currier & Ives, Vermont-style Christmas. There was so much warmth and love." Since Phil's death, it's just routine. On December 21 each year, Donna does something with the children in the morn- ing, then she has her quiet time. "That's my day," she says. "I have to have it." On Christmas Day, they go through the motions, opening presents and joining the family for a holiday dinner. But Christmas will always be painful for them— Christmas Eve an ever-recurring reminder of the day they buried Phil. Donna Lamonaco says it's been a real' struggle to pick up the pieces and go forward. Her involvement with other survivors and the National Law Enforce- ment Officers Memorial Fund has been a big help. "My children have grown in strength each day. I have shared my involvement with COPS [Concerns of Police Survivors], the Memorial, and law enforcement with my children. They've been a part of this. They are learning to focus their emotions and energies in a posi- 10 IN THE LINE OF DUTY tive way." Proudly, Donna tells the story of how her kids comforted other bereaved children. "An officer was killed, and it happened that he and his family lived next door to a close friend of mine. My friend called me and told me what had happened. I took the kids and we went over there. "The widow was at my friend's house with her two little ones. She hadn't told her kids yet. She went into the next room to tell them. We heard them crying. It was heart-breaking. "The door opened, and the little boy looked at Michael. He said, 'Can I talk to him?' My children went in to the other children. Laura put the little girl on her lap, and Sarah stroked her hair. I heard Michael saying to the little boy, 'You know what, little guy? You're gonna be okay. Look at me. My dad was a police officer too. I was the same age you are now when he died. And now I'm 11. You just stick by your Mom and it will be okay." Donna and Phil's youngest, Sarah, spoke words of comfort, too. "I didn't even know my Daddy, but I know he's someone I'll never forget." A few days later, Donna returned for the officer's funeral, bearing gifts from her children to the officer's son and daughter-a teddy bear wearing a badge for the boy, and a special doll for the girl. The children just seem to know you need something in your arms at a time like this. "I was so proud of my children!" Donna says. "It was a reflection of all the work I've done, all the events INTRODUCTION 11 they've been a part of, from memorial services to televi- sion and radio appearances." Like many police survivors, Donna has tried to make the best of her life in the wake of incalculable loss. "The trial is still going on, and that's hard," she says. "Manning was convicted, but for some reason, the jury came back hung on Williams, so there will be a retrial next year." In the courtroom, Donna suffered the difficulties faced by many survivors-the mandate that she not show emotion, the pain of re-living her husband's death in painful detail. But she also encoun- tered some special indignities. "Manning and Williams had their comrades in the courtroom with them. None of them would rise when the judge came in, because they didn't believe in the justice system. But when Manning and Williams came in the room, they stood up and raised their fists and shouted a special chant that meant 'victory." Because the defendants were well-known terrorists, convicted previously of bombings and armed robberies, every- one entering the courtroom had to be searched. One day, a reporter complained to defense attorney William Kunstler (a former member of the radical Chicago Seven) that Donna was not being searched as thoroughly as some others were. Kunstler insisted that Donna be searched again. "The justice system is just incredible," Donna said. "The judge told the jury that they must ignore the fact that these men were convicted bombers, thieves, and terrorists determined to overthrow the United States!" Donna sees little fairness in the system. "Take Man- ning," she says. "He's in prison. He's lifting weights and 12 IN THE LINE OF DUTY he pulls a muscle. They drive him to the hospital, they examine him, they give him liniments and painkillers, and they drive him back. And we're all paying for it." By contrast, the Lamonacos' health insurance was cancelled immediately after Phil's death. Donna had to search for new insurance. There are many expenses her policy doesn't pay for. "I go to the doctor with a kidney problem and he prescribes medication. I go to the drug store, and it costs $89, right out of my pocket. It just doesn't make sense that Manning gets his medical care free, courtesy of people like me, when he helped kill my husband!" Donna has found meaning in her life by helping other survivors through the COPS organization and by helping the Memorial Fund. "I'm glad to tell my story, because it's a way of doing something good. The more I get involved with lectures, with law enforcement agency work, with widows, the more good I'm doing. I could never give this work up. It's way too important to me. "Phil chose to be a Trooper," Donna continues. "I choose to walk the path of law enforcement as well. I hope to encourage the police officers who are working our streets. I want to help them walk that path of pride, integrity, loyalty, and honor." For Phil's sake and for their children's sake, Donna wants to see the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial built. "The Memorial means SO much to me personally, professionally. My efforts, the hard holi- days, the loneliness that doesn't go away-the Memo- rial gives meaning to all of it. All the tears I've shed, all INTRODUCTION 13 the smiles I show, all my tiredness-part of it all goes to that Memorial. "When it's finished, we'll be able to stand in front of that Memorial and say 'It was all worth it.' The Memo- rial will tell all our officers that we honor, respect, and love every one of them. My kids will be able to be SO proud of their father, because he chose to help society, and now he'll never be forgotten. "And on the days when our children wonder why their Daddy ever got involved with law enforcement work and gave his life up serving others, they can think of that Memorial and know that the nation has said 'We will never forget." Detective Michael Raburn King County (Washington) Police Department IT'S ONE OF THE HARDEST JOBS IN THE WORLD WANTED: Strong, intelligent, caring, dedicated men and women for public service position. Moti- vated by a desire to help others. Willing to put your life on line every day. Must tolerate moun- tains of red tape and bureaucracy, yet be decisive, courageous, and quick on your feet. Salary: Sub- stantially less than what you might earn elsewhere. Recognition: Little to none. Studies rank being a police officer high among the most stressful, dangerous jobs you can get. That's no surprise to anyone who's ever tried it. Unlike some hazardous jobs, it doesn't pay very well. In a major city like New York, a senior officer with 20 years of distinguished service might earn $40,000-not a lot when you consider the area's high cost of living. But elsewhere in the United States, that salary would seem like a fortune to police officers. In 1988, the Fraternal Order of Police had legislation introduced in the Alabama State Legislature requiring that rookie police officers earn a minimum of $10,000-little more than minimum wage. The law hasn't passed yet. Like many other jurisdictions, the Alabama legisla- ture says the state doesn't have the funds to pay more. Often, law enforcement officers across the nation must work part-time jobs starting after their regular shifts, usually as security personnel for stores and office build- ings or special duty assignments. 15 16 IN THE LINE OF DUTY "We shouldn't pay our law enforcement officers so little that they have to go work a four- to six-hour security detail to make ends meet," says Jim Scutt, a former Alexandria, Virginia police officer now serving as Director of Legislative Affairs for the National Sher- iffs' Association. "That means the officer's getting six hours of sleep at night. Citizens are getting short- changed. And when officers get tired, they get careless, and that means they get killed." Compensation is not the only area where police are getting less than a fair shake. Many don't even have the equipment they need. Police departments have been forced to hold bake sales and raffles to raise money to buy bullet-resistant vests, life-saving equipment that should be standard issue for all law enforcement offi- cers. Some departments still don't have them. The importance of having the right equipment increases with the escalating violence of America's drug wars. Forced to send officers out into the streets armed with standard service revolvers, chiefs of police acknow- ledge their men and women are out-gunned by drug dealers carrying expensive semi-automatic weapons. Soon after the stabbing death of her husband, Detec- tive Michael Raburn of the King County, Washington Police Department, Linda Raburn told a reporter from The Seattle Times that Michael's death might have been prevented, were it not for budget cuts. Linda, a radio dispatcher for the King County Police, remembers that in the early 70s she routinely punched names into the Sea-King (Seattle-King County) crime-computer system. Sometimes a name would come up with the words "HAZARD, HAZ- ONE OF THE HARDEST JOBS IN THE WORLD 17 ARD" flashing at the top of the screen. Dispatchers could then warn officers that they were dealing with a person who had a history of criminal behavior-par- ticularly assaults upon police officers. The system provided officers with a major advan- tage: foreknowledge of a suspect's potential violence. In spite of its enormous value, however, the Sea-King crime computer was all but eliminated because of gov- ernmental cutbacks, and Michael Raburn was not alerted to the fact that the man he was to serve an eviction notice on, Robert Baldwin, had threatened police with a rifle the year before. On March 27, 1984, as Detective Raburn tried to talk to Baldwin through a crack in the apartment door, Baldwin drove a three-foot-long gold, ceremonial sword into the officer's chest. Raburn, a 12-year veteran of the force, died an hour later. "I keep thinking that if we still had Sea-King, Michael would be alive. Where do you cut a budget when somebody's life is at stake?" Linda Raburn asked. "A simple eviction notice, a procedure Mike had probably done hundreds of times-that eviction notice and the events that followed would take our Michael away from us forever, crushing all our dreams in the seconds it took for Robert Baldwin's sword to find its mark in Michael's heart," Linda wrote. His loss was especially difficult to accept because of the possibility that it might have been prevented-had the police department had adequate financial support from the community. The value of other, seemingly less vital equipment can also be underestimated. Most officers in America 18 IN THE LINE OF DUTY drive non-air-conditioned cruisers, regardless of the cli- mate. On a hot, humid day, the last thing an officer wants to do is put on another piece of clothing-like a bullet-resistant vest. To encourage all officers to wear vests at all times, says Dewey Stokes, National President of the Fraternal Order of Police, they must be provided with lighter vests and air-conditioned cars. Low pay and inadequate equipment are just part of what our law enforcement officers deal with daily. The danger and the stress of the job pose the greatest chal- lenges. Every day, police officers come face to face with human misery-a side of life the rest of us encounter only rarely. Detective Richard Pastorella, founder of the Police Self-Support Group, has been there. In his 23 years on the street with New York City Police Department, he saw it all. "I can't begin to tell you the effect it has when you see a child that's been killed, an older person that's been mugged," he says. "You see people's problems day in and day out. You build up a wall, because you have to." For police officers, each accident, each felony, each apprehension is an injury to the human spirit, an injury that rarely has a chance to heal before the next incident demands their full attention. The stress is compounded by the frustrations of our judicial system and overcrowded jails, by the growing efficiency of professional criminals, and by what many officers perceive as a negative attitude toward them on the part of the public. Law enforcement officers hear few, if any, words of thanks. ONE OF THE HARDEST JOBS IN THE WORLD 19 "Very seldom does a citizen come up to a police officer and say, "Thank you, you did a great job," says Pastorella. "You get the tributes when you're dead-but it's too late then. Who do the accolades go to? They go to the family. What good does that do?" Instead of gratitude, the public often responds with hostility to police officers. One police widow says, "Let's face it, everybody hates the guy who gave him the speeding ticket." But few people realize that more Americans are killed on our highways each year than die from murder or drugs. Police patrolling the high- ways are just trying to save lives. Reports and rumors of police brutality-often exag- gerated-have added to the problems officers face. In response to community pressure, departments must suspend officers involved in shootings and other, less serious incidents, making them feel as if they are at fault when, in fact, most of them were just doing their jobs. So what kind of a person wants this kind of job? Given the low pay, lousy hours, physical danger, emo- tional stress, and lack of appreciation, what kind of man or woman actively seeks out a career in law enforcement? For the most part, it's people who care about peo- ple-who feel a real need to serve others. The indivi- duals profiled in this book are typical members of the law enforcement community. They're people for whom service to their fellow human beings outweighs the dan- ger, stress, and other problems of police work-people like Officer John Utlak of the Niles, Ohio Police Department. Officer John A. Utlak Niles, Ohio Police Department "I'M JOHN, YOUR FRIEND, AND I'M A POLICE OFFICER." "Did he call for me? Did he holler 'Mother, Father? If he had been found sooner, could he have been saved?" Seven years after her son's death, Irene Sudano is a grieving mother. Though doctors have told her that nothing could have saved him once the bullets were 20 I'M JOHN, YOUR FRIEND 21 fired, her thoughts return again and again to her son, sprawled in the snow, dying alone. She wishes she could have done something-any- thing-to keep Johnny alive, or at least to hold him in her arms as he died. But the two young men who killed Officer Utlak didn't give her that opportunity. John Utlak always wanted to be a policeman. "Even when he was a little thing, he would watch the police shows, like 'Dragnet,' says his mother, Irene Sudano. "He always knew who did it. And when he was a teenager, he'd practice being a detective. "He followed his dad around town for two days once, and Joe never knew it!" Motivated by his desire for a career in law enforce- ment, Johnny was a honor student in high school. He went on to major in criminal justice at Youngstown State University, where he was a member of the Army ROTC. As a sophomore, he was unanimously elected Cadet of the Year. It was the first time this honor had ever been awarded to an underclassman. Irene Sudano remembers what Johnny's command- ing officer asked her and Joe at the ROTC ceremony: "Just what exactly did you do to raise a boy like Johnny?" Irene won't take the credit. "Johnny was so gifted," she says. "God gave him everything." This handsome, athletic young man achieved his goal of becoming a police officer, joining the Niles Police Department in 1977. He served the force with a special sense of dedication. As a judge told his mother, "There are a lot of good men on the Niles force, but Johnny was four cops in one." 22 IN THE LINE OF DUTY Johnny's desire to help other people went beyond the duties of his police work. He loved children, and would go out of his way to help them. Fellow officers tell stories of Johnny using his own money to buy a winter jacket for a teenage boy who had only a windbreaker to wear on a bitterly cold day, and of the time he bought a football helmet for a boy whose family couldn't afford to purchase one for him. "I'm John, your friend, and I'm a police officer," he'd say each year when he volunteered his time at Big Wheel City, a Niles safety program for youngsters. Johnny thought nothing of spending his money and his free time to help the youngsters of his community. But in the end, he gave much more. John Utlak gave his life. On December 8, 1982, Officer Utlak was working an undercover narcotics assignment. Two teenage inform- ants, Randy Fellows and Fred Joseph, Jr., called Johnny and asked him to meet them that night, and to bring money so they could make some big drug buys. Officer Utlak agreed to meet them at 8:00 p.m. in a deserted area near the Gibraltar Steel Company. The afternoon before Johnny Utlak went to meet the informants, his father implored him to request a trans- fer out of the undercover narcotics work. "Johnny, give it up," Joe Sudano said. "Can't you see what it's doing to your mother? She's losing weight. She can't sleep." As usual, Johnny tried to reassure his worried par- ents. "I can take care of myself, Dad. I'm a good cop." "Johnny, we know that," his mother said, "but you can't stop a bullet!" I'M JOHN, YOUR FRIEND 23 "Oh, Mom," he said, kissing and hugging Irene, "I'll be all right. I'll stop by around 9:30 tonight." But by 9:30 that cold December night, Johnny Utlak was dead, shot in the head twice by Fred Joseph, Jr. Johnny hadn't even gotten out of his car before Joseph shot him. His body fell on the snow after his killer opened the car door-the better to rob the dying police officer of the $200 he had brought at the informants' request, his wallet, handcuffs, service revolver, shotgun, and wristwatch. The murderers even tried to pull the gold chain off of Johnny's neck before they left him to die in the snow. John Utlak's body wasn't found until the next morning, after a passerby spotted a man lying in the snow and called police. "Murder brings on its own rage," Irene Sudano says. "There's no way to accept any death. But if-God forbid-he'd had a disease and we could have nursed him, we could have given him our love. This way, there was nothing we could do." Johnny's parents and his younger sister Joanne made it through those first terrible days somehow. Irene remembers seeing her parish priest walk in the door. She had a warning for him: "Don't you dare tell me that this is God's will!" The priest shook his head. "No, I did not come to say that to you. Irene, it's the evil world. This is not God's doing." But Irene Sudano was angry at God, and, for a time at Johnny, too, because her loss was so great. "We were SO close. We'd sit and talk over a cup of tea about books we'd read, movies we'd seen. And Johnny's 24 IN THE LINE OF DUTY sister, Joanne-she lost so much. They were partners in crime when they were growing up, and mentors, and best friends." Joanne Sudano, 16 at the time of her brother's death, is now an auditor for the Department of Defense. She plans to marry soon. But she and her mother worry about how they'll get through the wedding ceremony without crying for Johnny, who would have wanted so much to be a part of this special day in his little sis- ter's life. "I took Joanne to try on her wedding dress, and I asked God to give me strength not to spoil it for her. But when they put the gown on Joanne, I cried my heart out. At least I did it with dignity, if that's possible. I just keep asking myself, 'How am I going to make it through her wedding-there in the beautiful church where Johnny's casket lay in the aisle?" Like anyone who has lost a loved one, Irene Sudano has asked "Why?" many times over. The answers to her questions just don't add up. What motivated Johnny's killers? They wanted to rob him. Why did they decide to kill him? During the long, painful process of the trial, a witness testified that one of the murderers had said he'd like to kill all policemen. Why? No rational person can possibly understand such a desire. A loving son, Johnny had sent his parents a card on November 2, a little over a month before he was killed. There was no special occasion. The card was an expres- sion of his gratitude to his parents—one of many affec- tionate messages Johnny's family members received from him. "I feel the card was saying good-bye," Irene told a I'M JOHN, YOUR FRIEND 25 reporter in the months following Johnny's death. But it's hard to say good-bye to a man like Johnny, and Irene Sudano says she never will. "Your 'whys' will never be answered," she said. "You just have to keep on living the best you can." Irene and Joe have attended several of the annual memorial services held in Washington, D.C. to honor law enforcement officers who died in the line of duty the previous year. At the first service, in May 1983, Irene found a sense of belonging with other mourners: "We all had the disease-like a leper colony." But there was-and is-comfort in sharing the good memories and the pain- ful times with other survivors of police officers. Since Johnny's death, both his family and his com- munity have rallied to carry on his tradition of caring. The Niles Police Department established the John A. Utlak Memorial Fund, which helps support Special Olympics and other programs for children. Joe Sudano and other family members formed a bowling team that raises money for Johnny's Fund. And Irene Sudano reaches out to help those who- like her-have known the agonizing pain of losing son or daughter, husband or wife, father or mother through line-of-duty deaths. For years, she has extended a supportive hand, an understanding voice whenever she could. "They'll tell me, 'You helped me so much," Irene says, "But I was doing it for my son and for all his fellow slain officers. And they helped me, too." Irene also traveled to Washington to testify before Congress on the need to increase death benefits for police survivors. Her efforts, along with those of many 26 IN THE LINE OF DUTY other survivors, succeeded in getting the death benefit doubled. "This was a great, great accomplishment for me," she says. Shortly after Irene Sudano returned from her lobby- ing trip to Washington, she was amazed to look out her living room window one day and see an enormous arrangement of wildflowers making its way up to her front door. "It was so big, I couldn't even see the person who delivered it!" The card read, "Something to show our thanks, appreciation, and love for all that you have done for us. The guys at the station, Niles Police Department." Today, Irene is eager to see the Law Enforcement Officers Memorial completed. "I am so happy that finally the Memorial will be there. After the death, the shock, grief, the most important thing is to never let them be forgotten. This is the main thing-to respect them for the supreme sacrifice they made." Johnny Utlak had served five years and three days on the Niles Police Department before he was killed-not long enough. He will never be forgotten by his family or by the many people he helped. After Johnny's death, his mother received a note from an elderly lady. "You don't know me," she wrote, "but I knew your son, and I wanted to tell you that I am going to miss him SO much. He would check on me all the time. If I needed milk or bread, he would go to the store for me." I'M JOHN, YOUR FRIEND 27 Ordinary citizens benefit enormously from the small and large sacrifices of men and women like Johnny. The least we can do is say a final, permanent "thank you" to those who have given their lives to serve us. And that's exactly what the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial is designed to do. Officer Richard Miller Baltimore City Police Department Baltimore, Maryland DREAMS LOST, NIGHTMARES FOUND "Who do you think it's worse for, me or you?" Karen Adolfo asked Betty Miller. Betty thought for a moment, then said carefully, "I'll have to think about that before I can answer you." The two women had become friends because of a tragic bond they shared-the loss of their husbands, both 28 DREAMS LOST, NIGHTMARES FOUND 29 officers in the Baltimore City Police Department, at the hands of vicious criminals. But the similarity in their stories ended there. Karen was just 21 at the time of Vince's death. Childhood sweethearts, they had been married only two years. They never had a chance to start the family they had dreamed of. Betty and Dick Miller had been married 31 years. Their two children-daughter Pat, 29, and son, Rick, 30-were out on their own. A study by Concerns of Police Survivors, funded by the National Institute of Justice, indicates that Karen might have a harder time recovering than Betty: "Youn- ger women, especially if married for 10 years or less, were found to have a more severe reaction to the death of a spouse than the older women married for a longer period of time." Betty agrees. When she finally answered Karen's question, she said, "At least I had 31 years with Dick. We raised our family together. I have the kids and the grandkids. You have nothing. It's got to be a lot harder." To an outsider, Karen's question might sound self- pitying or idle. But it was part of her attempt to make sense of something completely senseless, the slaying of her handsome young husband in a Baltimore alleyway on November 18, 1985. Early that evening, Officer Adolfo noticed a silver Cadillac Coupe de Ville cruising a Baltimore neighbor- hood. He radioed the dispatcher for information on the car's license tags, and learned that the tags had been stolen from another car earlier that month. Now assisted by a second police cruiser, the young police 30 IN THE LINE OF DUTY officer attempted to stop the car. The driver did his best to get away, jumping out of the car to run up an alley, and Officer Adolfo ran after him. There were three other people in the Cadillac; the second police officer had his hands full with them. So Vince Adolfo was alone when he ran up Iron Alley, where he met his death. Flint Gregory Hunt shot Vince Adolfo in the chest. Vince died in surgery at Johns Hopkins Hospital shortly after the shooting. From that moment, Karen's life became a nightmare that has only begun to fade now, almost four years later. Vince's things are where he left them in the home he built for them. Every day, Karen walks past his bath- robe, hanging on the bedroom door where he left it. His clothes are still in the bureau, his uniform in the closet. Still fiercely loyal to Vince, Karen won't hear of dating anyone else. "I don't know what they mean by letting go," she told The Baltimore Sun. "He's so strongly a part of my life. I'll never let go." In a lengthy interview in the fall of 1988, Karen described her days as tasks to be gotten through, because she knows she's supposed to. Though she duti- fully attends to them, her job, her hobbies, her friends do nothing to alleviate the agony of Vince's absence. Only babysitting for her nieces and nephews brings a spark of happiness to this pretty young woman's heart. For Karen, Betty Miller has been a lifeline, someone who understands her deep, lasting grief, someone she can talk to about Vince without fear of being told "It's time to get over it." DREAMS LOST, NIGHTMARES FOUND 31 Betty understands too well the pain Karen is going through. On the afternoon of June 12, 1986, her hus- band Dick, a 31-year veteran of the Baltimore City Police Department, went to his regular detail at Balti- more's Memorial Stadium. For years, Dick spent sum- mer evenings directing traffic when the Orioles baseball team played home games. He loved the team, and had many friends among the players. Betty even found a picture of Dick and Orioles star Brooks Robinson in his wallet after his death. He loved his work so much, in fact, that he passed up his scheduled retirement in Jan- uary 1986. "What about that retirement?" Betty Miller asked her husband. "I think I'll just work one more season with the Orioles," her husband replied. Betty Miller doesn't waste time thinking "If only Dick had retired when he was supposed to." "It was meant to be," she says matter-of-factly. "That's the only way I can look at it. Otherwise, I'd go crazy." Dick was directing traffic on 33rd Street around 6:00 p.m. that June evening when a call came over his radio from the east side of the stadium. "Stop the little white car," the officer said. The caller apparently did not know that the little white car had already tried to run over Officer Michael Parks on his way down from the stadium's east lot. Dick and fellow Officer Paul Aires went out into the street to flag down the car. They spotted the car, then saw it accelerate. In a horrified moment, Paul said to Dick, "He's not stopping, let's bail out." The two men ran to the opposite side of the street, 32 IN THE LINE OF DUTY retreating behind a series of traffic cones. But the driver deliberately turned the car to his left. He maneuvered through the traffic cones to get to the officers. His car brushed Paul Aires, but it hit Dick Miller full-force at 55 miles per hour, throwing him onto the hood of the car. Then he hit two more cars, catapulting Dick onto the street. The driver, Leonard Cirincione, hit Dick with such force that the officer's glasses were embedded in the hood of the little white car. As Dick lay bleeding in the street, and in the months to come, Cirincione would claim that it was just a little accident. His attitude so enraged Paul Aires that fellow officers had to struggle to keep him away from the suspect. Under the care of the Chief Physician for the Balti- more Police, Dick was taken to the city's Shock-Trauma Unit. In the hours immediately following the incident, doctors had to decide what to do with Dick's crushed legs. The next morning, Betty signed a permission form so doctors could amputate his right leg. "If they didn't do it, he wouldn't live 48 hours. They thought they might be able to save his left leg, but they didn't know." Betty saw Dick in the Critical Care Unit that morn- ing. He was heavily sedated. "He didn't look like him- self," she remembers. "All the bones in his face were broken. They had to do a trach to keep him breathing. You couldn't really talk to him. We knew he had suf- fered brain damage, but we never knew how much." Valiantly, Betty did her best to encourage her hus- band, who showed little response to stimulation. "I would hold his eyes open with my fingers and talk DREAMS LOST, NIGHTMARES FOUND 33 to him. If I told him to squeeze my hand, sometimes he would do it. One day I took in a picture of our grand- daughter and I held it in front of his face. 'I don't know what you're doing in there, but you're sure not making much effort,' I told him. 'If you know who this is, squeeze my hand." Dick stared at the picture for a long time. Tears rolled down his face, and he squeezed his wife's hand. "Things seemed to be on an upswing for a while, but I didn't want to get my hopes up," Betty said. "On July 3, our daughter was married. She cancelled the wedding she had planned and got married at the courthouse. Later that very day, Dick's condition began to go slowly downhill." The massively injured police officer suffered kidney and liver failure. Then he started to suffer seizures. "The seizures still give me nightmares," Betty says. "I've never seen anything like that. They would come every minute. You would see his toes start to shake and then it would get worse and worse-over his whole body. They had to strap him down or he'd be on the floor." Sunday, July 13, the seizures came even more fre- quently. At times they were just 40 seconds apart. The doctors were stumped. The anti-seizure drug they were giving Dick could not be prescribed in higher dosages without danger of it killing him. The ordeal dragged on. Betty and her children kept up their vigil. One night, as they were leaving the hospi- tal, Pat asked her mother, "Why can't he die?" Betty said, "I can't answer that, but I don't think we'll have to wait too long for an answer." 34 IN THE LINE OF DUTY A practical person, Betty wanted to be prepared for Dick's death. She wanted to buy a burial plot and start making the many arrangements that would need to be made. "If he didn't need it, fine. If he did, I'd be ready." She called one of the doctors treating Dick. "I need answers," she told him. "I'm not the kind of person who can leave things hanging, and there are things I need to do if Dick's going to die." The doctor replied that he had no answers to give her. "Don't tell me you don't have them!" Betty said. "You deal with the worst injuries that can happen to people. You must have an idea of what Dick's chances are." "I can't tell you," he said. "I asked you a point-blank question," Betty said. "There are things I have to deal with. How long?" "If I had to guess," the doctor finally said, "I'd have to say within a week." "Okay, fine," Betty said. She hung up, called the cemetery, and made an appointment for Monday morning. Dick died that Monday at 3:05 a.m., 39 days after Leonard Cirincione ran him down. It was July 21, one day before the 32nd anniversary of his joining the force. Dick was given a hero's funeral, the kind of funeral police are famous for. Thousands of officers attended. Baseball players from the Orioles team paid their respects. And though the pain was deep and lasting for Betty Miller, it comforted her to know that, given the existence of a Leonard Cirincione on that June evening at Memorial Stadium, Dick would have wanted it this way: "Dick would have wanted it to be him who was hit DREAMS LOST, NIGHTMARES FOUND 35 instead of the people on their way to the ball game." Dick has been remembered with love and apprecia- tion by many. "He was an inspiration to a lot of us younger fellows," Officer Andrew Giordano told the Evening Sun just after Dick died. "Whenever the situa- tion around the stadium started getting stressful and we younger guys were losing our patience, we'd just look to Dickie Miller who was cool and calm." Several of Dick's many friends made sure he had his favorite beer and Hershey Kisses right nearby: They put a supply in his casket. Occasionally, Betty still finds a can of beer behind the flowers on Dick's grave. He has been awarded the highest honors the police department and civic groups can bestow. But perhaps he would be proudest of the plaque erected in his honor at Memorial Stadium. It reads as follows: In recognition of his faithful service as a Member of the Police Department of the City of Baltimore this tablet is erected in memory of Police Officer Richard Miller Traffic Division Born April 20, 1931 Appointed July 22, 1954 Killed in the execution of his duties July 21, 1986 His service honored the department. This plaque is donated by the Baltimore Orioles Foundation and the Traffic Division of the Police Department. 36 IN THE LINE OF DUTY The plaque hangs at the Stadium offices with only two others-one in honor of Baltimore Colts football star Johnny Unitas, the other in honor of Dick's good friend, Brooks Robinson. For Betty, going through the trial of Leonard Cirin- cione was maddening. Cirincione, a 29-year-old part- time construction worker, had a history of drug abuse. At the trial, he testified that he had smoked seven or eight joints of PCP, a hallucinogenic drug, the day he killed Dick. The son of a former police officer, he seemed to have a virulent hatred of police, having been arrested twice previously for assaulting an officer. He showed no regret for what he had done. Indeed, the entire Cirincione family professed not to understand what all the fuss was about. They made an obscene gesture at the Miller family in the hall of the court- house, and Leonard's father stated on a radio talk show that "it was just an accident." Furious, Betty Miller called the radio station the next day. "Mr. Cirincione," she said on the air, "your son killed my husband. He destroyed my life. I ask you to look in the mirror and see me. I'm like you. You're lonely, but I'm lonely too. At least you have the option of going down to the Maryland State Penitentiary to hug your son and make sure he's okay. My children and I visit the cemetery." Cirincione was convicted of first degree murder in the death of Richard Miller, first degree attempted murder of Officer Aires, and assault on Officer Papks. The first two sentences are running consecutively. Cirincione is now serving life plus 20 years at the Maryland State Penitentiary. DREAMS LOST, NIGHTMARES FOUND 37 There's some measure of satisfaction in knowing that her husband's killer is behind bars, says Betty Miller, but it will never ease her pain completely. "I live with this every day. Nobody wants to hear it. People say, 'It's been three years and you should be past it.' Friends we had together aren't friends now. They can't handle it. There's only a few that can look me in the eye. The rest look past me." "One day, that cemetery looked real good to me." But Betty Miller has gotten on with her life. "It's a struggle to do that. My grandchildren are my life now." The little ones keep her going, as does her involvement with other police survivors through COPS. "If you can reach out and help somebody else, you will get on with your life. You'll never get the answer to 'why' but you can go on." Betty Miller keeps Dick's mementoes in a beautiful glass breakfront in her immaculate living room. There, a visitor can see his hat, a baseball, a baseball glove given to Dick by pitching great Jim Palmer, and a host of honorary medals and plaques. Saddest, perhaps, is Dick's badge, with the enamel scraped off in places by the force of the impact of the little white car. In spite of all her pain and loneliness, Betty is con- vinced she has it better than Karen Adolfo, deprived so early of so much love, so much potential, and a life the two young people had planned together since they met in their teens. "But she'll make it," Betty says. "Karen's going to be all right." In a spirit typical of law enforcement officers' survi- vors, Karen and Betty are trying to help each other make the best of what life has cruelly handed them. "TALKING ABOUT IT IS PAINFUL. SILENCE IS MORE PAINFUL." -A participant at a COPS grief seminar. "After Dan was killed," Pam Gleason said, "some people said to me, 'Well, at least you expected it. You knew what you were getting into when you mar- ried him.' "But Dan's death was not part of the deal!" Law enforcement officers and their families tend to put the possibility of line-of-duty death out of their minds, simply in order to survive. "You can't think about it," many widows have told me. "You can't let yourself, or you'd go crazy." But even if you could dwell on the ultimate dangers of the job, there's no way to prepare yourself for the sudden, violent death of a loved one. "The days after Kevin's death were so hard. It's like this big hole in your stomach that doesn't fill up," said Judi Welsh, whose husband, Kevin, a Washington, D.C. police officer, drowned while trying to save a woman who had thrown herself into the Potomac River in an attempted suicide. Anyone who loses a spouse, child, parent, sibling, or close friend will experience profound grief. But the survivors of law enforcement officers who die in the line of duty can undergo a host of troubling symptoms, known collectively as Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Combat veterans, hostages, rape and assault victims, and survivors of natural disasters often experi- 39 40 IN THE LINE OF DUTY ence this syndrome, and so do at least 59%* of survi- vors of police officers killed in the line of duty. PTSD sufferers can re-live the traumatic incident for years. Awake or asleep, they experience it repeatedly, replaying their loved one's death in their minds like an irresistible, yet horrifying, movie. Often, they become numb, unable to feel any emotions to the degree they did before their loss. Sometimes they stop sleeping. Understandably, survivors with PTSD have an increased startle reflex. A noise around the house can make them jump, turning a routine episode into a heart-pounding panic attack. Sometimes they experi- ence flashbacks, hallucinations, and illusions that seem very, very real. "Six months after the death, you might start to smell his aftershave around the house," says Vivian Eney, who lost her husband Chris in a line-of-duty accidental death. "You think you're going crazy. That's why it's SO important to talk with other survivors, to know that you're not the only one experiencing these things-to know you're not alone." Vivian experienced her first flashback a few years after her husband's death. As often happens, her mem- ories may have been triggered by the weather; her hus- band was killed August 24, 1984. "I was driving on the Beltway on a beautiful day in August when I felt the blood leave my face. My heart started pounding, and I was crying uncontrollably." *Stillman, F.A., Researcher, Concerns of Police Survivors, Inc., Grant No. 85- IJCX0012, National Institute of Justic, USDOJ. TALKING ABOUT IT IS PAINFUL 41 "Mom, you're scaring me," Vivian's daughter said. "I'm scaring me, too!" Vivian replied. When a survivor with PTSD does not receive profes- sional help or peer group support, the suffering can escalate. Substance abuse, broken relationships, lost careers can result. It's almost as if the violent, destruc- tive force of the loved one's death never stops chipping away at their lives. "Survivors and law enforcement agencies don't usu- ally think of themselves as secondary victims, but that's what they are," says Jim Scutt of the National Sheriffs' Association. COPS' study of fallen law enforcement officers' sur- vivors has shown that the way a widow, mother, or close friend of the officer is notified of the death has much to do with their ability to recover fully from their loss. Survivors have many horror stories to tell about noti- fication. Some wives learn of their husbands' deaths on the radio or television before the department notifies them. Some have been devastated by the seeming cold- ness of the officers sent to deliver the bad news. Jim Scutt speaks to law enforcement officers on the difficult task of notification. "I tell them, 'It's the hardest thing you'll ever have to do as a cop. But if you're the chief or sheriff of a department, shame on you if you don't go personally to make the notification, and you'd better do it right. Take somebody with you to support the family." Founded by Suzanne Sawyer, wife of a police officer and immediate past president of the Fraternal Order of Police Ladies Auxiliary, COPS (Concerns of Police Sur- vivors) is working with law enforcement agencies across 42 IN THE LINE OF DUTY the nation to improve notification procedures. COPS publishes a widely distributed booklet on line-of-duty deaths that will help agencies prepare for the tragedies they never want to think about. As for now, says one widow, too many police departments know "exactly how far you're supposed to stand from the casket, but how to notify the widow-they don't have a clue." This important booklet is just part of what COPS is doing to help survivors. Survivors of line-of-duty death interviewed for this book gratefully acknowledged the tremendous work done by Suzie Sawyer-work that has made it possible for them to put their lives back together again. A key part of Ms. Sawyer's healing efforts is the annual COPS grief seminar. Each year in May, during National Police Week in Washington, D.C., COPS coordinates this two-day event for offi- cers' survivors. The seminar is held immediately prior to the National Peace Officers Memorial Day service, which is sponsored each year on May 15 by the Frater- nal Order of Police Ladies Auxiliary. Started in 1982 by then-FOPLA president Trudy Chapman and Ms. Saw- yer, the memorial service honors officers killed during the previous year. What happens at a grief seminar? "You find out you're not alone. You find out you're not crazy," parti- cipants say. Every survivor interviewed for this book stressed the importance of the COPS "family." "I went the first year to get help for myself," says Doris Beauregard, whose husband Alain and his part- ner Michael Schiavina-members of the Springfield, Massachusetts Police Department-were shot to death. "The next year I came back to help the others." TALKING ABOUT IT IS PAINFUL 43 At the COPS seminar, survivors talk, cry, yell, laugh, and feel the strength their common bond brings. Special sessions are held to accommodate the varying needs of the survivors. "First, we try to fill them with hope at the beginning of the seminar," says Vivian Eney, currently National President of COPS. "We try to tell them that the only way to get out on the other side is to go through the pain. If you try to hide from it, it will catch up with you. And we tell them, 'I'm a survivor, and I'm going to continue to be a survivor, and you can, too." Then the participants can choose sessions suited to their particular needs-sessions for husbands of female officers who died in the line of duty; for survivors of officers whose deaths were accidents; for survivors of officers whose deaths were felonious; for parents, "the forgotten grievers," whose pain may be overlooked while the spouse's and children's needs seem to be paramount in everyone's minds. And there are special sessions for the children of fallen law enforcement officers-100 of the 600 partici- pants in the 1989 Grief Seminar. This year, an art therapist had the kids draw pictures. Often, their images reveal lingering anger, depression, and frustra- tion. When she sees possible problems represented in a child's drawings, the art therapist recommends that the parent seek counselling for the child, to help him or her deal with the enormous pain of losing Daddy or Mommy. The seminar also includes a session for co-workers of the dead officers. "Man, this was my partner, and I'm not dealing with it very well" is a typical comment in 44 IN THE LINE OF DUTY this special gathering. Traditionally police departments have had a "get tough" attitude about emotions, but burying the grief may endanger the living officer as he or she goes about daily law enforcement tasks. "The officers are told, 'He's dead, it's over with, get on with your job,' says Vivian Eney. "But it's not over. Officers worry that their grief may surface any time, in situations where it might do a lot of harm-apprehend- ing a suspect, for example. Remembering the incident can make you freeze in terror, or get more violent. Or you might simply lose your concentration, which is key to one's ability to do the job." While fellow law enforcement officers might find it hard to express their emotions when a colleague dies, they almost always make a show of force at the hospital when an officer is injured, and at wakes, funerals, and memorial services. "I don't know of any other profession like it," says Jim Scutt. "At the Memorial Service this year, it rained steadily the whole time. Even with an umbrella, I was sopping wet by the end of it. But there were thousands and thousands of officers there who didn't even have umbrellas. And they weren't about to leave until that last name had been read, that last sacrifice acknowledged." Vivian Eney says it's tough for police officers to let down the walls they build up to defend themselves from the stress of their jobs. "You go to a police funeral and you see 5,000 pairs of sunglasses. God forbid anybody should see these men cry!" Special Agent Jim Horn of the FBI Academy's Behavioral Science Services Division says people can be TALKING ABOUT IT IS PAINFUL 45 taught to handle trauma and loss more effectively, not by "toughing it out" but by learning to express their feelings, to reach out to others, and to make a conscious decision to be "better, not bitter:" "Education got us into this: You grow up, you're big, you don't cry. Education will get us out of it: When we can ask for help, we're really on our way." The first step is talking. "A Holocaust survivor said, 'Pain has everything to do with silence," Jim Horn says. "Survivors need to know their feelings are acknowledged, understood, and accepted. They need to know their experience has been validated by others." Compounding survivors' grief is the fact that our nation has not made an effort to commemorate the ultimate sacrifices made by their loved ones. "The Memorial is so important because you must have a monument of some kind for that healing to take place," as Agent Horn has learned from Dr. Bessel van der Kolk of the Harvard Trauma Center. "If you don't have a physical one, you might erect one mentally," Horn says, creating Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or other problems in the process. "If you're dying serving other people, that should be recognized. These people deserve more than just a little plot of ground." And so do their survivors, the men, women, and children who in great numbers have gone on to make the most of their lives, reaching out to fellow mourners and doing what they can to improve the lot of heroes in America's ongoing, undeclared war-the war on crime. Officer Edward Byrne New York City Police Department OUTMANNED, OUTARMED, OUTGUNNED- THE DRUG WARS IN AMERICA Something went wrong at the Hurricane Motel. Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco, and Firearms Agents Ariel Rios and Alexander d'Atri were the cream of the crop, selected from among their peers to serve on the Vice President's Task Force on Crime in South Florida, 46 OUTMANNED, OUTARMED, OUTGUNNED 47 an elite drug-fighting unit. Ariel Rios left his home base of Connecticut and eagerly headed out to accept his new assignment. Agent Rios grew up in New York City, received a B.S. degree from the John Jay College of Criminal Justice, and was sworn in as a special agent for BATF on December 4, 1978. Ariel Rios quickly earned a reputa- tion for excellence in undercover narcotics work. "He was one of the best," his superiors and his peers would say after his death. On December 2, 1982, Agents Rios and D'Atri were working undercover in Miami, trying to negotiate a cocaine buy from Cuban drug and weapons traffickers. In a seedy room at Miami's Hurricane Motel, some- thing went terribly wrong. One of the dealers apparently saw other agents moving in outside the motel to make an arrest. He drew a gun. Ariel Rios moved instantly to disarm him. Special Agent Rios was shot in the face. His partner was shot four times. Ariel Rios died almost instantly. Special Agent D'Atri, though seriously wounded, survived. The investigation the two agents had been working on brought good results for the Task Force, resulting in the indictment of 17 individuals and the confiscation of five kilograms of cocaine, $82,000, one automatic weapon, five silencers, 20 silencer kits, and 20 other firearms. Ariel Rios, 28, left a wife, Esilda Morales, and two children, Eileen and Francesco. He was laid to rest in the mountains of Puerto Rico. In Washington, D.C., the headquarters building of the Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco, and Firearms is now 48 IN THE LINE OF DUTY the Ariel Rios Federal Building, in honor of this coura- geous warrior in the crusade against drugs. They call it an "execution-style" killing. It was fast. It was sure. It was professional murder, motivated by the greed of drug kingpins. Officer Eddie Byrne was a rookie with the New York City Police Department, proud of his job and eagerly looking forward to following in his father's footsteps as a law enforcement officer. On February 26, 1988, he was assigned to protect a key prosecution witness in an upcoming drug trial. Eddie was sitting in his patrol car outside the witness's house when thugs working for a drug lord walked up and shot him in the head five times. Officer Byrne's murder was interpreted by many law enforcement officials as a clear and simple message from the drug kingpins to America: "Don't get in our way." Eddie Byrne had just turned 22. She died of her wounds eight years later. Officer Jane Thompson Bowman of the Columbus, Ohio Police Department died March 9, 1989. She was 36 years old, the first female Columbus police officer to die from injuries received in the line of duty-in a drug raid shooting eight years before. The young officer was one of four shot in the drug raid while serving a search warrant. She had been shot once when one of the fleeing perpetrators returned and shot her again. The two bullet wounds to the abdomen OUTMANNED, OUTARMED, OUTGUNNED 49 caused severe injuries to her pancreas, liver, kidneys, and intestines. Amazingly, she survived the shooting, though she never returned to active-duty police work. Her husband told people Janie was angry about the shooting mostly because it took her out of the front lines. Jane Thompson Bowman underwent over 30 opera- tions. She was hospitalized 60 times in the last eight years of her life. Finally, her beleaguered body could endure no more, and her gallant fight for life ended March 9, 1989. Add Officer Bowman's name to the long list of vic- tims of the ruthless drug dealers who want to take over America. Cadaver No. 1. Enrique "Kiki" Camarena, 37, was a veteran employee of the U.S. Drug Enforcement Agency, serving in Guadalajara, Mexico. Frustrated by the corruption surrounding him, stymied by criminals who simply laughed in his face, Kiki had requested and been granted a transfer out. But three weeks before his scheduled departure, on February 5, 1985, he went to meet his wife for lunch. He never made it. For a month, U.S. officials tried to rescue Kiki Camerena, with precious little assistance from the Mexi- can government. When they found him, he was dead. Enrique Camarena had been tortured. The violations of his body were unspeakably grotesque. A severe blow to the head killed him. He had apparently been buried in a shallow grave. Then the body was exhumed, wrapped in a plastic bag, and thrown on a village roadside with the body of Captain Alfredo Zavala Ave- 50 IN THE LINE OF DUTY lar, a pilot for the Mexican Ministry of Agriculture who worked for the U.S. Drug Enforcement Agency on the side. Zavala had also been tortured; then he was bur- ied alive. Red Cross doctors labelled the two decomposing bodies Cadaver No. 1 and Cadaver No. 2. Enrique's remains, telling the horror story of his final hours, were all that was left for his wife, Mika, and their three sons, Enrique, Daniel, and Erick. From New York to Miami to Guadalajara. To Los Angeles, where drug-selling gangs rule whole sections of the city, and to Portland, Oregon, where L.A. gang members have migrated, seeking an ever more lucrative, untapped drug market. To the big cities and the small towns of the Midwest, the South, New England-in fact, in every part of this country today, drugs are destroying our nation. Drugs destroy drug abusers-or maybe it's more accurate to say that drug abusers destroy themselves. Drugs destroy youngsters, who at the ages of 9 and 10 years old can earn $500 a day for acting as a drug "runner" or "holder." Drugs destroy innocent by- standers, shot while sitting on their front porches or sleeping in their beds, or robbed at gunpoint for drug money, then killed as an afterthought by people for whom human life holds no special value. Ultimately, drugs have the power to unravel the fabric of the United States of America. And this is what our law enforcement agencies are up against-the sinister force of illegal drugs, a force so powerful that law enforcement professionals say it's the top problem they face today. OUTMANNED, OUTARMED, OUTGUNNED 51 "Drugs are the scariest thing going," says Jim Scutt of the National Sheriffs' Association, "for two reasons. One, officers are dealing largely with people who are out of their minds on drugs. Two, the first shot fired doesn't kill a drug abuser." A drug-intoxicated suspect doesn't feel pain the way a normal person does. Without a pain reaction, his body keeps going beyond what would normally be pos- sible. But some drugs do more than anesthetize. Sub- stances like PCP and crack seem to make the users paranoid and violent, and sometimes appear to give them superhuman strength. Scutt recalls the recent death of his police academy classmate, Corporal Charles Hill of the Alexandria, Virginia Police Department. Cpl. Hill died at the hands of a drug-crazed addict, a man who over the course of a couple of hours had smoked a large amount of crack cocaine. Cpl. Hill died trying to save the life of a hostage, who was later discovered to be a drug dealer. Brandishing a shotgun, the hostage-taker ordered Cpl. Hill to drop his weapon or he would kill the hostage. As the drama unfolded, a police sharpshooter shot the gunman, a blow that should have been fatal to a normal individual. But the gunman was so drug- intoxicated that even after he was shot, he was able to fire two rounds. One killed Charlie Hill instantly. The second seriously wounded another officer. The suspect was finally killed in a hail of police bullets. "The rules of the street have changed," says Scutt. "Life has little value." Worse yet, says Dewey Stokes, President of the Fra- ternal Order of Police, "Drug dealers and abusers have 52 IN THE LINE OF DUTY gone from the defensive to the offensive because of the availability of high-power, rapid-fire weapons-what we call 'drug guns.' They have made stopping, search- ing, and search warrant execution highly volatile and dangerous tasks for officers throughout the country." The Fraternal Order of Police supports President Bush's permanent ban on the importation of assault, or semi-automatic weapons, but the organization wants to see a larger step taken-an outright ban on all assault weapons, made abroad or in the U.S. Dewey Stokes explains the FOP's position: "Some assault weapons will penetrate bullet-resistant vests. And since they release a spray of gunfire, they give the drug criminals a much better chance of hitting their targets. If they're not sporting or hunting weapons- and they're not-why not ban them from general pur- chase and let the officers be more secure?" Drugs and drug guns have caused enormous changes in police work in the last 15 years, Officer Stokes says. "Then, armed robbery, burglary, marijuana smokers were the big things. Now you have crack use, rape up all over the country, homicide-especially brutal, sadistic homicides, which are on the increase. I attribute that to mind-altering drugs that produce more aggressive and violent criminals." During this period of ever-increasing drug-related crime, many municipalities have cut back on their law enforcement budgets. The result? Too many law enforcement agencies are under-manned and out- gunned by the drug dealers, who will stop at nothing to protect their unbelievably valuable turf. The escalating violence is creating a reign of terror, OUTMANNED, OUTARMED, OUTGUNNED 53 against which courageous Federal, State, and local offi- cers must battle every day of the year, risking every- thing, giving their lives as did Agent Rios, Officer Byrne, Officer Bowman, and Agent Camarena. "When I go to testify before Congress in support of our police officers, sometimes the legislators don't understand why I feel the way I do," says Dewey Stokes. "I tell them it's simple. I've been to many funerals. I've held so many widows and babies and children, and I've told them they would be all right. That's what keeps me going. That's why I'm determined to do whatever I can to help all law enforcement officers and their families." "We have a society that doesn't support law enforce- ment's sacrifices like it used to," says FBI Special Agent James Horn. "It's a selfish, self-indulgent society, and nowhere do you see that more clearly than in the level of drug abuse." It will take a lot to stop the drug plague. More men and women will give their lives in the struggle. The least we can do is let them know that their sacrifices are appreciated, and that's why the National Law Enforce- ment Officers Memorial is so important to the police community. How can we ask our officers to go out every day and risk their lives, when we don't even commemorate the sacrifices of their slain colleagues? Our fallen heroes in the drug wars should not fade from memory, and they must not. As members of a decent society, we cannot let them be forgotten. Patrolman James Wier Denver, Colorado Police Department "MOMMY, WHAT WAS DADDY LIKE?" Too many children of law enforcement officers will never know their fathers. James Wier's sons are two of them. On June 3, 1987, Shawn Marie Wier was breast- feeding her infant son, Dustin, at 10:00 p.m., and watching the evening news on television, when her world began to fall apart. 54 "MOMMY, WHAT WAS DADDY LIKE?" 55 A news reporter announced that two police officers had been shot in Denver, 70 miles away. The broadcast was then garbled by audio problems; Shawn couldn't hear the officers' names, but somehow, intuitively, she knew the incident had occurred in the sector where her husband, James, was on duty. The phone rang, and Shawn found herself in dream time, where everything moves so slowly. "I walked out into the kitchen and stared at the phone. I made myself answer it, finally." "Is this Mrs. Wier?" a voice asked. "Yes," Shawn replied. "Is this James Wier's mother?" "No, it's his wife." "Did-you hear about the shooting?" "Oh my God, was Jim there?" "He's in the Emergency Room." "Tell him I love him and I'll be there as soon as I can," Shawn said, hanging up the phone. But it would take her over an hour to reach Denver. And it was already too late for James Wier to hear his wife's words of love. Preparing to leave her home, Shawn went back into the living room. There, on the screen, she saw her husband on a stretcher, being removed from an ambu- lance. She saw his legs fall limply off the end of the stretcher, and thought to herself, "He's dead." But there was still an oxygen mask on his face; there was still hope. The trip to the hospital was the longest ride in Shawn's life. When she walked into the hospital, two police officers pulled her aside, saying, "We'll tell you 56 IN THE LINE OF DUTY what happened when we get inside." But all Shawn needed was one look at Jim's brother's face. Before Jim's mother could say, "Baby, he's gone," Shawn knew she was a widow with two fatherless children. Shawn wanted to see Jim. They took her into the morgue. "All I wanted to do was hold his hands," she remembers. "I walked into the room and they pulled him out of a drawer. They had brown lunch bags over his hands for prints and gunpowder. I couldn't touch them." Both Jim and his wife were just 25 years old that June evening. They had been married less than a year. Their son, Dustin, had been born just 5½ weeks be- fore. Dirk was 3½ years old. "You go on automatic pilot," Shawn Wier says. "You have to." James Wier was killed by a cop-hater, a deranged elderly man named Charles Tarr who flew the Ameri- can flag upside-down, put signs on his lawn saying "DPD (Denver Police Department) = KGB," and har- assed officers with numerous crank calls. That night, he had called police once around 8:00 p.m. Then his wife, Mary, called to tell police to ignore her husband, that he was just drunk. But the dispatcher overheard a scuffle between the husband and wife. To check on Mrs. Tarr's safety, Patrolmen James Wier and Jimmy Gose were dispatched to the house at 40 S. Pennsylvania Street. When they got there, they could see a man behind the screen door with a rifle or shotgun in his hands. It might have helped if they had known what Mary Tarr knew: That her husband was ready to die. "It's all- "MOMMY, WHAT WAS DADDY LIKE?" 57 out war," he was reported to have said. "It's either them or me." The officers went for cover, Wier crouching behind a three-foot stucco wall and Gose behind a car, just before Tarr opened fire. James Wier rose up from behind the retaining wall to return fire. As he attempted his third shot, Tarr shot him, fatally, in the head. "Officer down," Gose shouted over his radio. Back- up units arrived within minutes. Before the mayhem was over, Sergeants Ronald Samson and Peter Diaz were also wounded, Samson seriously. Finally, Tarr ended his "war" by turning his gun on himself. That afternoon, before James Wier left for work, he and his young family enjoyed a picnic together in their back yard. It started to hail, Shawn remembers: "Jim and I were laughing and kissing each other with this hail falling all around." Indoors, Jim was holding Dustin, described by Shawn as a "clone" of his father. "He'll do okay for himself," Jim Wier said. "Look at me, I haven't done so badly. I've got a beautiful wife." When they said goodbye to Jim for the last time, Shawn and Dirk didn't expect him back that night because he sometimes stayed over in Denver because of the long drive. "Since you're not coming home tomor- row, bring me a surprise," Shawn said. "Bring me one, too, Daddy Jim," Dirk said. Instead, Jim Wier's family had to learn to cope with his brutal slaying. "Before Jim died, I felt safe, secure, and happy, and I want that back," Shawn says. It would be a long time before her life would regain some sense of normalcy: 58 IN THE LINE OF DUTY After Jim's death, she was hit with a seemingly endless succession of problems. Her car was stolen. Dustin got sick and required lengthy hospitalization. Driving a rental car while her car was being repaired, Shawn was in an accident caused by a drunk driver; fortunately, both she and the boys emerged without serious injury from the totalled car. Dirk's natural father sued for custody of the child. In the midst of all of this, Shawn Wier somehow completed a Master's Degree in Communications. But for now, her first priority is her family, and a new life she will start on October 13, 1989, as the wife of another police officer, Patrick O'Connor of the New York City Police Department. Shawn, active in COPS and many other police- related organizations, met Patrick when both were working for a project called Kops'n'Kids that raises money for police orphans. "You do go on with your life, and I was very lucky to find this wonderful man, but the pain of Jim's death isn't over, and it never will be," Shawn says. Shawn is surprised to find herself marrying another policeman. "I swore up and down I'd never even date another cop!" she laughs, "But I've never been able to blackball anyone on the basis of their profession. When I met Pat, I told him it would have to be a very special person for me to date another cop. He turned out to be that very special person." Undoubtedly, Patrick O'Connor has a special under- standing of what Shawn's been through. His father, a New York City police officer, was killed in the line of duty in November 1973. "MOMMY, WHAT WAS DADDY LIKE?" 59 "We're getting married on October 13. Patrick chose the date because it's 10/13-and in police code, 10-13 means 'officer in distress.' I guess he wants his fellow cops to come and save him from me!" Shawn looks forward to a new life in New York. Asked if she will worry about Patrick's safety, she says no. "Pat always says, 'If you worry, you're going to die. If you don't worry, you're still going to die.' I try to remember that." Shawn Marie Wier, just 25 years old at the time of her husband's death, is a survivor. She will tell Dirk and Dustin about James Wier; she will make sure he lives on in their memories. Doris Beauregard is making that effort for her chil- dren, too. There are pictures of their father, Alain, in each of their bedrooms. He is never far from their minds. Her son, Eric, was 2½ when his father, a member of the Springfield, Massachusetts police department, was shot on November 12, 1985 and died on November 15. Eric still remembers his dad a little bit. But his sister, Chantal, will have to build up an image of her father from pictures, mementoes, and stories. Doris Beauregard found out she was pregnant with Chantal one week after Alain's funeral. "The press was reporting that I was pregnant before I even knew I was!" Doris remembers. One of Alain's fellow officers and friends told Doris that Alain had said he thought his wife was pregnant. When Doris learned she was expecting, she was numb. "A couple of months before, I'd had repeated 60 IN THE LINE OF DUTY dreams that Alain was shot and killed. I'd also had dreams where I saw myself pregnant alongside my sis- ter-but without my husband." Alain Beauregard and his partner, Michael Schiavina, were shot and killed by a man named Eddie Ortez after they stopped Ortez's car. Ortez later killed himself. Doris remembers going to Michael's wake, but watching scenes of his funeral on television. She was too weak to attend: Alain, who had survived his wound for a few days, had died the day before. The community rallied around the families of the slain officers. "But the whole experience was SO strange," says Doris, "like being in a dream. On the way to the funeral, I felt like Jackie Kennedy. I'm riding in a limo and there are people lined up all along the street. Something takes over and you're acting out a part. People said I was strong. The reason I could be is that I knew Alain was right by my side." The City of Springfield erected a memorial to Offi- cers Beauregard and Schiavina, and for all other fallen officers. Every year there is a ceremony at the cemetery for the two men. "It's great to know they're not forgot- ten," Doris says. The memorial and the ceremony will help her explain to her children who their father was, and what he died for. "Every year Eric gets more inquisitive about where Daddy is. He asks about dying, and it's really hard to explain to a child, 'Well, your spirit goes to heaven but your body stays here." A Christmas T.V. program in which a grandfather died helped Eric understand death a little better. "MOMMY, WHAT WAS DADDY LIKE?" 61 "I try to tell him heaven's a beautiful place-it's nice and peaceful-and that Daddy's happy there. At the same time, he's watching over you and he'll always be with you." Doris Beauregard has had her bleak days, her moments of complete despair. "But I had to live on for my two children, for those who made me feel happy, and to smile again. The strength of my family, friends, and all the others who supported me has helped me go on with my life." Like Shawn Wier, Doris has found love again-also with a man who is the son of a police officer, John Shecrallah, whom she recently married. "John has been most supportive through the events that have taken place since Alain's death. John has given Eric and Chantal all the love and guidance he would give his own children." Doris says she will never forget Alain: "Alain is gone, but thoughts of him and memories will always be with me, as I have a very special place in my heart for him." Doris's faith in God helped tremendously the healing process. "Sometimes we ask, 'Why me?' But I just pray that he's in peace and that we're going to make it. In some ways, Alain's death made us stronger. We appreci- ate more than we did before. We don't take things for granted." These two courageous young mothers have every right to ask the rest of us not to take certain things for granted, either-especially the supreme sacrifices their husbands so willingly made to make America a little better, a little safer for all of us. Officer Alexander M. Cochran III Virginia State Police WE CALL IT THE INJUSTICE SYSTEM The young mother is killed by a crack user in an attempted robbery. Her murderer, arrested for assault just a week before, had been released on $5,000 bail. The elderly sisters, living together in a country ham- let, are brutally stabbed to death. Their murderer is a convicted killer, out of jail because he came up for 62 WE CALL IT THE INJUSTICE SYSTEM 63 parole just a few years after he committed his last felony. Surely everyone in America has heard horror stories like these. They're far too common. Too many Ameri- cans will be touched by violent crime at some point in their lives, despite the best efforts of law enforcement agencies to protect them. The stories above are just two examples of what many Americans see as the failure of our criminal justice system. In its attempts to protect the rights of the criminal, and in its efforts to cope with a burgeoning prison population, it often overlooks two key concerns: the safety of the public and the rights of crime victims. For many survivors of law enforcement officers killed in the line of duty, the trial of their loved one's killer is a living nightmare. But the verdict and the sentencing are sheer hell. "The system makes the aftermath as traumatic or more traumatic than the event itself," says FBI Special Agent Jim Horn. "To go to court opens all the old wounds, and this goes on for months and years sometimes. "When the perpetrator is not caught, there's never closure," Agent Horn continues. "But even when the perpetrator survives and is apprehended, survivors experience second injury, a resurfacing of the traumatic reactions all over again." It's difficult if not impossible to accept that the per- son who deprived you of your loved one will get a punishment that seems to you like a mere slap on the wrist. Outrage is one reaction-a reaction that's familiar to 64 IN THE LINE OF DUTY Mr. and Mrs. Alexander M. Cochran of Heathsville, Virginia. These bereaved parents are determined to change the "injustice system," at least in Virginia, so that killers of innocent people get the punishment they truly deserve. Their son's killer will be eligible for parole nine short years after the murder occurred. For them, that's far too soon, especially considering the enormity of their loss. Their son, Alexander M. Cochran III (known by the family as "Sandy" and by his law enforcement and military colleagues as "Al"), was a Virginia State Trooper and a Member of the Second Air Lift Platoon of the Virginia National Guard. At 27, Sandy was an outstanding law enforcement officer, assigned to patrol- ling the Virginia section of the Washington, D.C. met- ropolitan area's Beltway superhighway. In the previous year, he ranked third in his division for drunk-driving arrests. In the six months before his death, he nabbed 42 intoxicated drivers. When the cases went to court, he lost only one, "and that was my fault," he told his father. Sandy was determined to improve his near-per- fect record: "That will never happen again!" As his twenty-eighth birthday on January 23, 1987 neared, Sandy was just about to reach some important goals. The son of a former Air Force jet pilot, Sandy wanted to fly a helicopter for the National Guard unit he'd been with for eight years. His ultimate goal was to fly Medivac for the Virginia State Police, having been an Emergency Medical Technician and Lieutenant in the Callao, Virginia Rescue Squad. He had been taking helicopter lessons in Manassas, Virginia, and soon he WE CALL IT THE INJUSTICE SYSTEM 65 would be undertaking his first solo flight. "I just knew that one day soon I'd pick up the phone and Sandy would be saying 'I did it! I soloed!" his father Mickey told me. Sandy was also scheduled to receive a promotion to the State Police TAC Team in just four days. But Sandy never got his promotion, and he never got to fly solo. And his dad never got that proud telephone call. Instead, Mickey Cochran says, "Here I was going along fat, dumb, and happy, and the doorbell rings." Mickey Cochran will never forget the night of Janu- ary 15, 1987. At 12:15 a.m., his wife said, "Somebody's at the door." They saw three state police cars in front of the house. Maybe it was her mother's instinct that told Kathar- ine Cochran what had happened before another word was spoken. "Sandy's been killed," she said. Her husband's hope held out a few seconds longer. "No, he's just been hurt or something." Sandy's fellow Troopers confirmed the Cochrans' worst fears. That morning, Sandy had been assigned to a special FBI anti-drug detail. His regular State Police shift would have started at 3:00 p.m., but his sergeant excused him from it. Sandy spent the afternoon running errands and shopping. He was unloading groceries from his car that evening when his sister Susanne called from Colorado. They chatted for a while, planning for Susanne's visit on the upcoming weekend. The sister and brother had always been close, sharing among other common inter- ests the family passion for animals. (Sandy had a 66 IN THE LINE OF DUTY menagerie in his townhouse-a 14-inch monitor lizard, toads, an iguana; Susanne raises big birds, including macaws.) They finished talking around 9:15 p.m., and one of Sandy's neighbors dropped in for a chat. The two men stood in Sandy's kitchen for a few minutes, talking, when they heard a loud BAM! BAM! BAM! "Those aren't firecrackers," Sandy said. Technically, Sandy was off-duty. But, as any law enforcement offi- cer will tell you, there's really no such thing as off-duty. When people need help, you react. Sandy responded without a second's hesitation. He started out the door, then ran back to get his service revolver. Running out into the townhouse develop- ment's shared parking lot and lawns, he saw a woman crouched over a man who had been shot. She was screaming, "Get an ambulance! Get an ambulance!" Sandy headed to his parked cruiser, apparently to call for help on his radio. The neighbor who had been talking to Sandy reports that at this moment he saw something out of the corner of his eye, a figure moving behind a second-floor window. Maybe Sandy saw it, too, because it seems he was just turning his head when the shot rang out. A single shotgun blast hit Sandy in the back and the head as he was passing in front of his police car. He died instantly at 9:24 p.m., only nine minutes after talking to his sister. Within three seconds, the shooter turned and fired again, fatally wounding Army Sergeant Dennis R. Kief, who lived in the townhouse complex. He also shot at an off-duty Fairfax County police officer, who was not hit. WE CALL IT THE INJUSTICE SYSTEM 67 By the time more police officers arrived on the scene, the shooter had created a scene of complete devastation in the usually peaceful neighborhood: Two men dead, one man seriously wounded. They quickly apprehended the suspect, a man named Larry Gill. Mickey Cochran says the pain of his son's slaying is compounded because there was absolutely no reason for it, no motive any normal person could relate to. Larry Gill was described by people who knew him as quiet, straight, a man who didn't drink or curse, a Bible-reading hunter who adored his wife. Unfortu- nately for Sandy Cochran and Sergeant Kief, Larry Gill's wife had decided to leave him that night. Her brother, Gregory B. Jividen, had come to help her move out. Larry Gill shot his brother-in-law first. Jividen lost a kidney because of his shotgun wound. Why did Larry Gill go on from there to kill two more men and attempt to kill another? The Cochrans will never understand it. But after the initial shock wore off, they expected at least that they would see justice done- capital murder charges, preferably the death penalty or at least three life sentences imposed on Larry Gill. Instead, Larry Gill got off easy. Charged with only two counts of first-degree murder, one attempted capital murder (for shooting at the off- duty Fairfax County police officer), and one count of malicious wounding, Gill was convicted on two counts of second-degree murder, one count of malicious wounding, and three counts of commission of a felony with a firearm. The attempted capital murder charge was thrown out. Gill received combined sentences of 55 years. Under 68 IN THE LINE OF DUTY Virginia law, that means that, with good behavior, he can be eligible for parole in 1996. Mickey Cochran has puzzled over the jury's decisions many times. "How the jury came up with Murder 2, I'll never know," he says. Out of their outrage and their anguish, the Cochrans decided to do something about a system that ignores the rights and interests of crime victims. They formed the Sandy Cochran Committee, a group committed to judi- cial change in Virginia. "We want to change the parole system, to make it follow the new Federal model established in November 1988-you get a 10-year sentence, you serve a 10-year sentence. And we want to change the laws governing truth in sentencing, so that juries are told exactly what happens in the system once the case leaves the court. Most jurors don't have any idea that a convicted crimi- nal can get 10 years today, yet be considered for parole in something under 30 months." Mickey Cochran also thinks it's outrageous that juries often have no knowledge of an offender's prior criminal record. "After guilt or innocence has been determined, juries should be given full information about prior record, a victim impact statement, and a clear explanation of parole eligibility date and good time release date. Without this information, there's no way a jury can impose a meaningful sentence!" Another important initiative for the Sandy Cochran Committee is its effort to establish life without parole as a sentencing option. Life without parole would allow juries that don't want to go for a death sentence to put criminals behind bars with no fear of their release. WE CALL IT THE INJUSTICE SYSTEM 69 The Sandy Cochran Committee has seen some suc- cesses. "Now we've gotten the life sentence up to 25 years before parole eligibility, which amounts to about 18 years before they're actually up for parole." The Cochrans want to see a balance that doesn't exist right now in America: "The criminal has all kinds of guaranteed rights and the victim has few." And, as co- chairs of a five-county Mothers Against Drunk Driving chapter, the Cochrans are also fighting to reform the laws governing drunk driving. Mickey has spoken before the Virginia State Crime Commission, the State Legislature, and various other bodies. Their efforts on behalf of crime victims have not gone unrecognized. They've been the subject of many newspaper articles, drawing much-needed attention to their causes. And in October 1987, President Reagan invited them to attend the unveiling of his Criminal Justice Reform Act. The Cochrans' work is very important to them, but they wish they'd never had to get involved with the criminal justice system-at least not because of the murder of their son. "We feel the system let us down, especially Sandy," Mickey says. That's particularly sad when you consider how ardently Sandy believed in that system, how he gave his life supporting it and protecting others. When you read what others had to say about Sandy after his death, you get an idea of the huge impact of his loss on his parents, sister, friends, and fellow Troopers and Guardsmen. The 1987 Yearbook of the 76th Combat Aviation Company of the Virginia National Guard is dedicated 70 IN THE LINE OF DUTY to Sandy and another Guardsman who died in a skiing accident. "Sgt. Cochran had been in the National Guard unit for eight years, and he was not only a topnotch crew chief, but you couldn't ask for a finer friend." His friends in the Guard thought so highly of Sandy that they flew to his parents' farm, landing six helicopters in a field next to Sandy's grave in the family plot. They brought the Cochrans a wonderful collage of pictures of Sandy in the Guard. Sgt. Ken Scott told the Cochrans and Sandy's fian- cee, Clare McNeal, "Al shared so much with all of us, and we wanted to give a little of that back to you." His Trooper friends have not forgotten Sandy or his parents. "The Christmas afternoon after Sandy's death, a State Police car pulled up. One of the local officers came in and spent awhile with us. I thought that was exceptionally nice," Mickey Cochran said. But though his memory has been honored by hun- dreds of friends and colleagues, Sandy's absence leaves a hole in the Cochrans' lives that will never be filled. "Sandy was a comic. He kept 'em all laughing. He was a tremendous mimic, the sparkplug of his shift," Mickey Cochran remembers. But clearly, the serious side was there, too, in his dedication to his fellow man, his community, and his country. Sandy Cochran's humanitarianism seems to have been a part of his character from an early age. His proud father tells a revealing, poignant story about his eight-year-old son: "One day my wife was out in the yard, and a neigh- bor lady came over and said 'I wanted to thank you for WE CALL IT THE INJUSTICE SYSTEM 71 telling Sandy to walk my son home from school every day. You know, my boy is little, and he wears glasses, and the other boys had been picking on him, but now that Sandy's walking with him, they leave him alone." But Sandy's mother had never told him to accom- pany the boy. The gesture came spontaneously from Sandy's heart, as if he were imbued with a natural instinct for great and giving gestures, an instinct that would lead him to heroic service and an untimely, heroic death. THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS A ROUTINE TRAFFIC STOP Despite the action-packed image of law enforcement work most Americans glean from television and mov- ies, there are many slow hours for most officers, hours spent carrying out ordinary, seemingly hazard-free duties - - duties you might consider routine. But when you're in law enforcement, there's no such thing as a routine task, because any situation can esca- late instantly into violence. New York City Police Detective Richard Pastorella says he gets annoyed when he hears the phrase "routine traffic stop." "There's nothing routine in law enforce- ment. Each call is different. You are always on the line." Even far beyond America's drug-ridden inner cities, danger awaits every officer on every shift. Take Robert Banker, for example, a Conservation Officer with the Department of Fish and Wildlife in Christian County, Kentucky. Most people would never think of Bob Bank- er's job as dangerous. But while their primary duties involve enforcing fish and game laws, Kentucky Con- servation Officers also have full police powers. They often work alone and routinely come into contact with citizens legally and openly carrying firearms, raising the potential of violence in any encounter. Bob Banker knew the risks involved in the work he loved, but he probably wasn't thinking about them that day in March 1987 as he checked the licenses of fisher- men at Lake Lacy in southwestern Kentucky. Probably, as he went about his duties, he was enjoying the open air, the beauties of the natural environment he cherished 72 NO SUCH THING AS A ROUTINE TRAFFIC STOP 73 - that is, until he encountered Eric Burns. Officer Banker quickly learned that Burns was fish- ing without a license. Despite Burns' apparent attempt to bribe him, Bob Banker wrote Burns a citation, fining him $62.50. Officer Banker then started walking away. He got no more than 20 to 25 feet from Burns when the fisherman picked up a rifle and shot him in the back. Dennis Hightower was checking his cattle in an adjoining field when he witnessed the incident. He screamed to try to distract the man with the rifle. He succeeded, putting himself in danger. Eric Burns turned the gun on Hightower. Fortunately, Hightower was only slightly injured by one bullet that grazed his right arm. For Bob Banker, however, Eric Burns' shots were instantly fatal. "I could have understood this happening during deer-hunting season, but this just didn't make sense," says Officer Banker's widow, Pamela. Losing Bob has been a devastating blow to the Banker family-not only to Pam and the couple's children, Robert Edward and Melissa, but to Bob's mother. "My mother-in-law has mentioned more than once that the emptiness just won't go away. As for me, well, after the trial ended, I really felt good - like I could go on. But I'm having trouble doing it," Pam Banker says. After a lengthy but successful effort to prove Eric Burns competent to stand trial, Officer Banker's killer was convicted on several charges, and received sentences that may permit his release in 22 years, at age 53. "Now they're fixing to go through the appeal process and I'm so scared: Is it never over?" Pam Banker is struggling to create a normal life for herself and her 74 IN THE LINE OF DUTY children once again. But she is finding it very difficult. "Everything's on my shoulders-raising the kids by myself-and the loneliness Robbie helps out a lot but there's only so much a 12-year-old can do, and I don't want to put too much on his shoulders." Conservation Officer Robert Banker was one of far too many law enforcement officers who step into a seemingly routine situation, only to meet their deaths. Robert Elliott was another. A Miami County, Ohio Sheriff's Deputy, Bobby Elliott was universally liked. "People called him the Pillsbury Doughboy," says his widow, Tammie. "He was a very good-natured person and he laughed a lot. My attorney even told me he thought Bobby was too nice a guy to be a cop." Tammie disagrees, though Bobby's kind-heartedness might have contributed to his death. On February 25, 1987, Bobby was guarding a prisoner who had AIDS at Stouder Memorial Hospital in Troy, Ohio. No one really knows what happened, but it appears that the prisoner may have asked Bobby to unshackle him so he could take a shower, and that Bobby-compassionate as ever-may have gone to get the prisoner a towel. Whatever the sequence of the events, Bobby and the prisoner struggled; the room was completely turned upside-down after the incident. Somehow, the prisoner wrestled Bobby's gun away and shot him. The bullet severed two main arteries in Bobby's liver and lodged in his right kidney. He died six hours later in surgery at Miami Valley Hospital in Dayton, Ohio. He was 36 years old. Bobby's death even shook some of the inmates at the NO SUCH THING AS A ROUTINE TRAFFIC STOP 75 jail where he worked. A group of them sent Tammie a letter, telling her how much they admired Bobby for treating prisoners like human beings. "They went out of their way to tell me, 'We're not all like the jerk who killed your husband." Bobby is sorely missed by his wife and children, Rhea, 13 months old at the time of her dad's death, Nathan, who was 3½, and Gloria, Bobby's daughter from a previous marriage, who was 11. He was a hard- working, unassuming, kind man who worked side jobs to give his family a few extras. A skilled carpenter, he made and sold wooden swing sets. Together, he and Tammie restored an old frame house he bought for $50. Robert Banker and Robert Elliott were the kind of law enforcement officers America is richly blessed with: Dedicated family men who wanted nothing more than to build a good life for their families and serve their communities through law enforcement work. They knew they were risking their dreams when they were sworn in as officers of the law. They knew a quiet afternoon they might even find a little boring could erupt in bloodshed at any moment. But they were will- ing to take the risks-risks most of us wouldn't dream of accepting. For their special commitment and their special sacri- fice, we owe them a debt of gratitude-a debt we can repay by building the National Law Enforcement Offi- cers Memorial in permanent tribute to them. this Sheriff's Deputy Donna Marie Miller Hillsborough County, Florida Sheriff's Department NOBODY'S FAULT, EVERYBODY'S DUTY Is an officer less of a hero when he or she dies in a line-of-duty accident? Vivian Eney and hundreds of other survivors say "no": "Much of society will place the term 'hero' on an officer who dies in a shootout or a drug bust. But those who die accidentally don't get that honor. There are no 76 NOBODY'S FAULT, EVERYBODY'S DUTY 77 citations, no plaques. Their death is an embarrassment to the police department." Vivian Eney knows first-hand about the aftermath of accidental line-of-duty deaths. Her husband, Sergeant Chris Eney of the U.S. Capitol Police, was accidentally killed by a fellow officer during SWAT training with an anti-terrorist unit he helped form. "It was nobody's fault," Vivian says. But she does fault the police department's handling of the events that followed. Chris's name was released to radio stations before Vivian was notified. Most of the family found out about his death from news broadcasts; fortunately, Vivian did not. When she arrived at the hospital, Vivian remembers, there were no officials to help her. And in the months following, she had to battle to get the benefits due her and her daughters. It took almost a year to get worker's compensation! Vivian's struggle was reported in an arti- cle in The Washington Post, which officers pinned up at police headquarters with a note: "We put our lives on the line every day, and our families are treated like this!" It doesn't seem right, and yet the survivors of acci- dental line-of-duty deaths often receive this kind of treatment. They learn that the benefits immediately given to the family of an officer who is killed feloni- ously are not necessarily coming to them. It's a lesson Deputy Sheriff Donna Miller's family learned the hardest way possible. Deputy Miller and her partner, Deputy Fred Clark, were responding to a call. They were in a hurry: A fellow officer had reported he was under fire at a shoot- 78 IN THE LINE OF DUTY ing scene. Travelling at high speed, their car hit a patch of sand on the highway that acted just like ice. The car spun out of control and crashed. Deputy Sheriff Miller, 26, died the next day. Donna Miller's dad has 30 years under his belt as a Sheriff's deputy. But it wasn't until their daughter's death that the Millers learned a frightening fact: "Because of a clause in the department's insurance policy, you're not covered if you die in an accident," says Donna's mother, Connie. "Donna was killed in the line of duty but not killed by a bullet, knife, or fists. So the family didn't get a penny. And that's how we learned that if my husband had died in an accident at any time in the last 33 years, he would have left me and our five children penniless!" Donna Miller's family isn't bitter. In fact, her brother Tony became a Sheriff's Deputy in the year following her death, and Donna's dad is in no hurry to retire. "When you're a police officer, you hang in there until you can't do anything more," says Connie Miller. But their daughter's death has been a stunning blow to this law enforcement family. "I lost my best friend," Connie says. "We did every- thing together. We played on a softball team. I coached her in cheerleading. She was such a happy-go-lucky person-she loved to fish, ride on the motorcycle with her dad, water-ski." Yet Donna had a serious side, too. "She always wanted to be in law enforcement, ever since she was a little girl. When she was in her teens, she worked at the Sheriff's Department a couple of hours every day, and NOBODY'S FAULT, EVERYBODY'S DUTY 79 received the highest law enforcement award you can get as a high school student." Donna, who had served as a deputy for eight years, worked in undercover narcotics for two full years. She had just transferred into the Department's Selective Enforcement Unit when the accident occurred. Accidental deaths like Donna Miller's and Chris Eney's account for approximately half of all line-of- duty deaths each year. Some accidents are unavoidable, but FBI Agent Nancy O'Dowd warns her fellow law enforcement officers not to fall into the trap of believ- ing they are invulnerable. Her husband Jay, also an FBI Agent, died in an automobile accident in September 1987. They were stationed in the New York City area at the time. "It was the only day in our entire marriage when we hadn't touched base," she remembers. "Jay had gone to Firearms in upstate New York. When he left that morn- ing, he told the babysitter he would be home no later than 11:00 that evening. But 11:00 came and went. He wasn't home." Jay had a 60-mile drive to make at the end of a long day of firearms practice. Just three miles from home on a rainy, foggy evening, he fell asleep at the wheel. The car ran off the road and hit a telephone pole. Jay's head hit the steering wheel, taking the full force of the impact. Nancy, who was two months pregnant with the couple's second child, reached the hospital as the priest was giving Jay last rites. "But because he was in such good physical condition, he lived five days," Nancy says. "Those were the worst five days of my life." 80 IN THE LINE OF DUTY Nancy says the Bureau was behind her 100%. But the fact that she and Jay had never discussed the eventuality of either's death left her uncertain at a time when many decisions had to be made. "I didn't know what he wanted in terms of a funeral. We'd never thought about it. 'Death? Wills? Who, us?" Remembering a discussion they'd had about the baptism of their first child, Nancy decided Jay would want a Catholic funeral service. In the two days before the funeral, Nancy experi- enced a strange, dislocated sensation. "A thousand peo- ple filed in and out, and the last time I had seen many of them was in the receiving line at our wedding. I kept thinking, 'Why-is Jay up there in a casket instead of here enjoying himself and greeting his guests?" When Nancy looks back on her husband's death, she finds many lessons for other law enforcement officers. "In Agent's Training, you're given three things: a badge, a gun, and a Bureau car. Sometimes these three things make you think you're invincible. Jay may have thought he was. He was proficient in firearms, very good at what he did. I think he lost sight of the fact that he was a mortal person." Nancy urges law enforcement personnel to prepare for tragic possibilities now. "I can't emphasize enough how important it is to discuss and think about these things. Life insurance- Jay had very little, I had none. I had difficulty recover- ing his because he was in the vesting period on his policy. Because I was pregnant and had previously had a Cesarean section, I couldn't get life insurance. I finally got some, but not enough. NOBODY'S FAULT, EVERYBODY'S DUTY 81 "Talk about how you'd like your funeral. Talk about a will. Please take care of it. Your spouse will be left in the lurch without this information, and if, God forbid, something should happen, you will be better off know- ing what your spouse wants." Vivian Eney, Connie Miller, and Nancy O'Dowd all support the building of the National Law Enforce- ment Officers Memorial, and want to see their loved ones commemorated there. Though Chris, Donna, and Jay weren't killed by criminals, they were carrying out their law enforcement duties when they died, duties that put them in the vulnerable situations that caused their death. "It's not how they died that's important, it's how they lived," says Vivian. "My husband was a hero. He proved that by the hazards of the job he undertook. It's their willingness to walk out of the Police Academy and strap on that gun that makes them heroes." Their deaths were nobody's fault. But recognition of their sacrifices is everybody's duty. VISION OF THE HEART Detective Richard Pastorella is blind. He has lost 70% of his hearing. Only portions of fingers remain on his right hand. For Richard, it wasn't always this way. On December 31, 1982, as a member of the New York City Police Department's Bomb Squad, he was trying to safeguard a bomb planted by a Puerto Rican terrorist organiza- tion. The bomb exploded in his face. Detective Pastorella underwent 13 operations to restore his face. "They did it very, very well. I wasn't really permanently disfigured. This gave me the confi- dence to stand before people and speak, to talk about the plight of police officers." Today, Richard spends a great deal of time doing exactly that. He cautions his law enforcement brothers and sisters to be careful, to protect themselves. And when they are injured, he musters all the resources of the Police Self-Support Group he founded in 1983, both for the injured officer and for the family. The Group helps law enforcement officers find a new role for themselves after severe injury. "Most disabled or injured officers were sitting at home with nothing to do before the Police Self-Support Group was founded," says Pastorella. "They were an untapped resource. They still had all this experience, training, and altruism we couldn't put to use any more. "I showed them they could help their brother and sister officers by giving them moral support and teach- ing them to take care of themselves. And I think we challenge them. It's as if we're saying, 'If we can man- 82 VISION OF THE HEART 83 age in this condition, what about you as a whole hu- man being?" The Police Self-Support Group can often break through the despondency that frequently follows disabl- ing injury. "Since our organization was founded, three people who attempted suicide are now alive. Without the Group they'd be dead today. Six more who wouldn't have otherwise returned to work have done so. And four are returning to college, so they'll be productive members of society again." He spoke of a fellow New York Police Department officer who was rendered a quadriplegic by a blast from a teenager's gun. "Steve McDonald said on a CBS news segment that if it wasn't for Richard Pastorella and his organization, he wouldn't have had the will to live," Richard says. "Now Steve's not just living. He's helping other police officers too." Though Steve McDonald can only move his neck and head, he and his wife Patti Ann are setting an example for the world to see. By appearing on televi- sion and radio shows, speaking at meetings and cere- monies, and writing a book (The Steven McDonald Story, co-authored with E.J. Kahn III and published by Donald J. Fine, Inc.), they are sending a message that even the most traumatic injury can be met with love, hope, and faith. Steve's forgiveness of his assailant seems almost super-human to many people. In a, remarkable state- ment to the press on March 1, 1987, Steven's compas- sion and courage stunned his listeners. At that time, Steven was not able to speak because of his tracheotomy tube, so Patti Ann, fighting back tears, read Steve's 84 IN THE LINE OF DUTY statement as the respirator keeping her husband alive made its characteristic noise in the background: "On some days when I am not feeling very well, I can get angry. But I have realized that anger is a wasted emotion, that I have to remember why I became a police officer. I'm sometimes angry at the teenage boy who shot me. But more often I feel sorry for him. I only hope that he can turn his life to helping and not hurting people. I forgive him and hope that he can find peace and purpose in his life "I ask you to remember this. I chose the life of a police officer with all its risks. I believe that I am the luckiest man on the face of this earth. I only ask you to remember the less lucky, the less fortunate than I am who struggle for the dignity of life, without the atten- tion and without the helping hands that have given me this life. God bless you all." Steven's positive attitude in the face of his disabling injury has inspired many. Dewey Stokes of the Fraternal Order of Police believes that Steven and officers like him deserve more of our grateful recognition in return. "These guys are the forgotten heroes. Had they died, they would have gotten a big funeral, a big check from the Federal Government and maybe the state govern- ment, and a lot of public attention. But since they didn't die, they get nothing." Officer Stokes says there will be more and more officers serving a "life sentence" of severe disability. "We lost 161 officers in 1988. If it weren't for bullet- resistant vests, trauma units, and the good doctors and nurses, we would have lost a lot more. But many of VISION OF THE HEART 85 those who are saved are committed to a life within a home, a bed, a wheelchair." Richard Pastorella is determined to help those offi- cers regain a meaningful role in police work. "My name, Pastorella, means 'little shepherd,' and I believe I ama shepherd. I have been asked to bring back these police officers who strayed from the flock, those who still say, 'How could God do this to me?" Despite his unfailingly upbeat attitude, Detective Pas- torella has also known despair. "After the explosion, I was bitter, because I didn't understand how God could do this to me. I led a good life, I helped my fellow man, I worshipped every week. I did what I was supposed to do. And look what happened to me. I was an avid reader, and now I couldn't see. I loved music, and now I couldn't hear. I enjoyed sculpting-and now I couldn't hold a hammer in my right hand. "Before, I guess I'd gotten jaded. You put up walls because you have to. You see people's problems day in and day out, and you build up a facade to protect yourself. But in that explosion, my facade was literally stripped away, and that changed my life totally." Richard Pastorella has chosen to embrace his new life whole-heartedly. "I like to think I'm a better person than before, because I was able to take my handicaps and use them to my advantage. I can't see with my eyes, but I can see with my heart a lot better." Now pursuing a graduate degree in psychology, Detective Richard Pastorella is a happy man. "I'm now doing what I should have been doing all along, only I needed a nudge. I wouldn't trade my life today for my life before. I feel good, I'm being productive, I'm help- 86 IN THE LINE OF DUTY ing my fellow man-and that's what I was put here to do. We are our brother's keeper!" Detective Pastorella shares that guiding principle with thousands of other brave men and women who put their well-being at risk every day for the rest of us-an idea of service demonstrated most honorably by one of his "brothers in blue," a young man named Kenneth Wrede. Officer Kenneth Wrede West Covina, California Police Depariment "WAY TO GO, MOM AND DAD!" Kenneth Scott Wrede, a West Covina, California police officer, ran head-on into the diabolical power of drugs in August 1983. While he was writing a traffic ticket, a woman stopped to tell him of a man acting suspiciously nearby. Ever the dutiful policeman, Kenneth Wrede, 26, an officer for three years, went to investigate. 87 88 IN THE LINE OF DUTY There he found Michael Anthony Jackson, stagger- ing down the street, walking into bushes. Obviously, all was not right with this man. Kenneth Wrede walked up to him and started asking questions. The man ignored him, brushed him off. To get Jackson's attention, Wrede tapped him lightly on the back of the legs with his baton. From that point, it seems, Jackson went into a rage, displaying an anger bolstered by the notorious drug called PCP. He ripped a support stake away from a tree and started swinging it at Officer Wrede. He tore Wrede's badge from his shirt. He kicked at him and hit him. Ken Wrede retreated to his patrol car to call for help from any law enforcement officer in the vicinity. During the confrontation, Kenneth Wrede tried to talk Jackson out of his fury. "Kenny was always the peacemaker," his mother Marianne says. "Kenny used restraint when he tried to apprehend Jackson, and that restraint cost him his life." As the altercation continued, Officer Wrede called for help again. But help didn't arrive until after Jackson had reached into the patrol car, ripped the officer's shotgun from its mount - a feat requiring almost super- human strength-and fired one fatal blast into Ken Wrede's face, right under his eye. It took several officers, one of them a close friend of Ken Wrede's, and a police dog to subdue Ken's killer. On the way to the police station, Jackson bragged about killing a police officer, though in court he later claimed he had been SO "wacked out" on PCP that he didn't remember anything that had happened that day. Jackson's defense was based on the idea that, because WAY TO GO, MOM AND DAD 89 he was intoxicated with PCP, he didn't know what he was doing, and was therefore innocent. Fortunately, says Marianne Wrede, the jury saw right through it. Jackson was convicted of Kenny's murder and sen- tenced to die in the gas chamber. Said Prosecutor John Ouderkirk: "The moral to the story is that you can't get high on illegal and dangerous drugs, run around and commit violent crimes and then say 'It wasn't my fault." Ken Wrede's parents, Kenneth and Marianne, find some comfort in the fact that Jackson received the death sentence. And, unlike many survivors, they found court officials sensitive to their concerns and supportive in the fight to bring Jackson to justice. But any other comfort is hard to find. "He was just a super kid," says Marianne of her son. Many in the West Covina community echoed her opin- ion. Marianne and Ken received a special letter after Ken's death. "This lady wanted to tell me how great Kenny had been with her little girl," recounts Marianne. "Kenny was just passing by right after the child's cat had been run over and killed. He stopped to comfort the little girl." Kenny was SO good with kids, in fact, that he was assigned to the difficult and delicate task of interview- ing sexually abused children. To honor Kenny, a grateful community designated a new street "Wrede Way." Spacious, handsome new homes are being built there-"a fitting tribute to our son," the Wredes say. Kenny's colleagues on the West Covina Police Department haven't forgotten him, either. Chief of 90 IN THE LINE OF DUTY Police Craig Meacham has done much to support the Wrede family: "As far as I'm concerned," Marianne Wrede says, "that man walks on water." Kenny's close friends on the force carry something of Kenny's with them all the time. One officer told Marianne that remembering Kenny's fate may have saved his life: "The officer was involved in an incident where the suspect pointed a gun at him. Kenny's story flashed through his mind, and the officer pulled the trigger. He told me, 'I don't know if I would have done it if it weren't for Kenny." Like all fallen law enforcement officers, Ken Wrede's death leaves a painful void in the lives of his co-workers and many in the community he served. But his family feels the most painful void of all. Kenny left a wife, his parents, and three sisters. Since his death, his wife, Denel, went through her own per- sonal nightmare, and she says she will never forget Kenny. She has re-married and had a child, re-building her life in a way that's not possible for Kenny's parents. Ken Wrede was close to both parents, not ashamed of showing lavish affection to those he loved. His father remembers Kenny taking him on ride-alongs in his police cruiser; Kenny would kiss him on the cheek when he brought him back to the station, saying "See ya later, pop." Marianne remembers that Kenny wouldn't take her on the ride-alongs. "Mom, how does it look if I have my mother with me? 'Hey guys, I'm bringing my mommy with me in my squad car." For Marianne, the strain of losing Kenny threatened her health, severely aggravating a back problem which WAY TO GO, MOM AND DAD 91 forced her to leave her job as an elementary school librarian. Her husband took a year off of work. Kenny's three sisters have suffered greatly, too, and all the family members have sought help through psychological counselling. But perhaps the best antidote to despair for the Wredes is their involvement in Concerns of Police Survi- vors (COPS). Marianne was elected President of the newly established California chapter. "We're constantly writing letters and making phone calls, trying to help other survivors we hear about," she says. "And we're very involved in victims' rights groups. We worked hard to keep California supreme court justices who were anti-death penalty from being confirmed." Ken and Marianne Wrede could never have dreamed they'd be so involved in so many causes. "We'll be somewhere-at a reception or a meeting-and one of us will look at the other and say, 'Here's another situation your son has gotten us into!" They wouldn't have chosen this work, but it has helped them in the healing process. "It's a way of turning something negative into something positive," Marianne Wrede says. And it helps to know that Kenny would have wanted them to choose this path: "I know if Kenny could, he'd tell us, 'Way to go, Mom and Dad!" OF WEEPING ADULTS, WHO WEAR BADGES What goes through the mind of a police officer's son or daughter when Dad leaves the house for his shift? In this column, reprinted with permission from Tribune Media Services, columnist Bob Greene brings us close to the heart of a Chicago officer's daughter. Her poem echoes sentiments that are doubtless shared by thou- sands of young people across the country. Cops cry. Years of watching movies and television shows featur- ing actors portraying unemotional, hardened police officers have managed to convince the public otherwise. But cops cry. Just last weekend, off-duty Chicago police officer John Matthews was brutally beaten to death, allegedly by five men who had been holding an outdoor "beer party" that Matthews and other officers had earlier broken up. He was attacked so savagely that it took nearly seven hours to identify his body. Police officers sometimes die in the line of duty; they know that when they apply for the job. On September 22, 1986, Jay Brunkella, a tactical officer in Rogers Park District, was killed during a drug arrest. I was thinking about Officer Brunkella's death when I heard about this latest killing of an officer-I was thinking about it because I know what happened in the aftermath of Officer Brunkella's death. It says a lot about what goes on inside of all police officers, and inside the members of their families. Shortly after Officer Brunkella's death, one of his 92 OF WEEPING ADULTS, WHO WEAR BADGES 93 fellow members of the Rogers Park District tactical unit-Officer Ken Knapcik-returned home after his shift to find a note addressed to him on the dining room table. "Dad- "This poem came directly from my heart. "I love you SO much it scares and amazes me that you go out every day and risk everything to provide us with all that we have. "I didn't write this poem to scare you or Mom, I just wrote to express how lost I'd be without you! "I love you Dad!" It was signed by his 15-year-old daughter, Laura. Laura added a P.S.: "Hey be careful out there." With the note was a poem Laura Knapcik had written. Titled "The Ultimate Cop," it was dedicated "To all cops in the world who have daughters who love them with all their hearts. And especially my Dad." It reads as follows: He picked me up from school, his excitement he didn't hold back. He shared with me his enthusiasm of our cities' power attack. Tonight there will be a drug bust somewhere in an empty lot. My dad would bust the dealer and become the ultimate cop. 94 IN THE LINE OF DUTY He dropped me off at home, he kissed me and held me tight. As he drove off, he said, "Say a prayer for me tonight." At home I went on as usual, waiting to hear from Dad, hoping he made the bust, hoping he nailed them bad. At 10 I watched the news, anxious to hear the outcome. When a newsman read his news I felt my heart turn numb. The stern-looking newsman announced in a voice like thunder. As my eyes filled with tears, I said to myself, "Oh why couldn't Dad be a plumber!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, filled with sadness and rage. I realized then that being a cop was more than an act on a stage. Mom awoke with the sound of my screams, running in fear to me. Before she could ask, she saw Dad's body lying dead on the ground. OF WEEPING ADULTS, WHO WEAR BADGES 95 She fell down on the couch and grasped for a breath. She just couldn't cry- she was scared to death. I was running like crazy, throwing things all around until my mother got up and tackled me down. I couldn't stop shaking, I was nervous and so scared, I yearned for my Daddy, and on that thought I blared: "Oh Daddy, dear Daddy, where are you now? I feel so scared and lonely. Please show me how to have faith in God and in your will to live. Show me a sign that your life you'll not give. Daddy, my Daddy, can you hear me cry? Oh God, I need my Daddy, Please don't let him die!!!" That night Ken Knapcik stood alone in his house as he read his daughter's note and her poem. He is 40 years 96 IN THE LINE OF DUTY old, a 20-year veteran of the Chicago Police Depart- ment. "I started to read it," he said the other day. "I took several minutes. I would get through a part of it, and then I would have to stop and wait awhile before I could go on. I was weeping. "She had never told me that she was scared for me. She had told me she was proud of me-but she never told me she was scared. I have three daughters, and I don't recall any of them ever telling me that they were scared. "I took the poem to work with me the next day and showed it to my fellow officers. I've never seen so many grown men weep. Some couldn't even finish it." Laura Knapcik told me, "I never told my dad how scared I was, because I didn't want him to feel guilty for being a policeman. One night when I was about 11, I had a dream that he had been killed. He was working midnights when I had that dream, so I got into bed with my Mom. I was still crying; she asked me what was the matter. I told her. She said, 'It is scary.' She said that she gets scared too." Laura said that ever since she and her sisters were small, her dad had told them that he wished he could carry them around with him. She used to laugh at that, thinking her dad was joking-the image of him carry- ing the family with him seemed sort of funny to her. "Then when I was a little older, he and I were having an argument," Laura said. "He said, 'Don't you under- stand that I'm serious? I wish I could carry you and your sisters and your Mom with me every moment. I wish I could have you with me all the time, so I could OF WEEPING ADULTS, WHO WEAR BADGES 97 always be there to protect you." That night it was Laura who cried. So, now another Chicago police officer is dead, and this seems like the proper time to tell you the story about Officer Knapcik and his daughter's poem. The poem, by the way, is not framed in the Knapcik's house, and it is not taped onto a page in a scrapbook. It is in the pocket of Officer Knapcik's police jacket. He carries it with him every time he leaves the house for a new shift. "I don't want to be out there without it," he said. "I'll probably carry it with me forever." Detective John Davis Phoenix, Arizona Police Department "BIG JOHN": A SON REMEMBERS "That was the heartbreaker-that Dad survived for a while, then died. He was up and walking. I helped him walk. The next thing you know, he's got this bacterial infection that causes him to lose his life." Rick Davis is talking about his father, "Big John" Davis, a Phoenix, Arizona police detective who died on August 6, 1982, a little over a month after he was shot 98 BIG JOHN: A SON REMEMBERS 99 attempting to apprehend a bank robbery suspect. The suspect also shot Phoenix Officer Ignacio Conchos, who died almost instantly. Detective Davis had bullet wounds in the thigh and the abdomen. He was doing fine after the first surgery. "Folks were saying to Dad, 'We'll see you in a couple of weeks.' They'd tell him they were going to buy him a beer when he got out of the hospital." But doctors needed to operate again. And after the second operation, John Davis began to show signs of a bacterial infection. "He knew after the second surgery that he wasn't going to make it," Rick Davis says. "He would shake his head and wave his hands, because he knew." Detective Davis's wife, Arlean, and the couple's two sons, John Davis, Jr., then 22, and Rick, then 20, buried the 12-year veteran officer on August 12. Thou- sands of people along the funeral procession route paid their respects to John Davis, says Rick: "I knew that he was well-known-to see all the people lined up on the side of the streets. Even the street people were taking off their hats. People were praying. It made me feel good to know how many people understood what we had been through." Rick, a college student on a basketball scholarship at Oklahoma Baptist University, had to return to school less than a week after his father's death. It was tough, but Rick worried that it would be even tougher for his mother, brother, and 3-year-old nephew, who had to stay in Phoenix with the ever-present memories of their husband, father, and grandfather. "When I got back to Oklahoma, nobody knew about 100 IN THE LINE OF DUTY my dad's death. They'd ask me, 'How was your sum- mer? Did you have a good time out there in the sun?' And I'd have to explain the whole thing." It was a terrible year for Rick Davis. "I flew home three times before Christmas to check up on Mom. I wanted to go back to my family, but I was on a basket- ball scholarship. I had to stay. I couldn't afford to pay my way through college." People had said Rick Davis was going to be a big star. But that season, he averaged only 10 points a game. Before his father's death, 30 to 40 points per game was routine for him. "Dad's death blew away a lot of stuff. Nothing really helped," he said. "By the end of the season, I was the last one on the bench, watching. It really hurt me. I kept worrying about whether I should have stayed home." Somehow, Rick managed to keep his grades up. The next year, he transferred to Grand Canyon College in Phoenix. "John Shumate gave me a scholarship there. He was one of the first coaches to win over 20 games in his first year. I did really well that year. It made me real happy to be able to play in front of my mother." Rick graduated from college in 1985 and got a job in TV, "thanks to the Phoenix Police Department. I took a course that required my interviewing people in the communications field, so I went to the Media Relations person at the Police Department, Brad Thiss, who had known Dad." Thiss took Rick around to the local TV stations. KTSP-TV offered him a job as a part-time editor. Today he is a photographer for the CBS affiliate. When I talked to Rick Davis, he was groggy, having been up till 4:00 a.m. the night before, covering a police BIG JOHN: A SON REMEMBERS 101 shooting. "Being a photographer puts me real close to Dad's work," Rick says. "I see a lot of violence." Rick had even applied to be a police officer in 1985. Though his father's old police friends encouraged him, his mother "was not too thrilled about it." Rick decided to stay with the television station. Rick Davis still misses the father who meant so much to him. "He did a lot for us. He taught me to play basketball, and that helped me get a college education. He taught me and my brother how to deal with things. "One time, he told me to go get something at the store. I went to get in the car, and the spark plugs were missing. He'd taken them out so I could learn about taking care of cars. I went back to him and said, 'I need some money. For some reason my spark plugs are missing.' Dad gave me the money, then watched me fix the car." For a long time after his father's death, Rick suffered flashbacks every time he saw a police officer. "One time in the gym at college, there were a couple of cops. I stood and stared at one of the guys. A girl came by and asked me why I was staring. I said, 'He's wearing a bulletproof vest." Rick explains that his father, a plainclothes detective, rarely wore a protective vest. "A lot of the older guys didn't," he says, "it almost seemed like a seniority kind of thing." Seven years after John's death, Rick still seems to wrestle with the fact that John Davis might have survived, had he been wearing the vest. Not long ago, Rick went with a news crew to cover yet another police shooting. The officer, Johnny Chavez, had been shot in the heart-but, unlike John 102 IN THE LINE OF DUTY Davis, Chavez was wearing a bullet-proof vest. "Man, I was nervous. I was SO glad to see he wasn't killed. I shook his hand." Rick Davis doesn't identify himself as the son of a slain police officer when he's with police officers as a photographer at the scene of a crime. "For me to try to identify myself that way would change their attitude toward me as a photographer completely. But I like to be there. I like to help them out in any way I can." Big John Davis would be proud of this son who had to finish growing up without him. WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME? Every day, law enforcement officers deal with life and death. It's part of the job, and it's why the job's so difficult. This book includes many stories of officers who died in violent confrontations with criminals. But death and injury are not the only traumatic outcomes of such altercations. The following account, written by a veteran officer of a federal law enforcement agency, describes what can happen to an officer who must kill to protect himself or others. It is a moving example of the extraordinary stress peace officers must come to terms with. The question always was, "Why did this have to happen to me?" And I guess I will explain that question a little later. The newspaper headline was titled "Federal Agent in Fatal Shootout." The United Press International carried it. It said, "a federal agent shot and killed a man in a downtown gunfight on Friday. Local police have identified the agent but were unable to say who the dead man was, because he was carrying three different identifications. Well, I was the federal agent the newspaper described, and I remember the incident as though it were yesterday. I remember seeing the gun emerge from behind the guy's back in his left hand, I entered the dream world of a slow-motion movie. This guy, who only moments before had been standing a few feet from me, was suddenly an actor in a frame-by-frame B movie edged with a kind of soft, fuzzy fog. I could only see 103 104 IN THE LINE OF DUTY that gun and his big, brown, watery eyes that seemed to be laughing at me and saying, "I've got you now!" "I ain't goin' nowhere with you," he was saying in that deep, slow voice of a reduced-speed audio tape. I knew the gun had to be a toy as the frames slowly clicked by and the gun began to level off at my chest. It just had to be a toy. There was just no way that some- body would shoot me-a federal agent. "Drop it!" I tried to scream at him, but my mouth wouldn't work. The frames kept clicking silently by in this dream world with no sound. "I can't take a chance," I said to myself. "If he points it at me, I've got to shoot." Suddenly my service revolver was in my hand and I felt myself moving in slow motion to my right as I tried to get to the outside of his gun hand. "Was that a puff of smoke from his gun barrel," I thought, "or part of the fog in my movie? Okay, what's in your field of fire? What's behind him? Okay, it's a brick wall. Nothing on the left. Nothing on the right. Calm down. Take a breath." In my mind, I painted a rectangular target outline on his chest. "Just like at the range," I thought. I took one last look into his eyes as I felt his slug pass by my left hip and fired twice. I could see his expression change as I watched my first round impact on his chest. "I guess you've got me," his eyes said, and I literally saw into his soul as his eyes rolled back, and he was knocked off his feet. Though he was on the ground, the target outline was still suspended in midair, and I had to shake my head to make it disappear. WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME? 105 "Oh my God, what have I done?" I thought, as the wave of nausea swept over me, and I began to vomit on the sidewalk at his feet. My movie was suddenly real time, and I could hear all of the running and screaming by those who had witnessed this terrible thing. It was strange because my ears weren't even ringing. I leaned down, moved his gun away from his head where it lay, rolled him over on his back, and heard one last, noisy exhalation. There was no carotid pulse to be felt. "Finally over," I thought, and I started to cry. I vomited my way into a store and called the boss. I was sobbing so hard that I had to tell him three times before he understood what I had done. When I came back out, I breathed a deep sigh of relief that his gun was still there. I was sure somebody would have taken it. I knew the manual said to handcuff him, but it just didn't seem right. It would look as though an execution had taken place here. Suddenly, I realized that the wall I had seen behind him was really a floor-to-ceiling win- dow with the curtains drawn. I wasn't sure where my second round had gone and frantically searched that window for a bullet hole. I asked bystanders if anyone else was hurt and was assured that only the bad guy had been hit. Later, I learned that my second shot hit him in his left side as he was pivoted by my first round. I begged them not to leave so the police would have witnesses to verify my story. The next few hours were a blur of time. I was numb and frightened. The local police were great. They got me out of there before the news crews could photograph me and bought me some of my favorite cigars. We drove around the city for the next couple of hours while 106 IN THE LINE OF DUTY the two police officers tried to console me. Finally, the radio crackled, "We're ready for him." Homicide Division did an excellent job of protecting me from the press and well-wishing officers. My boss was already there, and I could tell he wasn't real happy. An hour later, my taped statement was finished, and I walked back to my office to dictate my personal state- ment to be submitted with the inspection report to headquarters. The next two weeks were a numbing blur of events as I told my story over and over to the inspectors from headquarters and anyone else who wanted to hear the gory details. I just could not be consoled in my guilt over taking a human life. Some of the comments people made were well-intentioned, but unbelievably insensi- tive. The inspectors chastised me for being so emotional during my taped statement to the police. Congratula- tory remarks seemed especially inappropriate to me. Then there was the white police officer who congratu- lated me for "bagging my career nigger." His remark certainly did not reflect my feelings. So many of the people seemed to be living vicariously through my expe- rience. They were sucking me dry and giving nothing in return. They wanted to hear everything of the excite- ment but nothing of my emotional trauma. I got a brief emotional respite four days after the shooting when the county prosecutor advised the press that I "was justified in using his firearm to protect lives and property" and that there would be no case presented to the grand jury. I waited for similar words from my own agency, words for which I would wait nine and a half years. WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME? 107 On the fourteenth day after the shooting, I was walk- ing back to the office from the cigar store when it suddenly hit me: I had almost been killed! I couldn't breathe as the anxiety gripped at my throat and locked me in a bear hug. I was barely able to make it back to the office where I locked myself in my work area and tried to regain control. Over the next six months, I began to lose my short- term memory: I kept losing my car keys. I lost my train of thought in mid-sentence. I became enraged when I couldn't remember where I had left my checkbook. The nightmares intensified and came several times each night. It was always the same: There was my bad guy standing at the foot of my bed smiling at me with a gun in his hand. I reach for my gun; six good shots in his chest, reload, six more shots, and he's raising his gun to fire when I wake up screaming. My constant question was always: "Why did this have to happen to me?" My crying spells always seemed to come at the most inappropriate times. I was drinking more and more. Rarely was I sober. I came to work drunk, usually drank my lunch, and went home drunker still. My production statistics dropped from many arrests and cases closed to no arrests or cases closed for many months. For the first time in my marriage, I was unfaithful to my wife. I thought I was slowly losing my mind. Surely "they" would send me away. I made life a living nightmare for my wife, who could not understand my emotions. She lived with her anguish by denying that "it" had even happened. If nothing had happened, then there was nothing to dis- cuss at home, and the shooting became a forbidden 108 IN THE LINE OF DUTY subject. It became the turning point in a marriage that soon started a downhill slide to divorce seven years later. After seven months, I realized I couldn't keep killing myself. My parents and siblings had slowly recovered from their initial shock but felt helpless as they watched my continuing self-destructive behavior. Several local police officers who had been through similar incidents were finally able to help me see light at the end of my tunnel. My father, a minister, was my closest friend throughout the whole ordeal. I think the incident may well have forced him to evaluate many of his personal feelings and religious beliefs. I stopped drinking and slowly resolved my fears and guilt with their help. The nightmares slowly diminished and eventually stopped two years after the shooting. But I swore I would neither forgive nor forget my agency for what "they" had done to me and the lack of support I had received from "them." My boss had been involved in a shooting several years before and felt I should work it out on my own. At no time did anyone from manage- ment even tell me that I was right, that my agency felt the shooting was justified. For me, I never had "clo- sure" or an end to my incident. The stigma was there: He is a "killer." Several transfers later, I was still the problem child and trouble-maker for my supervisors. I had a chip on my shoulder for management that was the size of a giant sequoia. I felt that all of my problems were their fault. In February 1988, the employees assistance program of my agency required me to attend a critical incident seminar along with twelve other agents who had been WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME? 109 involved in critical incidents during their careers. I was skeptical, and I wanted to stay mad. At the end of this seminar, I emerged without my nine and a half years of bitterness, frustration, anger, and rage. Police Psychologist Roger Solomon, who was then with the Colorado Springs Police Department, Special Agent Jim Horn of the FBI Behavioral Science Services Unit, and this group of my peers had helped me to finally unload those Herculean chips from my shoulders and rid myself of all that emotional baggage. The head of our agency addressed us during the third day of that seminar and committed headquarters sup- port to ensure that those mishandled incidents from the past would never be allowed to happen again. Those three days filled me with an inner peace that I've never experienced before. After nine and a half years, I had finally received the vindication and approval from my peers and the management of my agency that I had always wanted and needed. I can now get on with my life. In retrospect, it was my vulnerability and the feeling of a lack of control that did me in. I hated that guy for what he had done to me: for showing me my vulnerabil- ity and taking control of my life away from me for a mere four to six seconds. And, I suppose, I hated my agency for having placed me in that position. Unfortu- nately for me, the employees assistance program was not established until two years after my shooting. I will never be able to adequately express my gratitude to headquarters and the employees assistance program for making that seminar available to me and for mak- ing me attend! 110 IN THE LINE OF DUTY If I had the opportunity to share what I've learned with my fellow law enforcement officers, here's what I'd tell them: 1. We are vulnerable, and we can have our control taken from us. IT REALLY CAN HAPPEN TO YOU! We must do all that we can to physically, mentally, and emotionally prepare ourselves for the trauma of a criti- cal incident. 2. It is normal to have a reaction to a critical incident, even if we are on the periphery and not directly involved. That reaction may be mild, moderate, or severe. Any type of reaction is normal considering this abnormal event. 3. Take advantage of a peer support group or addi- tional professional counseling. Although we want to stand tough and do it alone, we cannot be an island. Don't wait nine and a half years to accept help that now will be made available to you shortly after your inci- dent. Take advantage of whatever help is offered you and realize that you are not the first to suffer this kind of tragedy, and you don't have to suffer it alone. 4. For those of you who must have contact with this individual, be gentle. Even the most innocent remark can be devastating in this individual's state of emotional hypersensitivity. We don't consider ourselves "head cases," and we don't consider ourselves heroes. We are just ordinary people who have been through extraordi- nary experiences and we are still ordinary people. A NEEDLESS DEATH ON A BEAUTIFUL DAY Sometimes it seems that tragedy begets tragedy. Too often, a family that has suffered one tremendous blow receives another just a year or two later. Stories like these make even the casual listener shiver with horror. "How can so many terrible things happen to one family?" we ask, trying to imagine how we would survive if so many tragedies befell us, and not knowing the answer. What happened to Officer Dan Gleason of the Phila- delphia Police Department and his family is one of those terrible stories-a story of pain, and devastation, and courage you never wanted to be forced to have. Pam Gleason found that courage somewhere, some- how, after her husband was killed. "Dan was my hero. I idolized him. But he never thought he was anything special." Those were Pam's closing comments to me when I interviewed her by telephone on August 3, 1989. A trustee in the COPS (Concerns of Police Survivors) group, Pam had been recommended as someone I needed to talk to for this book. She gave me two hours of her time, speaking from a friend's borrowed tele- phone in a vacation trailer in Cape May Court House, New Jersey. In those two hours, Pam told me about Dan's line-of- duty death three years before, and she told me of her own survival. Dan and Pam had six children; when Dan was killed, their youngest was three months old. Since his death, Pam was managing to carry on, attempting 111 112 IN THE LINE OF DUTY to be both mother and father to their children. It was tough, she said. It was lonely. There were tears in her voice at the end of the interview. I was impressed by her honesty and her vulnerability, her strength and her generosity of spirit. As a founder of the Southeast Delaware Valley chapter of COPS, Pam was doing a lot for other survivors. I thanked Pam, asked her to send me some news clippings about Dan when she got home from vacation, and filed my notes away for the time being. Not two weeks later, just as I was sitting down to write Pam and Dan's story for this book, I got a phone call from Betty Miller, another police widow active in COPS. "I thought somebody ought to tell you," she said. "You interviewed Pam Gleason, didn't you?" I con- firmed that I had. Betty was crying. "I don't know how to say this, but Pam is gone. She's dead." My mind raced backwards to my telephone interview with Pam nine days before. No, it was impossible, Pam couldn't be dead, not with those six children depending on her! But it was true. Pamela Gleason died on August 13, 1989. A passenger in a car driven by a drunk driver, she was killed instantly when the car ran into a tree. I looked back over my interview notes, and there were the children's names, with their ages at the time of their father's line-of-duty death just three years ago: Danny 15 Irene 14 Barry 8 NEEDLESS DEATH ON A BEAUTIFUL DAY 113 Mandy 3 Judy 2 Craig 3 months Now they were not just fatherless children. They were orphans. Danny would be 18 now. Since his father's death, he had a sense of responsibility for the family. Pam had told me that he was worried about heading for college in the fall. "Will anything get done around here without me?" he'd ask his mother. I wonder if Danny will make it to college this year, with his mother gone. I wonder if little Craig will remember either of his parents. I wonder why both parents had to be ripped away from the children they loved SO much. Looking for answers, I went back to the newspaper clippings, the fading pages that tell the story of what happened to their father. There are no answers to my. "Why's" there-only the recounting of what Pam Glea- son called "a needless death on such a beautiful day." The first of the two young parents died on June 5, 1986. In North Philadelphia on that sunny morning, a man named Nathan Long said that Allah was speaking to him. "I am the instrument of Allah," Long said. Nathan Long had à criminal record. He had been arrested on charges of riot, assault and battery, resisting arrest, and obstruction of justice after assaulting a police officer. He was found guilty of obstruction of justice and received a suspended sentence. Two warrants were out for his arrest: He had shot and wounded a 114 IN THE LINE OF DUTY neighbor, and he was a suspect in a burglary case. When Dan and his partner, rookie Laurine Venable, answered the disturbance call on West Sedgely Avenue that bright morning, they didn't know who Nathan Long was. They didn't know they were about to confront a violent man who always carried a gun, a man whose apartment was full of gun publications, a man who received murderous marching orders from his God. Long was enraged about the growing prostitution activity in his neighborhood. That morning, he encoun- tered a prostitute sitting in a car with a customer. Long accused the man of wearing a shirt stolen from Long's house. Then he picked up a baseball bat and began to smash the windows of the car. Several other people got involved in the brawl. When Officers Gleason and Venable arrived, Dan went to talk to Nathan Long, around the corner from the other people involved in the incident. Laurine Ven- able stopped to talk with them. A low-key, gentle man, Dan Gleason was good at defusing angry situations. He had calmed arguments like these many times before. But this time, he didn't get a chance. In court, Nathan Long testified that the officer came up to him and very politely asked, "Good morning, what can I do for you today?" Nathan Long's answer was six bullets fired from a semiautomatic weapon. Three bullets hit Dan Gleason in the head. Two more glanced off the bullet-resistant vest he was wearing, one of them piercing the pictures of Dan's kids in his breast pocket. Another bullet struck Dan in the right arm. Even if he'd had time to return fire, Dan probably NEEDLESS DEATH ON A BEAUTIFUL DAY 115 wouldn't have, Pam told me, because there was an eight-year-old boy near the shooting scene. "Dan would never have fired his gun with a child that close by." Officer Venable was still talking to Nathan Long's neighbors when she heard the shots ring out. Coura- geously, she ran at once toward the gunfire. Assuming a firing position, she shot at the suspect. When she ran out of bullets, she took Dan's revolver and fired again, hitting Long twice in the arm. Her shots did not stop him immediately. He got into his car and drove away, but his wounds forced him to drive to a hospital, where police arrested him. "I think she's a hero," Pam Gleason said of Officer Venable, who was devastated by her partner's death. "When she came to our home the day before the funeral, all of Dan's brothers and sisters-our whole family-stood up and applauded her." But Laurine Venable's courageous actions could not save Dan Gleason. He was pronounced dead at 10:22 a.m. at Temple University Hospital. That started Pam Gleason's long nightmare. The police officers who came to notify her of Dan's death did their best to help her. "The captain took the baby out of my arms. They went and got my kids out of school. They took me to the hospital. I had to really push to be allowed to see Dan. I could only a see a small portion of his face. "He had told me, 'If I go, don't bury anything. Give it all away' But all I could do was donate his eyes and his skin." There was the funeral-a five-mile-long motorcade. There were the immediate demands of six children-two 116 IN THE LINE OF DUTY of them in diapers!-to be met. "All my kids got real sick that summer," Pam remembered. "I think it was a combination of physical and psychological things. I'd get to bed at 2 a.m. and get up at 4 a.m. That was the only time the baby would let me sleep." Then there was Nathan Long's trial dragging on for weeks. Pam sat in the courtroom day after day. "There was one person who wasn't represented in that court- room, and it was Dan," she said. "I had to be there for him. People had to see that it was more than a badge that died that day." Victims in the courtroom are often warned by the prosecuting attorney not to show any overt emotion. A mistrial can be declared if a weeping victim or survivor can be proved to have influenced the jurors. In fact, when an aunt hugged eight-year-old Barry Gleason, who had gotten upset in the courtroom, the judge ordered them both removed. Determined to stay in the courtroom for Dan's sake, Pam sat through dramatic testimony about her hus- band's killing and his injuries, never breaking down. It came out in court that Nathan Long had planned for 10 years to kill a policeman. "I thought that consti- tuted premeditated murder, but the jury didn't see it that way," Pam said. Nathan Long was found guilty of murder and received a life sentence. After 12 years, he can petition the Governor of Pennsylvania to change his sentence to a specific number of years instead of life. If this ever happens, he will become eligible for parole. "We may have a lifetime of fighting ahead of us to keep this from happening," Pam said. NEEDLESS DEATH ON A BEAUTIFUL DAY 117 Sadly, Pam did not have a lifetime. She had just another nine days to live. Pam told me about the lowest moment she experi- enced after Dan's death. It was about a year later. "I was at the kitchen sink, up to my elbows in pots and pans. Three of the kids were hanging on me, and the other three were fighting and screaming in the next room. I was exhausted and miserable, and I said to Dan, 'How in hell can you be happy in heaven when I'm SO damn miserable down here?" It was a turning point for Pam, who soon realized that maybe Dan wasn't happy in heaven: "Maybe he couldn't be until I got it together." The Gleasons had the kind of marriage many people only dream about. "If you knew Pam, you knew Dan, and vice versa," Pam recalled. "We didn't have any money. He was just a cop and we had all these kids. So we did everything ourselves and we did everything together. He'd change diapers and wash dishes, I'd change the oil in the car. All he ever wanted to do was be with his family." Pam's love for Dan was still obvious three years after his death. "He was so handsome," she told me, "six feet tall, 165 pounds-slim, though he could eat like a horse-curly brown hair, blue eyes with those disgust- ingly long eyelashes. All my sons have inherited them." In spite of her tremendous loss, Pam went forward, founding a COPS chapter in her region, reaching out to other survivors, and taking care of her and Dan's six children. Her faith helped her. But, she told me, "I'm still having a few arguments with God about this whole thing." 118 IN THE LINE OF DUTY Pam wanted very much to see the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial completed. "I'm so thrilled with this monument, and not so much for those who died, but for anyone that is, has, or ever will wear a badge. They do a very unpleasant job and get spit on in return. It's about time police were given the same honor and dignity as military veterans. They deserve it, and it's part of the healing process." Certainly Dan Gleason deserved that permanent trib- ute. So did Pam. And SO do their children. As I write this, Pam Gleason's funeral is taking place in Philadelphia, at the same church where Dan's funeral was held a little over three years ago. "I can't help feeling there's half of me buried in that ground with Dan," she told me. - Today she will join him. AFTERWORD For Dan Gleason and for Donna Miller for Phil Lamonaco and for Ariel Rios for John Davis and for Mike Raburn, and for all the officers who have willingly given up their lives in service to the commu- nity, the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial will stand as a tribute to their courage and their sacrifice. For their spouses and their children, their parents and their brothers and sisters, the Memorial will be a place of healing. It will keep precious memories alive, and say, "Your suffering and your loss have not gone unnoticed." For the officers still serving today and for all those who will serve in the future, the Memorial is a symbol of this nation's appreciation for their dedicated service, a symbol of America's commitment to the principles of law and order they live and die for. What will this Memorial, so meaningful to so many, look like? It will occupy a city block in the heart of our nation's capital, a place called, appropriately, Judiciary Square, just blocks from the Capitol and the Supreme Court, just minutes from the Washington Monument, the Jef- ferson and Lincoln Memorials, the Vietnam Veterans Memorial, and The White House. A row of stately trees will form an oval enclosure, creating a serene, grove-like atmosphere for remem- brance. Low granite walls, polished to a high sheen, will be engraved with the names of officers lost in the line of 119 120 IN THE LINE OF DUTY duty. Benches near the walls will allow visitors to pause and reflect in comfort. Life-like statues of law enforcement officers will grace the Memorial plaza. And, every evening, the Memorial Fund wants to shine a crystal-blue laser beam high into the night sky, representing the "thin blue line" of police protection that stands between ordinary citi- zens and criminals. It will be a dignified, beautiful place-a fitting trib- ute to the thousands of law enforcement officers who have given up their lives to protect our American way of life. But it can only be built with the financial support of all the American people. Please do your part. Send your tax-deductible contribution to: The National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial Fund 1360 Beverly Road, Suite 305 McLean, Virginia 22101 The names and home towns of donors will be inscribed in a special Roll of Honor to be kept with the Memorial's Archives. Please, let the families of fallen law enforcement heroes know that you care. Help build the long-overdue National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial. Thank you. The memorial is an important step forward in honoring those who have fought and died to preserve and protect America's ideals, not on foreign soil as others have been called to do, but here in our streets, in our cities, in our neighborhoods and communities. U.S. Attorney General Dick L. Thornburgh This memorial, which was authorized by the United States Congress, will signify the respect and appreciation of our citizens for the valiant efforts of the men and women who, today and over the years, have made many personal sacrifices in order that this Nation's citizens can live in a lawful society. William S. Sessions Director Federal Bureau of Investigation This memorial will serve as a tribute to not only those federal, state, and local law enforcement officers who gallantly died in the line of duty but to those 600,000 law enforcement officers who bravely serve their country daily. John R. Simpson Director U.S. Secret Service The memorial will honor law enforcement officers who died in the line of duty and those who carry on in protecting the values and freedoms that Americans cherish. Stephen E. Higgins Director Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco and Firearms The National Law Enforcement Memorial will give solemn recognition to the brave men and women who gave their lives in defense of the safety of their fellow citizens. Stanley E. Morris Immediate Past Director U.S. Marshals Service